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i used to dream in the dark of palisades park

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POSTED ON Sept 26, 2023 14:52:25 GMT
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her wounds have healed, for the most part. the bite marks from her dragons are silver needlepoints on her arm and with time, those too will fade. several days have passed since she made her bed, several days of sleepless nights in ever grande's hotel room. 

she couldn't go home and everything that had happened with the tunnels was enough of an excuse to stay nearby. 

on a cookie cutter table, under art of ever grande's local flora, freya puts the bones on the table. she digs her fingers into the carcass and reads the grooves of calcium decay, the scorch-marked innards that don't make the future unintelligible - they make it final

the truth of it? she did not build a home for him inside of her. she built a prison. 

so it's under the purview of night that she returns, hoodie drawn up to hide her starlit hair. he's a man of his rituals. he should be at his warehouse, several blocks away, training, when she arrives. she slides her key into the lock and climbs the stairs, treads as quietly as she can up to their shared bedroom and once inside, she drops her duffel bag and starts packing. 
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POSTED ON Sept 27, 2023 1:20:53 GMT
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Footsteps echo throughout the building as someone, presumably Freya, comes home. He curses under his breathe, not ready yet to face this. The decision he'd come to hadn't been easy, and he wished silently he had more time to convey it.
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had ruined his cadence, or, like Freya expects, he would've been out. However, since his return home, Delta had not been the same. Prone to fits and nightmares, he's taken to coaxing her to sleep every night since.
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Tonight was no different.
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Perched in the corner, Lucario gave King an understanding nod. The jackal hadn't been the same either, forced to leave his trainer and best-friend to protect what he loved most. The decision had been simple, far too simple, but that didn't mean it sat well with him.
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Lifting himself up gingerly he exits the room and closes the door. He's quiet as he approaches, and when he's in the doorway, he leans against the frame with arms crossed.
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His tone is neither warm, nor cold, it just simply is.
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"Runnin' eh?"


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POSTED ON Sept 27, 2023 1:28:31 GMT
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her pokeballs first. the ones she kept under the bed, on a rotation with her dragons, in case the worst happened and she couldn't access a pc. those in a leather bag and tossed in the duffel. the photo of herself and her family on her bedside table, fingertips lingering on the frame beside it - of herself, arm wrapped around king's waist, his hand on delta's shoulder. the only picture they have of each other. 

and then in the closet, moving aside shoes to grab the shoebox. the hand towel discarded on the bed, simple crown in hand, cold in her fingers.

she's still holding it when the floor creaks. her shoulders hunch and she doesn't turn. not until the crown is safely packed under a few shirts. and then she faces him, thumbs the hood down. 

"you were right," she says. 
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POSTED ON Sept 27, 2023 1:32:16 GMT
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"I usually am, but yer gonna have ta be more specific."


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POSTED ON Sept 27, 2023 1:37:06 GMT
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her lips curl faintly. the ghost of a smile. and then it fades to a look of weary complacency. hours before, hours, she'd spent working out all the knots in her feelings, hammering her temper around the edges so if, for some ungodly reason, he happened to be here, she could remain composed. 

she could do this. because she has to. 

"i put myself in the spotlight. and you. and delta. and now it's not safe." she gestures to the bag. "so i'm fixing it."
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POSTED ON Sept 27, 2023 1:40:34 GMT
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[attr="class","char-words"]His head follows the edge of her finger, to the bag, and then finally back to her. His eyes narrow as if searching for something, or perhaps, was it someone?
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"Yer really good at that, y'know." He lets it linger before clarifying. "Makin' decisions fer us — about us — without so much as a word about how we feel about it. A Silph trait issit?"


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POSTED ON Sept 27, 2023 1:49:21 GMT
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she could crumble under the weight of that gaze. but it's not his piecing it together that hurts. it's the way he looks over her, through her, looking for something. not finding it. instead, likening her to the very person who seeks to see her, and by proxy him, burn. 

a flinch, but she doesn't have the fight. an argument means an attempt at a resolution. an attempt to salvage.

"yeah. yeah, maybe it is." 

she shivers, remembering fernando's thrusted palm, the nauseating panic in her throat. works the grimace down before it can come up, keeps pale eyes quieted, maelstrom bottled tight. 

"but i don't care," she lies. 
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POSTED ON Sept 27, 2023 1:59:48 GMT
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[attr="class","char-words"]She knew he could read her by now, at least, when she deigned to lie in-front of him instead of her typical omissions. So, does she lie now in hopes of being caught, or is it simply her natural instinct?
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King pushes off with little effort and moves past her, fingers shifting lazily through the bag as it moves the top layer of shirts. Beneath, the crown.
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"Delta asked about ye." He lifts the crown up by one finger, letting it slide down the length until it rests against his palm. "Asked me where ye've been." His gaze returns to her then and those cerulean orbs are piercing. "What should I tell 'er?" Though, she wouldn't mistake the true question behind it.
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What will you tell me?


