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December 26
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Grigori Sokolov
[DDD] Hidden in the Heart
POSTED ON Oct 11, 2023 5:53:29 GMT
“I’m sorry.”
Grigori sat at the kitchen table, just like always. The right leg barely hovered over the ground, a product of age and shoddy craftsmanship but perfect for when he wanted to be defiantly annoying. Sunlight trickled in from a grimy, spotted window as he, his father, and his mother ate dinner. A meager portion of bread and soup sat in front of him. His stomach growled loudly.
“Wh-what do you mean, Mr. Sokolov?”
Caution could never be the wrong decision even as he stared into Mr. Sokolov’s red, teary eyes. The last time he fell for it, the next few days had been a nightmare of awkward conversations and sleepless nights. Mother sat on the right, too focused on her spoon that circled the rim of the lukewarm bowl. Head lowered. Just like always.
“Please, Grigori, you don’t need to call me that anymore,” Mr. Sokolov said. Carefully, he laid his own spoon on the neatly folded napkin. “I’m… sorry, for everything I’ve done so far.”
Grigori did his best to hide the confusion, but his eyebrows furrowed all the same. This man better not be a liar. “But, what have you–”
“Stop.”
His body tensed up. Mr. Sokolov scanned the boy and sighed deeply. “Forgive me, I did not mean to yell. Please, Grigori, hear me out.”
Silence followed. Mr. Sokolov’s eyes darted around the walls with peeling paint and no fixtures. The small room grew tense, thick enough to cut through with a knife. Ice cracked inside its glass, and condensation slid slowly onto the worn-down table.
“I’ve had an, what’s it called… epiphany,” Mr. Sokolov started suddenly, “of my behavior. My drinking. My… gambling. I look at the lives of those around us. Lowly. Undesirable. We drag ourselves to work to do awful labor under terrible conditions. And we ride home on buses falling apart and drive on roads that look like the aftermaths of a mine attack. The houses run down.
“But we have enough. Food security. Consistent pay. Slowly yet surely, the government does try to make our lives better.”
“And even then,” he motions to the room. The dirt that permanently resides in the corners. Lights flicker above, on the verge of their inevitable demise. Even the air from outside penetrates the thin walls; equilibrium is reached at whatever temperature Mother Nature decides appropriate.
Grigori could write a thesis about the disrepair of their house.
So could Mr. Sokolov, apparently. “We live worse than our neighbors. Are looked down upon by our neighbors. Because of me.”
“And I can’t… we can’t, keep going like this,” Mr. Sokolov said. By now, the corners of his eyes streamed salty tears which fell to the corners of his lips and onto his chin. “This is not the life we should have, and it’s not the life either of you deserve. So, starting tomorrow I am. I’m going to get the help I need. Figure out when the Double-A meetings happen, and start working more. This will be a tumultuous time for the near future, but it’s a necessary change.”
“Liar,” Grigori spit out. Pinpricks erupt on his skin. A cold fear descends on his head and limbs. Why had he said that? There had been more elaborate lies than this. Better performances. This would surely spark the wrath of–
“I understand,” Mr. Sokolov said. Grigori blinked. What? “This is sudden and out of nowhere. You’re probably just as confused as I am. Hell, if you don’t trust me for the rest of your life, then I won’t blame you for a second. But I can’t do any of this without first admitting my failures as a father. As your father.”
Mr. Sokolov pushed his chair back and quietly rose. Grigori did not break eye contact while Mr. Sokolov slowly walks around the table. Around his despondent mother. Every nerve on his body screams to run. To flee. To fight back, like he did in real life. Yet his limbs are heavier than lead. The only agency he has in this paralysis is his lungs, which pump air in and our like his life depends on it. He gets closer, and closer, and he raises his arms and Grigori flinches and closes his eyes and mentally prepares for the facade to end and Mr. Sokolov to strike him hard for his insolence.
Careful arms drape around his body. He is pulled into Mr. Sokolov’s chest, and wet skin presses into his short black hair. “I’m sorry, Grigori. I really, truly am. Is there any chance that within your heart, you can find forgiveness for the way I have treated you?”
Through the shot nerves, the many memories that taint this moment, the nights spent cold and hungry, and all the in between– Grigori manages to slowly nod his head. Shaky breaths wrack his fathers body as he starts to sob into his son. Blubberings fill the room, almost incomprehensible aside for the constant stream of apologies. As steady as his tears.
Unlike always, and somewhere along the way, another pair of arms embraced Grigori. His mother must have joined the pair, as silent as ever in the presence of Mr… no, in the presence of his father.
Grigori desperately wishes he could move his body and embrace this man and never let go, unlike the real life.
Prompt - Family
Word Count - Lol, lmao (This is surely above 200 words)
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