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PEW PEW LMAO

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[attr="class","freiwanttmid"]CHARACTER FACTION league

[attr="class","freiwanttmid"]CHARACTER RANK cadet

[attr="class","freiwanttmid"]FACE CLAIM seraphine from league of legends

[attr="class","freiwantttop"]ABOUT THE CHARACTER

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-- Cheated and got caught, saying "I want to die"[break]
Amazing for you to stock up your 'ideal lover'[break]
your home life wasn't great.
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bad enough for you to escape, confide in a guy in your early teenage years. you didn't know what a relationship was, but he made you happy. you spent time with him, more than you did with your family. eventually, you spent more time with him than your friends. soon, you didn't have friends. soon, you felt like you couldn't make friends.
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your dad passed from cancer. you didn't really like him too much. sometimes, you wished that he would keel over so that you didn't have to put up with his punches and insults. it was a different story when he did (it was the first time his pride took the blow and brought you down, to give you a kiss and a hug. it was the first time in years where he said 'thank you' and 'good job'). you wanted nothing more than his approval. he only gave it to you on his death bed.
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you were always angry at him. you got angry at yourself for getting angry at him. you got angry at yourself for spending that time with your boyfriend. now, you're angry at your boyfriend for using your anger to bring you to bed.
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-- You must have felt great after what you did[break]
flirting with several girls at the same time[break]
he did it while you were grieving too. [break][break]

you were too tired to say no. you wanted to get it over with. you knew from long ago that the relationship wasn't going to work. you were too tired. still, his cries and whines cracked your already broken heart. you looked over it and continued. it was the worst four years.
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you moved away, over to sinnoh. you kept in touch online. your time playing videogames online with him turned into streaming, thinking that it would be fun your skill attracted attention. your boyfriend didn't like the attention you got. he told you that you shouldn't put on your face cam, because people would say things about you. you got angry at him, he got defensive. he made it your fault. [break][break]

you came out to him about your depression after he got angry at you for not spending more time with him (this was your third time coming out; it's like he always forgot). he doesn't make the attempt to understand it. he keeps projecting a version of you without these "flaws". you should have broken up with him.
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-- If you choose from appearance[break]
why would you say "Inner beauty is important" to me[break]
he cheats on you. [break][break]

but he would say you're a witch and abusive. he tries to slander you online, and some people think it's true. for a while, you hide from streams and stress. you need time to recover. for a while, you blame yourself: because how dare you deprive your boyfriend of affection for so long? how could you not drop everything for him, and go straight over when he needed someone in bed? [break][break]

bullshit, you think. you break up with him. even when he tries to tug at your heart strings. he brings up the four years you were together, and you leave him in the dust. he cheated on you, and you're not willing to put up with it. a shame, because you found out when you went over to his place. [break][break]

a shame, because it was valentines day. [break][break]

a shame, because it was your birthday.
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-- I love you so much and it never changed[break]
but now it's meaningless to start over[break]
five years pass. you don't need a partner. [break][break]

you haven't recovered yet, but you're happy enough. you enjoy streaming. you set yourself straight and dress yourself up for the camera. you talk to more people. you make more friends. you reach out to the people you lost contact with years before. you see a therapist and take your medication. [break][break]

maybe if you act like your depression isn't there, it won't be there anymore. maybe if you pretend that nothing hurts, it won't hurt. lie to yourself enough, and you'll believe in it like the truth. [break][break]

you mask depression and pessimism behind a goofy smile and over the top reactions. you mask your aggravation and irritation under laughs and smiles. you make yourself laugh, so you have no space in your heart for anger. [break][break]

if you'd have to feel anything, you'd rather feel happy. [break][break]

ignorance is bliss.
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