misery

i used to dream in the dark of palisades park

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Gavin Merlino
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POSTED ON May 21, 2021 9:32:27 GMT
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Emma cares, too.

But Gavin's loyalty to Rocket was an unbreakable absolute. If their call was to the abyss, he would drown in it with all the rest.

It had been the wrong approach, with Plank, but it would not be the wrong approach for all of them. He could not bring himself to resent Theo, as she did, because Theo was the only reason he'd survived. No matter the cost.

His lip quirks with a thought.

"Do you know what it is that I want?"
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POSTED ON May 21, 2021 9:34:08 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]the barkeep returns, disappears. he reaches for his drink.

"tell me."

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Gavin Merlino
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POSTED ON May 21, 2021 9:36:00 GMT
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There's a dark gleam of amusement in his eyes, beyond the pain.

"I want you to guess, first."

How well do you know me?

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POSTED ON May 21, 2021 11:54:50 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]"hmm."

he ponders on it, lost in his thoughts for as long as he sips. he feels warm; from the liquor, most likely.

after a while, he settles on an answer.

"you want to survive."

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POSTED ON May 21, 2021 11:57:49 GMT
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He considers the answer with a tilt of his head. It's not the one he'd been looking for, but neither is it an incorrect assessment. Gavin nods, accepting.

"It's more than that. I want to thrive."

There is more to him than a blind desire for survival.
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POSTED ON May 21, 2021 12:02:12 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]he tilts his head, mirroring.

"how?"

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POSTED ON May 21, 2021 12:07:31 GMT
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Gavin shifts his gaze around the room, ensuring they are alone.

"How else?" He smirks. "Power."

Theo had been given a taste of that power during their excursion to Mt. Pyre, the strength he'd accrued in his rise through the ranks.
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POSTED ON May 21, 2021 18:15:07 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]power.

he swallows, throat suddenly dry.

"then claim it."

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POSTED ON May 21, 2021 23:06:11 GMT
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When he had to be, Gavin was a man of near-infinite patience. There's little patience to him, now. Amber eyes burn dark as he keeps them locked with Theo's pale blue.

Theo seems nervous; it's thrilling.

"I intend to."
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POSTED ON May 22, 2021 5:22:55 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]his grip tightens around the glass. he doesn't look away.

"when?"

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POSTED ON May 22, 2021 6:23:44 GMT
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He chases the thrill; it drowns out the grief, however temporary.

"Now."

But he's no longer talking about ambition.

"Follow."

He drains the rest of his glass in one, sparing no glance for the barkeep as he sets it down. When he turns away, he does not glance back to see if Theo will follow. He expects him to, and for reasons beyond conditioning.

He avoids anywhere familiar. The room is small, vacant, perhaps disused.

The door is locked; Gavin's amber eyes shine like a predator's in the dim light as he turns to his prey, gauging.
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POSTED ON May 22, 2021 7:48:22 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]he does the same — downs the rest of his glass, then stands, and it's not conditoning that makes him follow.

the disused room looks like his own. he glances over to the fridge and wonders if it contains the same things as his. curiosity fades the moment he hears the door lock.

he turns, obedient.

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Gavin Merlino
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POSTED ON May 22, 2021 8:29:02 GMT
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When Theo does not question him, Gavin steps close without hesitation. His presence is intense, electric — a scarred palm wraps around Beckett's throat, possessing without restricting. Nails press into flesh and trace the curve of his jaw.

It's quiet, here; no sound but for shallow breath.

"Submit."

It's as much an offer as an order. Gavin meets Theo's gaze before leaning in. If not met with resistance, the kiss is rough, claiming, a promise of dominance. Yet there's something curious, as well, an exploration of boundaries untested.
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POSTED ON May 22, 2021 8:41:14 GMT
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[attr="class","beck"]as if frozen by a wordless command, he stays still against merlino's touch. it grazes his skin, tracing, exploring, and he's unable to do anything but be enthralled by it. it leaves him hungry, wanting more, and so when the order comes there's no hesitation in the way he submits.

he returns the kiss in full as his hands start to wander.

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POSTED ON May 22, 2021 10:06:10 GMT
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Theo is pliant beneath him. Gavin deepens the kiss, draws his nails down Beckett's neck to dig against his collarbone. With both hands, he shoves him against the wall.

He is aggressive in his advance. Hands wander and Gavin grips at Theo's wrists, restraining. He demands control without words, too busy marking territory with his teeth. He claims a path down his neck, his collarbone; when his lips brush against the fabric of Theo's shirt, he draws back.

He releases his hold, one hand coming to grip Beckett's jaw.

"Take it off."