mentality

i used to dream in the dark of palisades park

close tab

played by

noodles

beck
he/him
thirty-eight
march 11th
cinnabar
bisexual
human resources
underboss
829 height
829 height
HIDING FROM THE SUN, WAITING FOR THE NIGHT TO COME.
awards
5,786 posts
THEO BECKETT DOLLARS
part of
TAG WITH @theo
THEO BECKETT
mentality
POSTED ON May 17, 2021 7:34:05 GMT
THEO BECKETT Avatar
[attr="class","beck"]finally, when the glaring red-eyes disappear into the depths of darkness, he settles into his chair, exhales, and feels at ease. PRESSURE fades, replaced by odd comfort.

"i—"

words come difficult. they've never been the type to just talk. he clears his throat, tries again.

"i don't know what to say."

[attr="class","noodles"]
[newclass=.beck] text-align: justify; font-size: 12px; } .beck b { color: #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck u { color: #b5b5b5; font-style: italic; text-decoration: underline dotted #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck a { font-family: inherit; font-size: medium; font-weight: bold; text-transform: uppercase; } .beck .noodles { margin: 0; padding: 5px 0; } .beck .noodles img { max-width: 100%; max-height: 100%; border: none; outline: none; margin: 0; padding: 0; display: inline; float: none; } .beck .noodles .pkmn { display: inline; } .beck .noodles .inactive { filter: grayscale(1); -webkit-filter: grayscale(1); [/newclass]
close tab

played by

thorn

the Harbinger
he/him
37
october 28th
circhester, galar
demisexual
underboss
the harbinger
I want corruption, I think I'm the devil in disguise.
awards
8,667 posts
part of
TAG WITH @gavin
Cillian Quinn
mentality
POSTED ON May 17, 2021 7:47:36 GMT
Cillian Quinn Avatar
Gavin laughs.

It's the breathy, wheezing, semi-hysterical laugh of someone shaking off their discomfort. But he's not making fun of Theo — rather, the look in his amber eyes is one of understanding.

"Fucking — me neither."

His laughter trails off, and when he exhales it's like a weight's been lifted.

"But it's like Blackwell, isn't it? It's just good to know we can."
close tab

played by

noodles

beck
he/him
thirty-eight
march 11th
cinnabar
bisexual
human resources
underboss
829 height
829 height
HIDING FROM THE SUN, WAITING FOR THE NIGHT TO COME.
awards
5,786 posts
THEO BECKETT DOLLARS
part of
TAG WITH @theo
THEO BECKETT
mentality
POSTED ON May 17, 2021 8:01:45 GMT
THEO BECKETT Avatar
[attr="class","beck"]his lips arc into a bare smile when he hears merlino laugh. it's more than enough to dissolve lingering tension, and he's glad for it. he nods, agreeing.

something drags the next few words out of him.

"i'm glad you survived."

[attr="class","noodles"]
[newclass=.beck] text-align: justify; font-size: 12px; } .beck b { color: #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck u { color: #b5b5b5; font-style: italic; text-decoration: underline dotted #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck a { font-family: inherit; font-size: medium; font-weight: bold; text-transform: uppercase; } .beck .noodles { margin: 0; padding: 5px 0; } .beck .noodles img { max-width: 100%; max-height: 100%; border: none; outline: none; margin: 0; padding: 0; display: inline; float: none; } .beck .noodles .pkmn { display: inline; } .beck .noodles .inactive { filter: grayscale(1); -webkit-filter: grayscale(1); [/newclass]
close tab

played by

thorn

the Harbinger
he/him
37
october 28th
circhester, galar
demisexual
underboss
the harbinger
I want corruption, I think I'm the devil in disguise.
awards
8,667 posts
part of
TAG WITH @gavin
Cillian Quinn
mentality
POSTED ON May 17, 2021 9:28:55 GMT
Cillian Quinn Avatar
Humour ferments into something bittersweet, an old memory lingering.

