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i used to dream in the dark of palisades park

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illie, sap sipper
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snowpoint city, sinnoh
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5’8” height
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POSTED ON May 18, 2023 16:45:38 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]she's grown a little too comfortable with an empty house. there is no longer a pang of loneliness or of wanting to tear the walls down to find someone who hasn't been here.

there is only acceptance and the sensation of defeat that follows.

his text, and subsequent arrival, comes at an odd time. distance has grown to an unmanageable level, spreading like ivy until she's covered and restrained.

and yet, she recognizes his knock against her door. firm, sharp, echoing.

her voice rises a moment later from her spot on the couch, buried beneath a fuzzy blanket and pressed into too many throw pillows.

"it's open."




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POSTED ON May 19, 2023 0:59:52 GMT
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had bonded with Wo-Chein, a harbinger of Hoenn's impending ruination.

That was the singular thought that had consumed Felix's week. That was the fact that ran his mind numb with poisonous thoughts that left the body aching. That was the very reality that pulsated this grand sweeping heat both up and down his spine, filling his head with hot air.

So, when he came pounding on Illeana's door, it was not to bare flowers or gifts or sweet niceties. It was to distract himself and his unraveling mind; to focus on someone, something far removed from this primordial fear that hell was starting to rise from the graves of Petalburg City's Cemetery.

"Hey," he greeted with a simple hand wave before clicking the door close behind him. Heavy footsteps carried the SPECTRA agent down the small apartment, where he would swoop in and press a kiss on the top of his girlfriend's hair. "I've missed you."





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illie, sap sipper
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september 23rd
snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
head professor
consumed
with what's to transpire.
5’8” height
5’8” height
you caged me and then you called me crazy; i am what i am 'cause you trained me.
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POSTED ON May 19, 2023 1:10:05 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]i've missed you.

did he?

the kiss atop her head is distracting, sure, but it doesn't quell swirling thoughts and an anxious mind.

why hasn't he been here if he missed her?

her head tilts upward to stare at him.

how could he keep a distance without any hesitation? does he not yearn? does he not crave?

perhaps it is her, and her alone, that faces such human emotions.

"i missed you too."

honest, soft.

her lips quirk up slightly into a smile.

"have you been doing okay?"




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POSTED ON May 22, 2023 2:51:28 GMT
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"Good, yeah."

It wasn't. From the way he immediately pulled away to the way his eyes averted from hers, it was obvious afflictions were pulling his mind apart.

To someone who'd based their entirety on projection, the crippling realization of loss was not one to overcome in a night. Or even two.

Still, he tried his best here. If anyone could distract him, it would be .

"And you?"



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illie, sap sipper
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snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
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POSTED ON May 25, 2023 3:39:05 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]she's quiet. even with the brewing of anxiety waking up and wiping sleep from its eyes, she can't find what to say.

how is she?

lonely, she realizes with him so close yet a whole universe away. loneliness has never felt so strong. it's painful in his presence... here yet not, present but already gone.

"fine."

her eyes stay focused on him, on the distance between them.

she can't seem to cross it.

"you seem... preoccupied."

instead, she'll cast assumptions until something hits.




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POSTED ON May 25, 2023 15:53:18 GMT
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Preoccupied was the understatement of the century.

He was tired, overworked, and now dying from anxiety. But he'd never admit as much.

Rather, a shot of frustration flared deep inside himself - he came to see Illeana to avoid talks of work, not to revel in it. All he wanted was to lay at her side, bury his head in her lap, and feel the soft graze of her fingers stroking every curl on his head. Or to watch another stupid movie together, where her soft chuckles would bounce off his chest, and he could just stare at her reactions, watching every rise and fall without interruptions.

But, instead, he got this.

"I'm not."

Rough edges studded his tone. Crossed arms and avoidant eyes painted the rest of the picture.





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illie, sap sipper
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september 23rd
snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
head professor
consumed
with what's to transpire.
5’8” height
5’8” height
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POSTED ON May 26, 2023 2:29:00 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]liar.

it stings, too much actually, to see such a blatant falsehood.

does he not trust her to open up?

or... is it something else entirely different...?

her mind races through emotions and thoughts too quickly for her to keep up.

liar liar liar.

"you are."

she digs her heels in. firmly, in fact.

"if you weren't, you wouldn't be avoiding me."

why is he avoiding her? is it something unrelated to their relationship? or... is it her? anxiety reaches a boiling point and quickly begins to dissolve into dread.




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POSTED ON May 28, 2023 6:42:02 GMT
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Why was she being like this?

Why was she always like this?

Exasperation is subtle in the way it crossed his expression, finding a home in the shadows of his eyes, the line of his jaw. He was like the rising sun breaking through the clouds of yesterday; she'd see more when she didn't look directly

"I'm not avoiding you, illie."