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he drifts closer. she drops a hand in warning as he peruses her things, but grips the edge of the duffel bag rather than his wrist. he pulls the crown up and her gaze flickers from it, to him, searching for some semblance of recognition. worry knits in her chest; it was painful remembering, in the beginning. it was painful writing it all down. 

more than once, she'd had to blot the blood dripping down her nose. 

"i've been in ever grande. i would have come to get my things sooner, but there's a chance fernando's watching me." she raises her chin. "matias brought you - us - up in the aqua meeting. fernando...followed up."

a glimmer of fear, blinked away just as quickly as it comes. she shifts her weight.

"you can tell her what you want. it doesn't - " concern me anymore. the words dry up in her throat. no, no, no. no cracking

"can i have that back please?"
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[attr="class","char-words"]"An just like that my name is on the lips of every single high-rankin' League member."
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He pursues his lips and nods. The feeling in his chest is complicated, but he keeps it under wraps. It's difficult to, when she asks for the crown.
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"What is this? Where did ye get it?"


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"don't flatter yourself. no one else paid him any mind." it comes out naturally, the teasing lilt, as though she hasn't been gone over a week. as though she's not trying to extract him from herself as carefully as she can right now. 

"what do you mean stop? i'm going to get us home. i have to get us home."


"home? there's no gettin' home, freya. this is our life now. accept it like i 'ave. it's easier that way."


"it's - " she struggles for words. the complicated doesn't feel right. it won't stop his wondering and that will undoubtedly lead to remembering. 

to pain. 

to the realization that she's failed him before. over and over and over again for twenty years, she's failed him.

"you don't need to worry about that. please give it back."
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POSTED ON Sept 27, 2023 2:32:03 GMT
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[attr="class","char-words"]He almost grins. Almost. Instead, his fingers wrap even more tightly around the crown, knuckles turning white.[break][break]
"Yer lyin' ta me again. Look how easy it's comin' ta ye." He looks down at the metal, lip twitching.[break][break]"Ye lied ta me about the Council. Yer lyin' ta me about this crown."[break][break]He looks up at her.[break][break]"And ye lied ta me about the woman and how she controls that mist now. The same one that nearly controlled ye all that time back."


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his hands go white. the curves of the crown leave pinkish marks on his hands, blood rushing, waiting to puncture. her defenses go up in the face of his accusation and she repeats to herself to stay quiet, to not argue, to keep the grand scheme of it all in mind. their suffering now will give him happiness later. 

that's what matters.

so let him call her a liar. let him spit on her like matias did. like fernando did.

shock splits apart the rest of her seams in one fell swoop. her eyes widen and she comes to life as a visage of fear, and wrath, and horror.

"what? how do you - gods, king, did she - ?" palms on his shoulders, as though that will tell her if he's been violated. "how? how do you know about her?"
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POSTED ON Sept 27, 2023 2:50:50 GMT
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[attr="class","char-words"]Rage, incadecent and white-hot, filters through his veins. He struggles visibly, lips quivering, canines flashing. An intense, unseen wave rolls through his body, urging him to act.
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"Because we fuckin' ran into her!" Gradually his voice rises, and if it wasn't for concern for his kid, he'd have lifted the roof off of this place. "She fuckin' turned that mist on my kid, after tellin' me all about how ye refused her."
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He shrugs her touch and places his hands on her shoulders, pushing until she's up against the wall. His voice drips with anger.
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"What the fuck were you thinkin' keepin' that from me?"


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we

we. 

we.

the world tilts on its axis. the rest of it, she gets in snippets, all flashes. his lip quivering, rage sparking and hitting kerosene. her hands gone from his shoulders, his own planted firmly on her. 

she stumbles, winces when she hits the wall. pain is a dull ache in the back of her head. her shoulders quiver. she bites down hard on her lip, stunned silent as she struggles to reach for the frayed ropes to pull this all back together. 

but she can't. 

"i..." she croaks. 

no anger anymore. no posturing. all of it slips away. her shoulders shake. she's over her head. she's not drowning - she's already drowned. left only knowing fear and choked by a weight she wasn't strong enough to shoulder. 

"i'm not good. i'm not good, king. no matter what i do, i can't fix it. and all i've done, all i've ever done is hurt you. i can't protect you. i can't protect her. because i'm the hurt. i'm the pain. and i'm so sorry. i'm so, so sorry."
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The Shula Region
Hogwarts AU
RPG Unlimited
MR
The Enroi Region
N:FB
Vyrehaven
Celestial Guardians, AU Sailor Moon RP
EO GENESIS
Code and Crown: An advanced literate warriors cats RP, set in medieval times
Swords Clashing