Hoenn had been terrifying — a punishment not for transgressions, but for the petty revenge of one Silas Blackwell. New horizons meant to be weathered as a team were instead confronted by Gavin alone, and the fate of his former mentor went unknown for many years.

"Got you to thank for it," he says. His lip quirks into the ghost of a teasing smirk. "Mostly. I'll give myself some credit; can still throw a hell of a left hook."

But, then, it had been Theo to teach him that, too.
close tab

played by

noodles

beck
he/him
thirty-eight
march 11th
cinnabar
bisexual
human resources
underboss
829 height
829 height
HIDING FROM THE SUN, WAITING FOR THE NIGHT TO COME.
awards
5,786 posts
THEO BECKETT DOLLARS
part of
TAG WITH @theo
THEO BECKETT
mentality
POSTED ON May 17, 2021 13:49:11 GMT
THEO BECKETT Avatar
[attr="class","beck"]"still? you never could."

his bare smile becomes fuller. realizing it, he turns away, eyes fleeting to whatever it can find off to the side. the chuckle that almost escaped is suppressed.

[attr="class","noodles"]
[newclass=.beck] text-align: justify; font-size: 12px; } .beck b { color: #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck u { color: #b5b5b5; font-style: italic; text-decoration: underline dotted #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck a { font-family: inherit; font-size: medium; font-weight: bold; text-transform: uppercase; } .beck .noodles { margin: 0; padding: 5px 0; } .beck .noodles img { max-width: 100%; max-height: 100%; border: none; outline: none; margin: 0; padding: 0; display: inline; float: none; } .beck .noodles .pkmn { display: inline; } .beck .noodles .inactive { filter: grayscale(1); -webkit-filter: grayscale(1); [/newclass]
close tab

played by

thorn

the Harbinger
he/him
37
october 28th
circhester, galar
demisexual
underboss
the harbinger
I want corruption, I think I'm the devil in disguise.
awards
8,667 posts
part of
TAG WITH @gavin
Cillian Quinn
mentality
POSTED ON May 17, 2021 20:47:14 GMT
Cillian Quinn Avatar
Theo suppresses his laughter, but Gavin lets out a sharp bark of it.

"Is that a challenge?"

His left hand curls into a fist as if he has every intention of getting up and throwing it, but the humour in his eyes betrays him. It simmers at Beckett's sudden discomfort.

There is nothing to the side but bare metal, cold walls.

"Hoenn is not Kanto," Gavin repeats, something softer in his tone. "You're allowed happiness here. I won't use it against you."

There should be bitterness—
Not like it was used against me.
—but there is only understanding.

close tab

played by

noodles

beck
he/him
thirty-eight
march 11th
cinnabar
bisexual
human resources
underboss
829 height
829 height
HIDING FROM THE SUN, WAITING FOR THE NIGHT TO COME.
awards
5,786 posts
THEO BECKETT DOLLARS
part of
TAG WITH @theo
THEO BECKETT
mentality
POSTED ON May 18, 2021 2:10:23 GMT
THEO BECKETT Avatar
[attr="class","beck"]the softness feels strange, uncomfortable, and it makes him shift in his seat. he clears his throat, eyes remain lost elsewhere.

"it's difficult."

because theo has never been allowed happiness.

[attr="class","noodles"]
[newclass=.beck] text-align: justify; font-size: 12px; } .beck b { color: #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck u { color: #b5b5b5; font-style: italic; text-decoration: underline dotted #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck a { font-family: inherit; font-size: medium; font-weight: bold; text-transform: uppercase; } .beck .noodles { margin: 0; padding: 5px 0; } .beck .noodles img { max-width: 100%; max-height: 100%; border: none; outline: none; margin: 0; padding: 0; display: inline; float: none; } .beck .noodles .pkmn { display: inline; } .beck .noodles .inactive { filter: grayscale(1); -webkit-filter: grayscale(1); [/newclass]
close tab

played by

thorn

the Harbinger
he/him
37
october 28th
circhester, galar
demisexual
underboss
the harbinger
I want corruption, I think I'm the devil in disguise.
awards
8,667 posts
part of
TAG WITH @gavin
Cillian Quinn
mentality
POSTED ON May 18, 2021 3:04:08 GMT
Cillian Quinn Avatar
"I know."