His voice neared a low growl. Frustrations are reaching a boiling point.

"Why would I even avoid you?




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illie, sap sipper
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september 23rd
snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
head professor
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5’8” height
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POSTED ON May 28, 2023 23:30:29 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]there it is...

that funny feeling where she's a child again, staring up at parental figures who stomp angrily around the house. one wrong move and it starts a battle, slowly budding into a war.

she shrinks against the couch despite herself.

"i don't know?"

it will do no good to pick a fight here. she knows this, understands it, but she feels herself wearing thin.

"you've been distant for a while now."

is it her fault? has she caused this large divide?

or is it simply... inevitable that they end up on two different sides of the same field?

a frown rises and she tries to look at him, she does, but the sun is blinding and her eyes find solace in the plush living room carpet instead.




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POSTED ON May 31, 2023 17:41:24 GMT
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"I've been busy."

Distant was a word used to disparage. To say effort wasn't being placed into something of importance.

A rough statement to make when all his life was dedicated to someone, something of importance.

Whether it be her, rocket, SPECTRA, , - his worth only amounted to the work he provided. To the efforts he placed in fulfilling his roles to each title that struck his name.

"Is that so wrong? Can I not be busy?"



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illie, sap sipper
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september 23rd
snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
head professor
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5’8” height
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POSTED ON Jun 1, 2023 2:41:20 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]busy.

her eyes narrow at the concept.

everyone's busy. he's busy, she's busy... but why does this have to suffer?

is it not right to find solace in each other despite the crowded nature of their schedules?

she looks conflicted, torn between understanding and a quick temper.

"too busy to even call?"

her voice is smaller. she despises it.

insecurity bleeds between syllables and breaths until she's choking.

and she knows, recognizes even, that she's making this bigger than it has to be but she can't will herself to stop. toxicity bubbles up through cracks in her composure.

"have you actually even missed me?"

or is it just something hollow to play a part?




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POSTED ON Jun 1, 2023 18:44:37 GMT
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"Of course I've missed you!"

There it was. The explosion.

Heat trickled off from the shoulder, pooling down below. It was frightening how quickly he was gobbled up by himself. How fast a spark bleeds into an inferno.

"Do you think I'm lying when I say it?"

Did you not trust me, his lips wanted to scream.

Because didn't trust him. She didn't trust him, or rocket, or any of those kept around her, and now look at where she is. Swallowed up and forced into the role of a puppet.-top:1px solid #232323;padding-left:20px;padding-top:20px;text-align:justify;"]

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illie, sap sipper
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september 23rd
snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
head professor
consumed
with what's to transpire.
5’8” height
5’8” height
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POSTED ON Jun 7, 2023 2:47:18 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]she shrinks at first, an animal scared of getting burned by fire...

anger explodes in a mess of shrapnel and heat. it looks to maim and she's in the crossfire.

there is no avoiding the injuries.

"then why haven't you been around?"

her voice climbs an octave, higher with thinly veiled anger.

his own emotions are a match to ignite her own. they're playing in diesel, reeking of mutual destruction.

"your actions don't match your sentiments."

her eyes turn on him, sharp and accusatory.

"do you even want to be here?"




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POSTED ON Jun 8, 2023 5:48:30 GMT
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"Because I have work, Illie?"

Incredulity tore at his features, ripping apart what was previously held together by mere threads. Reality had worn at him these past couple of weeks, and it was in this moment of peace he'd sought comfort, not conflict.

But there was no escaping conflict. It followed him like a shadow, always one step behind, creeping over his shoulders.

"What do you want me to do? Quit? Would that make you happy?"






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illie, sap sipper
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september 23rd
snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
head professor
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POSTED ON Jun 9, 2023 2:13:53 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]she feels it before it happens... there's always a tell.

the tightening of the jaw, the strain of muscles fighting for control.

and she tries. really, she does... but he pushes a button and she self destructs. fire only burns so long before it ignites into an explosion.

"everyone has work, felix!"

a scoff follows, as if she's heard it time and time again. perhaps she has. perhaps this is normal now but she doesn't want that. she doesn't want this: the conflict, the tiptoeing around each other and the giant elephant in the room.

"effort. i want effort! it's not fucking rocket science."

she's staring daggers into him now, hands trembling in tiny fists balled up at her sides. the couch is left behind and she stands, chin rising a little higher. she'll choke herself with her own self-righteousness, you know. it's destiny, fated by the stars.

"is that so hard?"

tears gather at waterlines. stubbornly, she tries to blink them away. they cling, holding on too tight. she should expect it, too, for everything she does comes with white knuckles and the fear of letting go.

"is that too much to ask for?"




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