the ascendant
she/her
twenty-nine
November 03
sootopolis
demisexual
councilwoman
champion
i got new love, new skin to wrap myself in
cornered [c]
POSTED ON May 7, 2022 23:05:42 GMT
she stands on this gods-forsaken island and again, she finds herself alone. on her knees, fingers digging into the earth, and all the hurt comes in at once. the waves lap at the grassy shore and the world is soft - how can it be so unkind?
lyune crouches beside her, the last of her comforts. but even he's half-gone, driven to a madness she can no longer understand.
she can no longer reach.
her hands go to her neck. brown, dried blood comes away, reminding her that her journey wasn't a dream, that the part of her she feels is missing is not a mania brought on by FERNANDO SILPH 's touch.
fernando. her home. how can she return now? after artemis' sacrifice?
curled fingers leave the grass, tearing, go to her head. she pulls. pain prickles her scalp and she curls in on herself - as though that can stop all of this from pouring out of her.
alexander, disappearing in front of her.
he was always gone. it wasn't him, freya. it wasn't him. but it was real nonetheless. and he cared for her, in those sparse last moments. and maybe it was because he'd loved her, that he'd needed the comfort of his freya - his artemis - as the end approached.
but now she's left cracked and bleeding, an addict warring with herself, thinking of how easy it'll be if she just goes back to fernando.
rewrite me. take me. use me. make it go away.
lyune stands when she does. she mounts him with shaking hands and the air gathers under his wings. his ascent is momentous - this will be the last time she returns to this accursed place.
child of the moon, daughter of the sun - where do you belong?
it's under the cover of a new moon that she finds her way to the only place she's found comfort these past few months. - how long has it been? how long have i been gone? - she doesn't know. it could be years in the future, years in the past. and this realization strikes her harder than he ever has.
she hurries her walk, recalling lyune. her clothes are in tatters, dirtied and torn from months (years, seconds, hours) in that other world. the bar is filled with late-night patrons. it smells the same. looks the same. sounds the same.
her gaze is wild, scanning people, breath hitching with relief when she sees the familiar face. he's raising a glass to his lips, talking to someone at the bar, but she doesn't care. doesn't notice?
she reaches out, grabs his arm, demands his attention.
"i need you. now. please. can we go...somewhere?" behind her, the small crowd jeers as someone gets knocked in the ring.
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