This time, discomfort is a pressure that Gavin can share. Theo had been broken down long before Gavin's turn had come, and to glimpse beyond the layers to the man beneath them was a miracle in and of itself.

Was there hope for his happiness at all?

"It was difficult for me, too."
close tab

played by

noodles

beck
he/him
thirty-eight
march 11th
cinnabar
bisexual
human resources
underboss
829 height
829 height
HIDING FROM THE SUN, WAITING FOR THE NIGHT TO COME.
awards
5,786 posts
THEO BECKETT DOLLARS
part of
TAG WITH @theo
THEO BECKETT
mentality
POSTED ON May 18, 2021 18:11:08 GMT
THEO BECKETT Avatar
[attr="class","beck"]was.

"how did you find it?"

[attr="class","noodles"]
[newclass=.beck] text-align: justify; font-size: 12px; } .beck b { color: #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck u { color: #b5b5b5; font-style: italic; text-decoration: underline dotted #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck a { font-family: inherit; font-size: medium; font-weight: bold; text-transform: uppercase; } .beck .noodles { margin: 0; padding: 5px 0; } .beck .noodles img { max-width: 100%; max-height: 100%; border: none; outline: none; margin: 0; padding: 0; display: inline; float: none; } .beck .noodles .pkmn { display: inline; } .beck .noodles .inactive { filter: grayscale(1); -webkit-filter: grayscale(1); [/newclass]
close tab

played by

thorn

the Harbinger
he/him
37
october 28th
circhester, galar
demisexual
underboss
the harbinger
I want corruption, I think I'm the devil in disguise.
awards
8,667 posts
part of
TAG WITH @gavin
Cillian Quinn
mentality
POSTED ON May 19, 2021 4:41:00 GMT
Cillian Quinn Avatar
"Stopped shutting people out all the time."

It's a simple truth, accompanied by a shrug of his shoulder. How else to put into words the years spent unravelling the layers he'd wrapped around himself?

"And look how far I've come, besides."

He smirks as miasma swirls in an outstretched palm.

close tab

played by

noodles

beck
he/him
thirty-eight
march 11th
cinnabar
bisexual
human resources
underboss
829 height
829 height
HIDING FROM THE SUN, WAITING FOR THE NIGHT TO COME.
awards
5,786 posts
THEO BECKETT DOLLARS
part of
TAG WITH @theo
THEO BECKETT
mentality
POSTED ON May 19, 2021 5:40:35 GMT
THEO BECKETT Avatar
[attr="class","beck"]"you have."

will theo? the thought lingers even after the miasma eventually dissipates, leaving them to their uncomfortable silence.

his fingers move against the corners of the folder, distracting him enough.

[attr="class","noodles"]
[newclass=.beck] text-align: justify; font-size: 12px; } .beck b { color: #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck u { color: #b5b5b5; font-style: italic; text-decoration: underline dotted #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck a { font-family: inherit; font-size: medium; font-weight: bold; text-transform: uppercase; } .beck .noodles { margin: 0; padding: 5px 0; } .beck .noodles img { max-width: 100%; max-height: 100%; border: none; outline: none; margin: 0; padding: 0; display: inline; float: none; } .beck .noodles .pkmn { display: inline; } .beck .noodles .inactive { filter: grayscale(1); -webkit-filter: grayscale(1); [/newclass]
close tab

played by

thorn

the Harbinger
he/him
37
october 28th
circhester, galar
demisexual
underboss
the harbinger
I want corruption, I think I'm the devil in disguise.
awards
8,667 posts
part of
TAG WITH @gavin
Cillian Quinn
mentality
POSTED ON May 19, 2021 5:45:05 GMT
Cillian Quinn Avatar
"Does it bother you?"

