lorelei
she / her
thirty-two
mercenary
grunt
my breath is set. i live with no regret. i am sworn to kill, never to forget.
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LORELEI ACKERMANN
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POSTED ON Nov 22, 2018 2:03:36 GMT
“ The more they isolate you, the safer you are.” It's always strange to hear him speak that way, honed onto the idea of “what is best” and “where it's safe”; not uncharacteristic by any means, no, but something exclusive only to him. Sometimes, it feels like he thinks she's constructed from glass: ready to bend, break, burn. After so long without him, left alone to her thoughts and her delusions of being hard as iron, sharp as steel, stopped by no man or monster, the notion that she need take any precision to remain “safe” is... jarring. If she had participated in the battle for Slateport, she would have either lived or she would have died. Black, white, crystal clear and cut. Safety hadn't crossed her mind then, and it hardly seems important now when he's stood before her in the eye of his personal storm. Lorelei steps aside to let him in first, falling into her more appropriate role as his shadow than his guide. Without looking her way, he describes the cut of midnight sirens through the silence of night – stakes that differed from those in times perhaps more simple – and, as he finally turns to look her way, a desire to have done more. He had fought for the League, against his former captors. She tells him simply: “ You're alive.” By all means, between the amount of destruction wrought and the vendetta the organization has against him in particular, he shouldn't be. “ Next time. You'll do more next time. It will be enough.” Nikolai reaches out to brush away her hair, and Lorelei jerks in instinct, body wrenching itself no more than a fraction of an inch away at his hand's sudden vicinity, caught between the need for flight and the knowledge that this man, at least, will not harm her. It's more telling than anything she can say. An apology hangs on her tongue, but she hasn't the strength to put it into words. “ ... Not so much, these days. I do as I am told. They've stopped finding reasons for fault.” Some had taken longer than others, but everyone comes around eventually, particularly when their target was the scapegoat rather than the target of their ire. The worst had not been their wrath, though – the worst was the space he had left in his departure, the isolation meant to keep her “safe”. She swallows the thought like bile, focusing herself instead on righting a toppled chair and holding it out for him to sit. The room is near pitch with its lack of windows. Eyes can adjust more quickly, however, than a traitor caught in the spotlight. “ It's not a cause for concern.” NIKOLAI PETROV
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