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BLINDED BY LOVE AND ROSE TINTED LENS

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[attr="class","freiwanttop"]ABOUT THE CHARACTER

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tw: domestic abuse
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-- break my heart again[break]
THOSE EYES ARE MARTYRS, YOU'RE MY UNLUCKY CHARMER[break][break]

mom and dad are fighting.
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but that's alright, because they love each other. you know they love each other, because they always say that to you. even when mom's on the ground, crying, she's smiling and telling you that it's okay. she says your father is just angry, that she shouldn't have done something. it was always mom's fault.
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you ask dad why he hits her. he says because he want the best for you two, and he wants things to be good for you. he says that he loves you, and you say okay (even when he brings someone new home, even when you hear mom crying in the other room. he loves you, he says he loves you, and that was enough for you).
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because sometimes you go out. sometimes you laugh and sometimes you have fun. sometimes you watch mom have fun. sometimes you watch dad have fun. sometimes you have fun, and sometimes you wish the fun can never end. dad works hard for you and mom, so it's okay for him to treat you like this.
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because this was love.
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-- break my heart again, and again[break]
SAID I WOULD BE SMARTER, SAID I WOULD TRY HARDER[break][break]

you meet a little boy with scars on his face and blood on his legs.
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you patch him up, smile and help him. you become friends, and you're happy. you try to make him happy, and you find that your attempts are successful. he opens up to you, cries to you about his parents (he hates them both, with bruises you'd see on your mom littering his arms and legs).
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he gets mad at you and people around him, but you calm him down. you are friends, so you try to make him happy. he becomes happy, and you're both happy. that's enough for you.
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you make more friends, but he's never happy when you're too busy with them. you go spend time with him and, before you know it, you don't have any friends anymore. you were a bit sad and you're a bit lonely, but it's okay. you just want your friend to be happy. you just want him to smile.
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this was love.
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-- watch me crack and break[break]
MY OLDEST FRIEND, MOST DANGEROUS ENEMY[break][break]

grandma and grandpa take you in, one day.
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because mom and dad don't love you anymore? you don't know what the adults say or what they do, but you smile and tell them everything's okay. they tell you again and again (love like that is abnormal. people who love each other wouldn't hurt them). you don't really understand, because not everything was bad.
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you still love mom and dad (even when they hit you sometimes, after you were taken away. even when they call you a mistake, useless and so forth; even when they cried and hugged you, apologizing for what they did. this was love).
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you still go to school and graduate, with only him as your friend. you don't dislike anyone, but he does. he tells you not to hang out with them, and you agree: because you love him. even when you say you want to go to university and he says no, you listen: because you love him. even when he can't find a job and you're living off your own savings, you still give him the money when you have it. why? because you love him. he only told you not to do things, because he loved you.
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this was love.[break][break]

-- watch me fall right back in[break]
WHEN YOU SPEAK I'M DUMB, AND HONOUR ALL YOUR LIES[break][break]

you stayed with him.
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for how long? always for him, everything for him. because it was for him, you could stand everything (the bruises, being locked in, the yelling and the fighting). everything was for him, because you loved him. he did all of this to you, because he loved you, too. you don't tell people that he hurts you, and you never tell anyone that you're hurt, because this is all for love.
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even when he brings someone home and when you occasionally get mad. even when he beats you, yells at you, fights with you? you're okay. he loves you, and you love him back. you know he loves you, so you do everything to make him happy and keep his love. even if it means trying to bring money home. even if it means turning to crime to bring home money. even if it means sacrificing yourself for him, all while he wears you down.
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even when he doubts himself, cries to you and apologizes. you tell him it's okay, because you love him, and he loves you. it's always okay.
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was this love?
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yes, this is love.