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i used to dream in the dark of palisades park

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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 5:26:36 GMT
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she didn’t respond to his thanks, and still shook, but it was a much smaller tremor. settling down, although she was still tense against him. deep breath. this was embarrassing, but he’d seen so much already. it was about time to give up the battle. she would never appear unbreakable to him.

now, it was a matter of conquering an inner conflict that she would eventually lose, and she knew it. tonight was enough to realize.

the only thing to fear was fear itself, though, right? yeah.

“i’m scared, theo.”
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 9:44:28 GMT
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she wasn't unbreakable, neither was he, but she was resilient, and that was something he respected about her.

his head titled at her words.

"what are you scared of?"
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 10:02:25 GMT
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it was difficult to admit. it was hard to tell if it was any easier, or worse to open up while right next to him. it put her at a near-crippling level of vulnerability.

”i don’t know what’s real anymore.”

not just the hallucination from that evening, but the months she’d spent, totally unaware that her mind wasn’t entirely her own. it had taken so long to put it together. even recently, she’d spent a considerable amount of time trying to decide if @emi was just a ghost too, when she’d appeared.

the foothold she’d once had on her sanity was gone, and her artificially wired fearlessness wavered. it wasn’t afraid so much that she was afraid of others, but rather herself—it was like stumbling through a waking nightmare all its own.
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 10:29:41 GMT
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it must be exhausting to constantly doubt whether things were real or otherwise. he had never experienced anything like it, so it was difficult to imagine. oddly enough, his sanity remained in tact, albeit dulled and buried for long periods of time.

"i'm real, as far as i can tell."

last he checked, anyway.

"maybe i can tell you what's real and what's not."
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 10:42:06 GMT
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”i believe you.” her tone lacked any humor.

it was unexpected comfort. she breathed a bit easier, muscles starting to relax. tentatively, she leaned into him more, and rested her head on his chest. eventually, even her trembling subsided.

she nodded against his skin at his suggestion.

”okay.”

did she trust it? not one bit—but for now, it was enough to hold onto.
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 11:05:09 GMT
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he would do his best to anchor her to reality, to remain tethered even when she'd pull away. to feel her trembling subside filled him with relief; he sighed, appreciating her presence.

"good."

he held her a bit tighter, reassuring the best he could.
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 11:24:09 GMT
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she felt drained, after the events at the lighthouse, and then a panic attack. she did need rest, and she also needed dreams—or at least, she felt like she did.

she kept it buried, trying not to think about it. distracting herself with other thoughts.

good. there was a light blush to her cheeks, and she hid it. the word would maybe never lose its initial context for her. theo had always flustered her in more ways than one.

her eyes shut, for no real reason at all.
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 11:41:44 GMT
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her eyes shut, and so did his.

exhaustion wore down on his body and spirit, and he soon drifted off to sleep, not dreaming, but certainly resting. finally.
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 12:00:24 GMT
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even without looking at him, she could tell the second he was out. for a while, she lied there with, willing herself not to hurt him despite how much she wanted in his head. she breathed through it, until she couldn’t take it anymore.

her eyes darkened. hypnosis would keep him under when she raised up and straddled over his torso, staring for a minute or two. white knuckling.

”no.”

she turned into darkness, slithering off of his slumbering body and down the hall, out a door, and then up onto the roof, pulling herself up the last bit from the shady side.

there, she sat for the rest of the night, staring out at the city.
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 13:26:17 GMT
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for once, he rested.

he awoke hours later, before the crack of dawn, and peered over only to find the space beside him empty. he yawned just once before sitting up, looking around. her clothes from yesterday were still here; did she just leave them?

slowly, he searched his house, not taking long before finally stepping outside. there, he rounded to the back of the house, then peered out at the city.
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 18:05:09 GMT
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it wouldn’t have been the first time she’d simply left her clothes behind, but no. not this time.

usually, during the nights, she buried herself in work. it was a form of escapism; problems and formulas running through her head instead of nagging thoughts of how her life was going.

this was, maybe, the first time in years she’d sat and stared off for so long in thought. certainly, it had been since well before darkrai.
she heard the door open, and peered down at him.

“hey.”

good morning might’ve been nicer, but what did he expect from the woman at this point?

the arms of his sweater billowed lightly in the wind. it covered like a loose fitting dress, threatening to reveal, but safe enough in the still-dark of early morning.
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 18:41:27 GMT
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hey.

it was more than he expected, honestly.

his gaze shifted up, away from the city, and he offered a soft smile that came naturally when around her.

"morning."

he blinked.

"do you want company?"
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 19:18:51 GMT
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she returned the smile, but it was a bit weaker than his. one of the things she’d decided during the pensive hours of the night was that it would have been nice to be able to sleep beside him.

quickly, she pushed aside the thought.

“sure. i should probably put some pants on before the sun comes up, though.” she blinked. “can you even get up here?”
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POSTED ON Oct 22, 2021 19:36:29 GMT
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he wasn't dressed too appropriately either: his boxers were the slightest bit revealing.

"hold on. i'll bring you some pants."

without answering her question, he disappeared back into the house only to step back out a good ten minutes later. he wore sweatpants now and carried some pants for her; likely hers from the night before, except dry.

to answer her question — no, he couldn't get up there, at least not without the help of the alakazam she gave him. after a TELEPORT, the psychic-type was called back into its pokeball.

he settled next to her, extending over pants and a mug filled with coffee.

"here."
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POSTED ON Oct 23, 2021 5:56:29 GMT
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some pants. he hadn’t specified whose. she knew for a fact that theo’s pants would be difficult to walk in, much less keep over up and her bare ass. she said nothing.

it took him a long time. what was he doing? she had already been sitting here forever. should she go home?

she waited, still. this was a lot.

when he reappeared, though, her frustration faded at the sight of coffee and the alakazam. in its place formed a smile. when he was beside her, she first took her perfectly fitting pants and squirmed into them, and then the coffee. “thanks.” big points for that.

“i um… had to leave—but i didn’t do anything.” actually, that wasn't entirely true. there had been a minute or two of hypnosis while she stared over his sleeping body.
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