throw me a bone [s]

i used to dream in the dark of palisades park

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remi
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POSTED ON Dec 11, 2021 22:49:52 GMT
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It surprises her more, somehow, when he pulls away. She notes the way his hand hovers after he's pulled it back, only to hang loose at his side.

Remi glances up at him, eye wide. She looks.. younger, like her old self - a deer in headlights.

"It's.. not great."

He doesn't have to ask, but she knows what he wants. Discomfort flits across her face briefly as she considers revealing her injury. Once upon a time, she had trusted him with.. everything.

"I.. I don't look the same. It's quite ugly."

I'm ugly.
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POSTED ON Dec 13, 2021 10:11:00 GMT
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her hesitance is understood. he had once shared the same regarding the scars across his body. but that quickly passed.

"i'm sure it's fine."

understanding more than others might, he reaches out for her hand.

you could never be ugly.
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remi
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POSTED ON Dec 13, 2021 16:32:52 GMT
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Her hand covers her eyepatch, hiding it from him. But he sees it, he sees her, and his voice is so soft as he reaches for her. Once again, his hand brushes against hers, his warmth reaches her cheek. Her breath catches once again, her feelings bubble to the surface.

All of this time apart, all of the effort she'd spent trying to forget. And in one look, in one touch, it all comes flooding back.

Her cheek twitches as she pulls the eyepatch up and off. It unties and slips away, and she glances away instinctively as the cool air touches what she keeps covered up at all times. It feels odd, feels unnatural and unsafe. She is exposed, the scarring almost painful against the cold.

"You really don't have to look at it."

You don't have to look at me.
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POSTED ON Dec 15, 2021 16:20:44 GMT
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when her eyepatch comes off and she turns away, his hand on her cheek tilts her gaze back towards him.

"you look just as i remembered."

he smiles.

"beautiful."
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POSTED ON Dec 16, 2021 5:53:30 GMT
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The thin strap of leather dangles from two fingers. The breeze catches it, tugs it, the tie tickling her skin.

But she doesn't feel it.

All she can feel is the warmth of his hand against her cheek. All she can see is the warmth in his gaze as he looks down at her. He pulls her gently, tilts her cheek to face him.

Remi exhales through parted lips, shocked by the sight of his smile and the boldness and ease of his statement. Affection turns the skin of her cheeks rosy. The urge to close the distance taunts her.

It would be so easy.

All she had to do was jump.

"... Lance.."

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POSTED ON Dec 16, 2021 6:00:13 GMT
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it's selfish, cruel, even, for him to be doing this when he is well-aware of her feelings towards him. even more cruel when he knows he can't reciprocate them, at least not yet.

and yet, he doesn't step away, nor does he lower his hand.

all he does is continue to look at her.

"...remi."
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POSTED ON Dec 16, 2021 6:05:13 GMT
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Her name on his lips had always been a strange combination of nauseating and exhilarating. Old, unforgotten feelings come to the surface, and her hand rises to meet his. Fingers curl around his own, holding him against her cheek.

"I want to be selfish."

But her brows tremble and come together in concern. She continues to watch him, studying the unfamiliar expression he casts down on her.

This is wrong, she knows. Mere moments ago he had confessed the death of his wife, of someone he had loved endlessly. It had been selfish, then, to fall in love with him.

And it was selfish now to beg for a taste now.

But he doesn't move away, and the way he whispers her name carries meaning and longing similar to her own. His facial hair comes to her as a focal point, distracting her, temporarily, from the urge to kiss him.

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POSTED ON Dec 18, 2021 14:57:37 GMT
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"what's stopping you?"

a loaded question, because he knows all too well the things that have held her back and that continue to do so. their fingers intertwine, and he gives her hand a gentle squeeze, reassuring.

and he leans forward — it should be all the invitation she'll ever need.
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remi
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POSTED ON Dec 19, 2021 7:28:07 GMT
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Remi's eyes widen further, scar tissue stretches, grotesque. He leans closer, whispers softly. He is real and reassuring and warm.

But dread creeps quietly down the back of her neck, it prevents her from breathing, from moving.

's voice whispers to her now. Encouraging her to take him, telling her that she could have whatever she wanted if she just took it. But she had run, then. Calla's advice had become a double-edged blade. Her words were wicked, her actions cruel.

She hadn't wanted Remi to be happy.

His fingers twine through her own. He holds her steady, gaze unwavering.

The fear that holds her back as well as the guilt and bitterness crumbles.

Her kiss is shy and sweet, absent of the rage and the hunger she so often displays.

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POSTED ON Dec 20, 2021 9:17:30 GMT
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and so, she meets him, taking the plunge into unfamiliar depths. what awaits them along the way? perhaps they'll find out.

he returns the kiss, not shy, but sweet, gentle, and caring.
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POSTED ON Dec 20, 2021 20:05:50 GMT
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Remi would be the first to break away from him, realization and guilt leaving the taste of her lips against his bitter and uncomfortable. She leans away, pushing him with the flat of her hand and shaking her head.

"This isn't right."

But was that true? Why couldn't it be?

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POSTED ON Dec 22, 2021 9:01:14 GMT
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she breaks away, pushing him back with the flat of her hand. for her sake, and maybe his own, he doesn't push any further.

"i'm sorry."

and yet he doesn't step away just yet.
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remi
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POSTED ON Dec 24, 2021 5:02:27 GMT
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"Are you doing this out of pity?"

Her first response is to deflect and raise suspicion. Remi swallows, staring hard at him through guarded eyes. What did he want? What had that kiss meant?

"Did it even mean anything?"



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lance
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POSTED ON Dec 27, 2021 7:47:51 GMT
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pity?

"remi..."

this is the reaction he initially expected. still, hearing it isn't any less painful.

he pauses, considering.

"what do you want it to mean?"
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remi
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POSTED ON Dec 28, 2021 20:34:52 GMT
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His question gives her dry-mouth. The sound of her name on his tongue leaves her agitated and afraid.

"I don't know."

But she loves him, in some manner of the word. He had been her partner, her best friend, the most important person in her life outside of Roman and Calla. He had been kind and patient and attentive where the others had been cold and calculating and unforgiving.

"Why did you do that?"