Memo
He/him
28
August 26
Spikemuth, Galar Region
Homosexual
Ranger Captain
Elite Ranger
it gets lonely in this gangster's paradise
afternap [s][c]
POSTED ON Aug 30, 2022 3:56:16 GMT
[attr="class","samcam"] tw 4 suggested noncon, drug use He makes a sound halfway between a whine and a sob because he wasn't getting out of this, was he? "I--," oh, god, he was going. He was going to have to say this. "My-- fuck, I don't-- I don't know. I kissed a boy at school (in a bathroom! I thought we were safe) and my parents found out and I guess they were tired of me-- transgressing, so my mom looked me in the eye and said I was dead to her and my dad had already hit me so I just." He was not going to cry, he wasn't. "Left, and I was outside and alone and, it's a community, right, everyone knows everything (so stupid of me to think I was safe) so no one would take me in. So I-- I slept at the bus stop or under a bridge and. The first time, it was raining sooo bad and I. was so hungry. I snuck into a shitty dive bar and was planning on dining and dashing when a bunch of people about my age came in." And now that he'd started he couldn't stop. "And we got to talking and I followed them to a couple clubs and there was this guy, who was clearly into me, and-- I don't know, I got really drunk and went back to his place and. I had absolutely no idea what I was doing, and I didn't really care, all that mattered is I was warm and dry and I didn't have to worry about waking up with a knife at my throat. So I-- I just did what he wanted." He squeezes his eyes shut, voice breaking. "I don't-- I'd never done anything before so I just. Let him do what he wanted. Over and over. He was drunk. And then when he finally passed out I stole some cash out of his wallet and skipped town."He laughs, and it comes out the tiniest bit unhinged. "And then it was just. Just that. Over and over and over again for years. Eventually, I learned-- hah, learned, that's a funny verb-- what was easiest, if I got really good at it I could just do that, in the bathroom, get the fifty bucks for the motel. And-- I let people give me drugs or buy me drinks because it was easier. Easier to pretend. Easier to ignore. To rise above it."
He swallows, a little bit more under control. "And I'm pretty sure I got roofied at least twice but-- it doesn't matter because what was going to happen just happened. You know, a lot of university towns have free STD testing." "And I was really-- I. Was in a really bad place. Like, bad bad, when my cousin messaged me and suggested I come to Hoenn. So I did. And the Rangers-- saved my life. Meeting you saved my life."[newclass=.samcam] [/newclass][newclass=.samcam b] color: #d49736; font-size: 12px; letter-spacing: .5px; [/newclass][newclass=.samcam i] color: #d49736; font-size: 12px; letter-spacing: .5px; [/newclass][newclass=.samcam u] text-decoration: none;border-bottom: dashed 1px #d49736; font-size: 12px; letter-spacing: .5px; [/newclass][newclass=.samcam a] text-transform:uppercase!important;font: 800 15px Poppins!important; [/newclass]
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