Gavin closes his hand into a fist, miasma scattering as if in some invisible breeze. It wisps before it fades, curls like cigarette smoke through the air.

"Avatarship, I mean. It bothers others."

He leans back in his chair, watches shadow disippate.
close tab

played by

noodles

beck
he/him
thirty-eight
march 11th
cinnabar
bisexual
human resources
underboss
829 height
829 height
HIDING FROM THE SUN, WAITING FOR THE NIGHT TO COME.
awards
5,786 posts
THEO BECKETT DOLLARS
part of
TAG WITH @theo
THEO BECKETT
mentality
POSTED ON May 19, 2021 8:56:33 GMT
THEO BECKETT Avatar
[attr="class","beck"]"are the others like us?"

us — those who were bent and broken and molded back into what they are now. survivors of a time once lost, buried beneath the rubbles of verdanturf. he shakes his head.

"no, it doesn't."

[attr="class","noodles"]
[newclass=.beck] text-align: justify; font-size: 12px; } .beck b { color: #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck u { color: #b5b5b5; font-style: italic; text-decoration: underline dotted #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck a { font-family: inherit; font-size: medium; font-weight: bold; text-transform: uppercase; } .beck .noodles { margin: 0; padding: 5px 0; } .beck .noodles img { max-width: 100%; max-height: 100%; border: none; outline: none; margin: 0; padding: 0; display: inline; float: none; } .beck .noodles .pkmn { display: inline; } .beck .noodles .inactive { filter: grayscale(1); -webkit-filter: grayscale(1); [/newclass]
close tab

played by

thorn

the Harbinger
he/him
37
october 28th
circhester, galar
demisexual
underboss
the harbinger
I want corruption, I think I'm the devil in disguise.
awards
8,667 posts
part of
TAG WITH @gavin
Cillian Quinn
mentality
POSTED ON May 19, 2021 9:14:58 GMT
Cillian Quinn Avatar
"Some," Gavin concedes. He thinks of Emma, of Oscar, of Marcel. Would his old friend view Lugia with the same discomfort, now that Gavin had been marked as its avatar? "Others are — soft, like you said."

He envied them the freedom Rocket had taken from him.

He scrutinizes Beckett following his answer and decides to believe him. It's a relief he hadn't realised he'd sought.

"Good," he decides; then, curious, "Would you want it?"
close tab

played by

noodles

beck
he/him
thirty-eight
march 11th
cinnabar
bisexual
human resources
underboss
829 height
829 height
HIDING FROM THE SUN, WAITING FOR THE NIGHT TO COME.
awards
5,786 posts
THEO BECKETT DOLLARS
part of
TAG WITH @theo
THEO BECKETT
mentality
POSTED ON May 19, 2021 14:08:56 GMT
THEO BECKETT Avatar
[attr="class","beck"]it's not the first time he's had to think about it, but he pauses anyways and takes a moment to consider.

"i don't desire it, but if it was given to me, i see no reason for me to deny it."

a pause.

"especially if it helps our cause."

[attr="class","noodles"]
[newclass=.beck] text-align: justify; font-size: 12px; } .beck b { color: #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck u { color: #b5b5b5; font-style: italic; text-decoration: underline dotted #716075; font-size: 13px; } .beck a { font-family: inherit; font-size: medium; font-weight: bold; text-transform: uppercase; } .beck .noodles { margin: 0; padding: 5px 0; } .beck .noodles img { max-width: 100%; max-height: 100%; border: none; outline: none; margin: 0; padding: 0; display: inline; float: none; } .beck .noodles .pkmn { display: inline; } .beck .noodles .inactive { filter: grayscale(1); -webkit-filter: grayscale(1); [/newclass]
img
The Shula Region
Hogwarts AU
RPG Unlimited
MR
The Enroi Region
N:FB
Vyrehaven
Celestial Guardians, AU Sailor Moon RP
EO GENESIS
Code and Crown: An advanced literate warriors cats RP, set in medieval times
Swords Clashing