stormy, bronwen
she / her
twenty-five
july 25
saffron city, kanto
heterosexual
elite four
avatar of moltres
if you could only see the beast you've made of me
TAG WITH @stormy
Stormy Silph
trepidation [g]
POSTED ON Nov 24, 2019 19:41:28 GMT
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Her attempt to prove herself, to gather her strength and show Fernando that she's capable of defending Lavaridge. That his sacrifice, his request that, despite the League's better interest, she asserts the position of Lavaridge gym leader, wasn't in vain. That he hadn't made a mistake.[break][break] She's watching in the same, cold dread, as Apollo is cut down. She stands stiff and unmoving, unable to cry out, unable to stop him, unable to defend herself as Apollo screams in agony, as he writhes, bleeding into the dirt.[break][break] It's a reminder that she's weak. That she isn't as strong as she pretends she is, that she should stop pretending.[break][break] And then Apollo's broken image is lifted and it's replaced with the gravesite of Tapati, her Torkoal. She's crouched next to the headstone, tears dripping wet paths against the cold stone. She's reminded of her weakness then, too. That the Torkoal had died in spite of her best efforts, because she had been weak, unable to protect herself or her Pokemon.[break][break] She's falling, falling into a vicious cycle of torment and dismay. She's spiraling.[break][break] And then she wakes up in the cold, stiff seat of a wooden chair. Her wrists are sore, rubbed raw as ropes and tape dig into her skin. She can feel blood seeping between her bindings from her struggle. She can feel her breath hitch in her chest, that swell of panic. Once again, she was all alone, afraid, unable to protect herself.[break][break] There's a voice in the dark, taunting her. She can't see because she's blindfolded, and she screams as something pricks her neck, as her mind is clouded with unreal thoughts, confusion, pain. She's writhing, screaming, pleading.[break][break] Dead weight on the Silph name.[break][break] It comes back again, that haunting reminder that she's worthless. [break][break] She's crying as the blindfold is ripped from her eyes, tears staining her cheeks. There's a heaviness in her arms, as if the drugs are still torturing her system. But she forces herself to her feet, her hands angrily wiping her tears from her cheeks. Her final battle is here, and she must face it.[break][break] But what she faces doesn't look like a monster. Instead, it smiles back at her with perfect teeth, that familiar, heartwarming smile. It's so familiar that it aches and she feels like she might fall.[break][break] It's Alexander. But no matter how many steps she takes to reach out for him, to seek comfort, he continues to be too far away. [break][break] "Alex? Alex, I can't reach you."[break][break] As she speaks, desperation and fear fills her voice. She feels weak and alone and afraid and it comes out in the tremble in her voice.[break][break] With more hurried steps, she begins chasing after this figure that looks so distinctly like Alex. But his image soon fades and his voice thunders down around her.[break][break] "You're not worth the trouble, Stormy. You're a dead weight on the Silph name, what makes you think I'd want you to put a stain on the Stone name as well?"[break][break] Those words echo and she feels like a vaccuum has sucked all of her strength from her chest. She can't breathe and she's shaking because she knows that he's right. That it was selfish of her to think that she could have ever asked something like that.[break][break] She feels empty and the spiraling feeling in her gut expands until she feels sick and can't find her way back to the surface. She's about to lose this challenge and this final nightmare because she knows she isn't strong enough to pull herself back up.[break][break] One last reach into the void of panic and she feels her fingers brush someone else's. What feels like a thousand pounds of pressure keeps her eyes closed and she fights to wake up, to see, to look at who's fingers have intertwined with her own. But they're pulling her up and out of the sinking sand of self-doubt.[break][break] With a gasp, she's finally free, gasping for air as she'd collapsed on the grass in front of Thomas. For a moment she wonders if it's his hand she had reached for, but she's pretty sure it wasn't. He's too far away on the other side of the field.[break][break] She brushes hair from her face and takes a deep, unsteady breath. [break][break] "Well.. that was certainly interesting."[attr="class","frphoeposts3"] [attr="class","frphoelyrics3"]
WELCOME TO THE WAR WE'VE ONLY BEGUN, SO PICK UP YOUR WEAPON AND FACE IT
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