i used to dream in the dark of palisades park.
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POSTED ON Jan 30, 2023 7:50:54 GMT
"oui?"[break] this was choked out, esmee easily losing her cool - albeit for a small moment. she had followed gaultier's bite marks closely, wanting to share every bit of his company and that had left her coughing up what she had just tried to enjoy. the question of what they were had her flustered, although she knew it was fair of him to ask. this was the time she would lie and say she was utterly and fully in love with him - to grab him by the back of his neck and kiss him fervently and passionately like something out of a movie and ensure him she would be by his side forever. [break] that did not feel right, however. gaultier was no simple man, nor was he another one of her victims.[break] "what are we indeed ..." the blonde thought out to herself, trailing off as she allowed her hands to wander along his frame as well. both hands found themselves into his back pockets, bidding his hips forward and against her own to close the space between themselves. one hand trailed up to his hair, admiring the soft carefully groomed strands and breathing in his cologne as she rested her head against his chest with all the closeness she allowed herself. "we are not man or woman," she continued in her train of thought, her ego tripping violently as she went on this tangent in a ways to consolidate in her mind exactly what she wanted to say to this question that she had feared would come sooner or later. to say she was fearful of commitment wasn't wrong, but it wasn't that she was polygamous - she had simply never had any real interest in anyone to the point of giving any piece of herself. vulnerability was a sign of weakness to her and she had been taken advantage of for showing any of it before, albeit in a professional sense. how she hated that she had any form of vulnerability still, but she looked upon gaultier and knew --[break] he deserved everything from her, the world, and beyond. for a man so committed to his work, he had saved so many and would continue to help so many more. what had anyone ever done for him but been distractions of his ever-busy life? the sky seemed like a dismal backdrop for someone so radiant, promising, and captivating. [break] "you're breathtaking." this was said softly, without thought. esmee, herself, didn't register she had gushed so openly, her eyes trailing behind her body's actions as they struggled to peel off of her company.[break] "you well know i am no good for you, gaultier." a layer of honesty peeled back the abhorrent truth. she had no place next to him, but she did not care. "est-ce que cela vous excite ou vous effraie (does that excite you or scare you)?" her claws were out now, perched over the soft skin of his right cheek as if to rip his very jaw out if he didn't dare answer correctly. no answer would come, however, as she continued on to properly address the question. she owed him that much, and so much more - not only for the way she had gotten him to break character to come into her web, but also for all the time she had taken from him up to that point. "i feel like when i first met you, i had known you forever." her hand became gentle, holding his face the same way a jeweler admired the rarest diamond. even esmee's gaze softened, her usual feline gaze turning demure and almost shy. "i don't feel shame saying it openly: i have never cared for anyone." of course, this was true until recently and so she added it on softly, her expression turning into one that was sure of herself, gentle, and happy. "perhaps it was because i was too busy in love with the idea of you. it is unfair to admire the concept of someone, but i had no choice - i didn't have the name or figure to put to what i wanted, but then you appeared and filled in the gaps." her arms wrapped around him in a serpentine manner, squeezing him against her so they could breathe the same air. her eyes burned gently into gaultier's own, letting him know she wasn't being dishonest and wasn't going to let him run away if he was fearful. [break] it was far too late for that.[break] "you are no man, you are amour (love). anyone would be crazy about you and so fortunate to have you by their side as a friend, colleague, or otherwise. i am, unfortunately for you, greedy enough to keep you to myself." tracing a fingernail along his jaw, she smirked now - replenishing the hungry, dirty look oftentimes in her expression when it came to him. "exclusive? dating? together? all terms to mean the same thing. you are mine, gaultier favreau. as you are mine, you may call me your own. does that answer your question?"[break] ⚰︎ divider made by milky!
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