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i used to dream in the dark of palisades park

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POSTED ON Oct 7, 2023 2:04:48 GMT
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she draws her hands away from the bag and into her lap, lacing them together. pale gold searches his face. 

"because you haven't asked me to stop."
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POSTED ON Oct 7, 2023 2:12:50 GMT
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"Do I have ta? Why else would I be 'ere?"
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"But, if ye don't plan ta change — ta stop actin' on yer own — then... I won't ask ye ta stop. I can't."


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POSTED ON Oct 7, 2023 2:28:43 GMT
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why else?

"i don't know, king. you already said no." took her fantasy, their idea of a happy life, a way out, and ripped it in half. left her in an empty bed with a hollow heart. 

she stands, reaches for the bag, drops her hand, curls her fingers in frustration, and then rakes them through her hair. if only he hadn't been here met with a sharp ache, a fleeting i'm glad he was here.

"how can i let you in? when you can't do the same for me?"
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POSTED ON Oct 7, 2023 2:34:02 GMT
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[attr="class","char-words"]Frustration is so clearly etched into her features. Now of all times her mask slips— the façade crumbles.
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"Let ye in? Haven't I? Yer the one lyin' ta me. The one who won't let me in. What more is there of me ta give? Yer chasing a ghost and lettin' that... life guide yer reasoning in everything."
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"Ye still haven't come back from that place."
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POSTED ON Oct 7, 2023 2:51:46 GMT
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i'm not lying! she wants to yell, but she knows what he means. she knows she has. she has kept secrets from him. too many secrets

and why? 

because she can't trust him? no, because - 

her brows furrow.

"i only ever wanted out. everyone gave up. , , even ...but i never stopped. so don't tell me i haven't come back when all i've wanted since coming back is freedom. our freedom. your freedom."
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POSTED ON Oct 7, 2023 4:04:27 GMT
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"I don't need ye ta fight fer my freedom. Stop takin' the whole fuckin' world upon yer shoulders for Arceus sake woman."
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She's insufferable when she gets like this. Ugh.
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"Stop. We are a team. Ye either get on board, or I get off."

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POSTED ON Oct 7, 2023 4:24:21 GMT
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"but you won't fight for yourself," she starts, but he cuts her off, says to stop. she stares aghast, anguishing. after all of it, all of this, and it is still not enough. even in galar, he told her to stop. even then, he'd given up too. 

she stands abruptly and grabs the duffel bag, slings it over her shoulder. stops, shaking. 

"i want to be on your side, but i can't change who i am. i can't change what i've done and i can't change what i'm going to do." a hitch of her breath. 

tell him

"elisabeth is going to go after fernando.

"i have to protect him."
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POSTED ON Oct 7, 2023 4:30:59 GMT
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POSTED ON Oct 7, 2023 4:34:30 GMT
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the truth, stripped of its grandeur. the truth, as selfish as it is. the truth, unimportant. small. that which defines her and makes her every bit a petulant narcissist fernando believes her to be. 

"because i need to do something that matters." 

and - 

"because after all of my failings, i finally have a chance to keep my word."
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POSTED ON Oct 7, 2023 4:46:32 GMT
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[attr="class","char-words"]"After everything he's done ta ye — after what his family has done. Ye go runnin' back?"
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POSTED ON Oct 7, 2023 4:58:08 GMT
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she'd been honest with him then, over a plate of eggs and bacon he'd cooked for her. honest, in most ways, about the mist, but she hadn't divulged the worst of it. she never told him about the self-degradation, the way she fucking lapped from his hand like an animal. 

he'd never look at her the same, if he knew. 

she looks over her shoulder and is not prepared to see that the fire has left him. hesitantly, the bag slips from her grasp, hanging from her hand, and then she sets it on the floor. 

crosses the short distance back to him and gently, finally, cradles his head in her hands. she stares up at him and says, "i want to be a better person than him. than both of them. 

"and i...that could have been me. whatever he's done to elisabeth, she let it warp her."
her jaw tightens. "gods, there's so much to this, king, and it's confusing and it's awful and i'm so scared and - " she stops, swallows, smiles tersely. 

"and i'm afraid i don't deserve to lean on you."
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POSTED ON Oct 10, 2023 0:52:27 GMT
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[attr="class","char-words"]Her touch is soft, despite the calluses; reservation, hesitation, and so many more emotions keeping them from being entirely still.
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She's right — the fire isn't there. Embers flicker, coated with the heavy hand of exhaustion. He wanted nothing more than to sleep, and that was before.. all of this.
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"It's not a matter of what ye deserve. It's a matter of what is. That's it. I don't care about or ."
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"No more, Freya. I won't put up with it. Tell me you'll change, right 'ere, right now. Or.. I walk."

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POSTED ON Oct 10, 2023 1:13:48 GMT
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her fingers knit tersely in his hair and defiance - always, always defiance - bubbles back up to the surface, a pride hammered into the edges of her soul. it grips her tightly now, at the edge of the world, and the idea of letting it go is unfathomable. 

but so too is dropping her hands, drawing away. she stays there, paralyzed. it's her bag on the floor, but he'll be the one to walk away? 

"i just said i want to be a better person." words ushered thinly, lacking gravitas, wobbling at the end because when has she ever known what it means to be better than herself? 

"how can i change when i don't know who i am anymore?" a legacy lost, a home uprooted, a family gone. "all i know are absolutes." 
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POSTED ON Oct 10, 2023 2:20:24 GMT
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[attr="class","char-words"]"I know." He says, voice soft. She was fighting for a home she'd lost, not quite realizing in the process, she was putting turning her back on the one she had.
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"I told ye I'd help ye take back what was yers — that never changed. Ye did. Or—" A thought strikes like a bolt of lightning, only, far more subdued. "—Maybe ye haven't. Maybe this was just a long time comin' and I just couldn't see it."
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"Yer committed ta this path then?"



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POSTED ON Oct 10, 2023 2:46:44 GMT
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what were they meant to do? raze sootopolis to make it theirs again? turn her back on the people and become a turncoat herself? she'd been close to it, but that was before him. before he mattered, in all the best and worst ways. she flinches, draws her hands away and fists them in the front of her hoodie.

a long time coming. 

his resignation makes her shock fade into one awful, reliable emotion. 

anger.

"you knew who i was and still, you let me in. you pulled me from hell and i said it wasn't going to be easy and still, you told me you loved me." shoulders shaking, another step back. 

"if my finally doing right by my mistakes means you won't stay, then - 

"fine."
 the word's bitten around the edges, embers hot off her teeth. 
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