enzo / the proprietor
he/him
thirty-three
april 4
alto mare / sootopolis
bisexual
hotelier
executive
I’m haunted like a wolf. I feed, I feed like a wolf. I’m lost and I’m lonely, I hunger for you only.
liar, liar [c]
POSTED ON Oct 27, 2022 19:37:43 GMT
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“Are you sure about that? Absolutely certain?” Amusement lingered in his tone, warming the syllables. There was something in the sound of that laughter that only intensified the ache in his chest. Weak, he felt weak at how open and uninhibited it was. When was the last time he’d heard it? When was the last time he’d laughed so easily? Even then, he knew the answer was that it had been with Kosei. And that had been a long time ago. Nothing about them was simple—all blurred edges and loose boundaries. He’d been the one to ruin that with his own pride, his own fear. Even if Kosei thought it was himself, Enzo knew the truth. He hadn’t been too much; Enzo just hadn’t been willing to hold it in his hands back then.[break][break]
After everything that had followed, he’d felt stupid for it. Of course he had.[break][break]
Kosei tilted to the side and Enzo rolled with the movement. Propping himself up on one elbow, he hovered close as he leaned over him. A small smile played across his lips, playful but not lacking the softness that had settled over him. Normally, he might’ve responded with something vague— that’s a secret. Something to keep himself at a distance rather than free fall into the uncertainty that surrounded the everything of this. Or perhaps he’d coax a plea from Kosei. Tease him with a ask nicely and I might, puppy. That would likely be the expected response based on previous moments such as this one.[break][break]
Never quite giving away everything he could. Playful, all touch and response and reaction. No leeway for what might’ve been felt, was felt under the surface. But Kosei had always been good at presenting an image of himself while knowing the truth that lurked under every guise, and even in this he could never wholly lie to himself. That was why the barrier of emotional distance had worked. And when Kosei responded to that by pulling back as well, he’d let that space continue to grow. Better for himself, he’d remind himself whenever that newfound sense of loneliness crept in to insist that he wasn’t better off alone.[break][break]
He could choose either option and continue that trend. And tomorrow regardless of what he did, the twilight zone they’d descended into would have faded away and they’d go back to existing on the fringes of one another’s periphery. Right then, that didn’t feel like an enticing option. Not while his fingers traced Kosei’s jaw and drew down the slope of his neck. Not when he looked at Enzo the way he did, or spoke with that slight grate to his voice. So when he leaned close again, dipping down to let lips ghost together again—barely there, shaky breath, only the truth tumbled out. “I miss you, Kosei.” The heavier, slower press of his mouth came between words. “So often, it’s frustrating.”[break][break]
Enzo leaned back again and let his fingers lift and slide through dark hair. Tucking away messy strands that had fallen around his face. “And I don’t admit that lightly, you know.”
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