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i used to dream in the dark of palisades park

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POSTED ON May 16, 2021 8:23:48 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]it's quiet at this time of night. it's peaceful to some — the now-empty streets of saffron, the dark alleyways, how quick the city seems to rest the later it gets. to theo, it means little. it just means they can have a conversation in peace.

even then, he keeps quiet, not willing to be the first to break the silence.

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POSTED ON May 16, 2021 8:46:35 GMT
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He hasn't stopped shaking.

It has calmed, since they'd left the building, from violent tremors to a subtle quiver in the tips of his fingers. He curls his hands into fists, shoves them into his pockets and tries to feign a calm he doesn't feel.

He follows after Theo like a shadow, a ghost.

Eventually, the silence becomes too uncomfortable for him to bear.

"It wasn't you I wanted to kill."
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POSTED ON May 16, 2021 8:54:04 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]the silence is broken, and for once, he's somewhat relieved.

"i figured as much."

he ponders, then takes a guess.

"your father?"

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POSTED ON May 16, 2021 9:12:08 GMT
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Gavin cringes. Shame he's not allowed himself to feel in years winds itself around his throat, traps his breath and the words behind it. He steadies himself, swallows.

"Is it that obvious?"

You're not weak, are you, Cillian?
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POSTED ON May 16, 2021 16:29:22 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]"you're not subtle when you're angry."

it's the only time merlino forgets to be. it's the only time he ever truly loses control.

"i wanted to use your anger."

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POSTED ON May 17, 2021 2:53:22 GMT
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Theo is right — anger makes him lose control. It makes him dangerous, sloppy.

It's why when the words sting like a slap to his wounded pride, his lip curls.

"Yeah, that went well," he mutters.
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POSTED ON May 17, 2021 3:29:30 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]he allows it this time, too tired to respond with anything other than a: "yeah."

a moment passes before he speaks again.

"you won't be able to return to the labs for a while."

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POSTED ON May 17, 2021 3:42:18 GMT
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Despair winds tight in his chest.

Pride rears its head, strangling the urge to beg.

Anger fades, leaves him feeling tired.

"How —" His voice nearly breaks in spite of his best attempts to sound casual, but he disguises it by clearing his throat. "How long's a while?"

Saffron's cool night air tickles exposed skin, gentle against the heat of his injuries. He's already counting the seconds.
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POSTED ON May 17, 2021 3:46:12 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]"i haven't decided yet."

he shrugs, decides to explain for merlino's sake. he deserves that much.

"a few weeks originally. longer now."

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POSTED ON May 17, 2021 4:34:29 GMT
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Weeks. Gavin closes his eyes, relies on the sound of Theo's footsteps to keep pace. He could have handled weeks.

Longer now. It's nebulous, and it might as well have been forever.

It was better than being dead. Survive, no matter the cost.

He swallows his grief.

"What will I be doing instead?"
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POSTED ON May 17, 2021 7:25:30 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]"training with me."

he can feel the stiches in the skin right above his forehead. it's still fresh. sore.

"we'll start with hand-to-hand combat, run through different martial arts. i'll teach you how i choked you out."

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POSTED ON May 17, 2021 8:16:43 GMT
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It's an immense amount of trust for Theo to put in a man who'd tried to kill him not a day prior, yet Gavin's thoughts are far from murderous. It's something like remorse that settles as he remembers how eager he'd been to spill the admin's blood.

"A-Are you sure that's wise?"

He hesitates on the question, teeth worrying at his lip.

"I don't mean — I'll do as you ask, sir." There's a tender note of fear in his tone. Orders are orders. I swear. "Just — what if it happens again?"

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POSTED ON May 17, 2021 8:21:26 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]theo stops, turns, and places a hand on merlino's shoulder. there's something akin to amusement that just tempts a smile. it almost appears.

"then i'll kill you."

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POSTED ON May 17, 2021 8:45:29 GMT
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Gavin stops walking as Theo turns. He takes an involuntary step back, flinching away from the touch, before he forces himself to accept the hand on his shoulder. His muscles are tense, heart pounding.

Don't run.

Wide eyes mimic a deerling in headlights before he lowers his gaze.

"Why didn't you?"

He hadn't meant to ask, words barely above a whisper.
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POSTED ON May 17, 2021 10:11:13 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]"did you want me to?"

he deflects because he doesn't have an answer. at least not one he's sure of.

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