the stray
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thirty three
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evan fader
AVATAR CHANCE: ARTICUNO
POSTED ON Jul 23, 2020 8:08:52 GMT
His hands won't stop shaking. Evan closes his eyes and quiets them, makes them steady as he reaches for another branch of ice. Cold and solid beneath his touch, it is leverage for well placed foot falls. He does not walk with the clunk of his boots today, the exadrill skin clinging to bottom of his feet allow him to tread the terrain with only the worry of the cold.
That is why he moves fast, well practiced, well traveled. As if this ice cold cave were a home as much as the warmth of his wooden tavern walls. As if it were as familiar as the dirt of the forest beneath his feet. As if it were as soothing as the water of the river washing over his toes on a summer day.
For the earth itself is the only home he has ever known.
But gods his hands won't stop shaking. He releases the fire type in small intervals. The Volcarona's heat does well to keep him from going numb as he huddles in his jacket, the only other companion at his side the mimkyu who has followed him since the beginning of time. His time, at least. They are one in the same, it is only natural that they face the legend together, for without her there would be no him, and without him she would hold no purpose.
Growing too warm becomes a burden, it makes him sleepy, it makes his mind wander to better things. To sitting by the fire in the winter, to welcoming the travelers to his small shelter. To sweets being roasted over the campfire, to the smell of the wood burning in the late hours of the night. His eyes fall at the sight of the stars above his clearing, the thought that they would be there if he looked up and looked hard enough.
The cold makes him weary, his target makes him anxious. Feet move heavy against the frozen earth but they move. They move and they ache and they begin to tremble the same as his hands and his Mimikyu must rise to meet him. Her shadow correcting faulty steps, creating footholds as he needs them, making the climb where he cannot. She leads him to nooks and crannies, small hiding places, short lived shelters to recover his warmth. They sneak past the frozen pokemon that call the cave home, he is quick to avoid them where they might disturb them.
Fuck he thinks when a pebble falls from his slipping foot and alarms a pokemon that watches him too closely. That eyes the mimikyu perched on his shoulder but the chittering deters it. They are not here for a fight, they are here to see. She guides him away swiftly, the detour is long but the battle is avoided.
It seems like the further they go the longer it takes. But he will not be deterred, he does not look to fight. Evan Fader is lost in his mind, dancing about the thoughts of what he might find when he comes upon it. Cold, shaking, anxiety filling his body. He knew they were real but there had been a hope in his mind he would not see it tonight, that he would not come upon it like this.
He does. He walks forward. He buckles beneath the wind, knee finding ice and rising from it just as quickly. When he looks at the bird it is with wonder and worry and false eyes.
There are others here, to make their offerings, to make their sacrifices, to make whatever it is they might have to offer. Whatever they thought the old god could possibly want. Evan an only stand in wonder, features cloaked in shock and disbelief. And then, in telltale Evan fashion, he laughs.
Happy, worried, shaking like his hands. "They have so much to offer you don't they?" he manages to grin at the bird, looking down at his hands a moment later. As if he might find something there, in the roughness, in the callouses from work upon the earth. "And here I am just a drop of water amongst them aren't I?"
One you have already rejected once, right? Still shaking. Evan reaches for his eyes as he speaks. "If my people are to be believed, I cannot receive your gift, for it has already been given to me. They call me, my kind, the children you have all chosen, god touched."
He no longer looks upon the god with false eyes, the red-black lens sitting in his shaking palm. One eye seeks the bird, bright blue, as blue as the feathers upon its back.
"And if it is to be believed, I am one that you have already rejected." why? "Maybe that's for the better, because if you have been watching you know what I am capable of." it knows how far he fell could fall, will fall- "And you know what I have done to change that." words on paper mean everything and nothing all at once. Actions mean things and fall to the nothingness of lost memories- what are they worth? Anything? "You know what I hope to continue to do."
"I cannot give you anything that has not already been offered. I cannot give you promises that I do not know I will be able to keep."
His eyes wander now, mismatched and seeking somewhere to sit. A place to perch himself much the same as his mimikyu does herself upon his shoulder. She chitters at him when there is nothing, a shadow forming in the place of a rock, somewhere for him to rest his feet.
"But what I can give you, is every story that I have ever heard about you. What I can give you is the legends that have been saved and loved in the years that have come to be and been lost."
"I do not ask for your gift in return." his lungs feel shaky in the cold, he takes a breath almost too deep. "Because I do not need it to change the world."
"All I ask for is the chance to ask a question, and to hear its answer."
"And if for some- forsaken reason" he laughs, amused by the thought. "You choose me, I will seek the answer for myself."
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