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Yamaguchi Himiko

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POSTED ON Oct 31, 2024 9:34:24 GMT

"There's so much pain inside of you, things I can't even begin to understand. But at the very least, I can try and take some of it away." Her words had touched Absinthe in a way that she likely hadn't been expecting. It surprised even Himiko that she could belt out something that quick and have any sort of impact on somebody. That little bit of a pained expression on her superior's face somehow made spitting things off the top of her hand worth it. "If there's one thing I learned from my grandmother who taught me my craft, it's that the world is a cold and lonely place. If solitude is truly what you seek, you'll start to forget all the things that make life worth the struggle."

Himiko's thumb reached to gently trace around Absinthe's in a circle as she gave a sincere smirk, then down to the mask that hung off of the woman's face. the facade that allowed her to hide her garish marks from the world. As technologically savvy and rather unique as it was, she much more preferred this current look. "I won't ask you to take off your mask to the world. That's not my decision to make, nor would I demand it of you after what you've been through. But I'm sure there are people like me who care less about them, and more about you. And if anyone says otherwise, they may "accidentally" end up as a test subject for some very almost lethal neurotoxins."

It was easy advice, considering where Himiko was in all this. Had the tables been turned, would Absinthe be showing her the same amount of generosity she showed her now? Would this conversation even take place? She leaned on the counter top next to them, eyes drawn towards the deceased Ratatta, the milestone of Absinthe's life's work. The finished version may have looked far more dangerous to be exposed to, though Himiko found herself concerned. The last thing she wanted to see in the lab was a well written letter and a body entombed in a glass chamber. Though why even bother with all this woman her? She was still puzzled by the reason, though flipped her hair out of habit as she continued to watch her tutor in toxicology.

"I can live with that. SHould you ever need to talk to somebody about work or other matters, I would be happy to oblige you. Bright minds such as ours often subject us to all sorts of nasty things when left isolated for so long. If you need anything, let me know and I will get it for you. I may ask for a genuine smile as payment."

Absinthe Blackwood
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Absinthe Blackwood

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POSTED ON Oct 31, 2024 21:47:05 GMT

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perhaps it is the shock, the rare intimacy of baring her soul, but when himiko speaks absinthe listens. she doesn't interrupt, doesn't argue. she absorbs himiko's words, each one soaking into her like water into parched earth. it's strange, to be surrounded by care, to be offered genuine connection instead of pitying looks or disgusted grimaces. it's strange, but absinthe thinks—just for a moment—that maybe it's nice. maybe it's something she could get used to.[break][break]

the thought makes her nauseous.[break][break]

but it also makes her whisper, voice low and hoarse with emotion: "i'd like that."[break][break]

she means the offer of having someone to talk to. she means the promise that there are other people out there, besides just himiko, who might not be so quick to judge her based on her appearance, who might see her and want to know more, want to care. it's a radical concept, one that absinthe had long since written off as impossible.[break][break]

but himiko is still here, holding her hand with both of her own, standing solidly at her side. it makes absinthe feel like maybe, just maybe, she could keep her toes on solid ground long enough to start re-evaluating everything she thought she knew about the world.[break][break]

when himiko releases her hand, absinthe feels the loss of it like a cold wind, a breeze that chills her to the bone despite the warm air in the room. the mask is still off, and the world feels too big and open without it. but absinthe makes no move to put it back on, and her hand doesn't shake as she reaches up to tuck a piece of hair behind her ear.[break][break]

there is something like determination in the set of her jaw, and her next words are resolute: "i think... i would like to start over."[break][break]

it's a big statement, a promise that she might not be able to fulfill. but with himiko at her side, absinthe feels like she can do anything. even this. even starting over, even learning to be vulnerable, to let others in, to accept help and care from someone else.[break][break]

she looks at himiko then, and her mouth does something strange. it pulls upwards at the corners, slow but sure, a wobbly, unsteady thing that takes on the shadow of a smile.[break][break]

"for you," absinthe says softly, "i will try."

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Himi

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Yamaguchi Himiko

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POSTED ON Nov 1, 2024 6:25:04 GMT

For as solitary creatures as humans could be, even the most hardy of lone wolves desired somebody to speak with at a base level. It was something every living being had in their DNA from the moment their neurons fired off in their heads. The cool, stagnant air inside of the lab felt somewhat warmer while Absinthe stood in place. The liquid filled beakers had always made poor conversation partners and it was her belief that perhaps maybe she could help this struggling woman in some way.

Absinthe said what Himiko and a lot of Rocket likely had wanted all along: a chance to do things over again. It was only natural for their ilk to look back at their past and be blinded by the rose tinted goggles. The desire to do things another way. To remake a decision in the hops that it could change the present for the better. Until humans could harness the power of a certain legendary themselves, it was what kept their choices in life all the more permanent. Absinthe, however, had good reasons for desiring such things.

"It won't be easy, and it never is for anybody. But I think we both knew that. The fact that you'll try is proof enough that there's some part of you that wants to see what comes next. It may seem like you're preparing to scale Mt. Pyre on your hands and knees, but I promise that if you just keep moving, the days will get easy. We'll get there together, one day at a time."

Himiko offered some sympathy for the other bright mind across from her. Even thought their hands were apart, she did find herself wondering if Absinthe had found the intimate gesture at least somewhat helpful. Those hands of hers were damaged and had seen their fair share of abuse, but all that mattered as that they worked, despite the struggles they had been through. The small silence between them was notable, though Himiko didn't mind it at all. Seeing Absinthe's lips curl into the beginnings of a genuine smile was reward enough.

"Hold onto that feeling, Absinthe. It's what will make even the most impossible challenges worthwhile. Things will get better, but only if you keep moving forward."

Absinthe Blackwood
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