blue
he/him
twenty five
february 24
mauville
samsexual
addict
grunt
let us live, since we must die
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knox prescott
pity [c]
POSTED ON Sept 6, 2021 4:05:15 GMT
he finds his voice, finally, but this time he chooses not to speak. and that word floats back through his head, the one that's been dancing around the edge of his vision: different. there is a tenderness to this moment that he cannot break. he would kill someone before ruining this with his big mouth.
it's with a reverence that he watches sam drop his sweats, and then his boxers, as he watches him step out of them, watches him watching him. he feels vulnerable. not confident, not strong, and certainly not sexy, not with the pain making every part of this reality so real, and with all his bruises and lashings.
is this really what he wanted? his first time being seen by sam like this? battered and broken and helpless?
but sam smiles at him and everything feels a little bit easier, a little bit brighter, and he chases that feeling by taking his hand.
"they really do go everywhere, huh," he comments quietly, finally, after side-stepping to glance at sam's backside. he swallows.
"this is weird. like, good, for sure. good weird. you're hot and weird and i'm into that kinda weird. but also like, i almost want to say no? that i'm not ready? even though it's literally just us showering together and really all i've thought about since meeting you - well, not all, but you know me - is how i could get you butt ass naked like you are now, except this is not how i thought this would go."
he huffs. "i just thought there'd be more," and then, for lack of a fucking better term, he mimics a jacking off motion with his other hand and says, "that?
"and i'm okay with there not being that?" he's okay with existing next to a naked man he finds attractive and not fucking him.
a revolutionary, this one.
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