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i used to dream in the dark of palisades park

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POSTED ON Oct 24, 2021 21:21:13 GMT
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[attr="class","calla i"]the night is dark, quiet, still.

somehow, she prefers this to the hustle and bustle of the city. easier to move, easier to hunt.

the target in mind tonight is a little different than the usual cesspool. a trophy, for more than just one reason.

"you know, if i wanted to talk to myself, i would've stayed home," she stares ahead toward shadows. blank stare, blank expression. the bloody halo of hair frames eerie gold well enough for the occasion.

"come out, mon chérie."





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POSTED ON Oct 24, 2021 21:25:50 GMT
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"My.. I haven't heard that phrase spoken out loud in a long time, Calla, my dear."

A business deal has just been made, and her buyers long gone and faded away into the night. Her purse is a bit heavier and her Pokemon selection a little bit lighter. What Pokemon she's collected from her short trip to the safari zone have been rehomed, and now a familiar face from back home has stepped out of the shadows to congratulate her.

Or to reprimand her, it's always a toss up with the woman.

"Hoenn, huh? Didn't think this place was your scene."
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POSTED ON Oct 24, 2021 21:39:57 GMT
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[attr="class","calla i"]her shoulders shrug, a lazy movement beneath a heavy sort of pressure. if she didn't know better, she'd almost say it could be apprehension.

"i could scream it if you'd prefer," a hand rises and her eyes drop to inspect perfectly painted nails. red, her favorite. "you know, for old time's sake."

somewhere behind them, sirens wail in the distance. life passes them by in this small corner of the universe, left to relive memories of better times. the past clings with the stubborn stench of cigarette smoke.

"is anywhere really my scene?" she could think of a few fitting places, perhaps. eventually her eyes return, unblinking. "here i thought you'd never set foot in this shithole." faintly, she can almost hear the echo of what lies beneath. did you miss me?





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POSTED ON Oct 24, 2021 21:57:15 GMT
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Seeing Calla brings back uncomfortable, familiar feelings. Familiarity breeds contempt, and she is no exception. The shift of her weight, the curtain of bloody hair, the unblinking golden gaze that fixes her with a stare: its almost too much.

It's too much because it elicits feelings and desires she had thought were long-buried.

Fuck.

"Maybe I would."

For old time's sake.

Sirens wail and she's sure she's caught the sharp eyes of a Rattata skating down a dirty back-alley. Calling this place a shithold was an understatement. In the daylight, no one could see this city's flaws. Or they simply chose to ignore them.

"Sure-- Alto Mare seemed to suit you well. You loved it there."

We did.

Calla's unblinking stare returns and her blood turns to ice for a moment at the blank intensity behind it. Everything had changed and nothing had.

"Roman is missing. I think. I haven't heard from him in months so I came looking."
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POSTED ON Oct 25, 2021 2:28:15 GMT
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[attr="class","calla i"]ah, there it is.

the feelings she thought were gone, the feelings she thought she buried. they surge back up with a vengeance and if she isn't careful, she just might choke on them. swallowing is easy but how long can she keep it at bay?

apparently... not very long.

there's a slight quirk to her lips, just enough of a smile to pass. "right here in this alley?" a step closer, a tilt of the head. bloody hair shifts to reveal porcelain skin. "that could be arranged."

alto mare.

she remembers the city well. fondly, even. and if there's one thing calla isn't... it's fond. ah, but there had always been a reason why she enjoyed particular places more than the rest. it's standing in front of her now. silky white hair, an eye patch, an all too familiar body.

"i did," she echoes. there's a wistful look to her features and it passes on to its grave a moment later.

sometimes, she wishes it could be different, not this odd sense of normalcy they fall into. they avoid the copperjah in the room and go about business as usual.

"missing?" her nose scrunches at the thought. "what the hell was he doing out here?"





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POSTED ON Oct 25, 2021 14:10:35 GMT
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God, she's beautiful.

Remi has to focus in order to keep her breathing measured, to feign indifference, to remain cold. But the way Calla's hair slips past her cheek to reveal perfect, porcelain skin; the way her eyes watch her, haunting in their intensity. It brings back memories, brings back the feeling of skin on skin and labored breaths--

"Chasing childhood dreams. He had mentioned finding information about avatars here in Hoenn, insisted he was on to something and he was 'so close'. I thought he was just bragging about climaxing."

Her lip twitches but there is little amusement in her quip. Instead, she finds herself genuinely worried.

"I'm.. worried."
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POSTED ON Oct 25, 2021 22:09:25 GMT
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[attr="class","calla i"]childhood dreams...

she had those once upon a time. now, everything's drenched in warm blood and the urge to chase such a thing a foreign concept.

gold narrows, lips curl into a snarl. it fades into a callous expression within moments.

"what does he want with that filth?" who dreams of finding avatars and not red pooling across pavement? hunt them, bleed them dry... all with a smile. is that not the plan?

she stares in the face of worry. it's heavy in the air but that's where her experience ends. feelings aren't for her. she's learned that much from the body in front of her.

emotions have no business in what she is, in what she does.

"do you have a lead?"

hunting is all she's good for, anyway. if there's a trail, she'll sniff it out with her hounds.





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POSTED ON Oct 25, 2021 22:56:45 GMT
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She spits those words out:

Childhood dream.

As if she hadn't once dreamed of being chosen by a dragon. As if she hadn't wished for wings to carry her above the clouds. As if she hadn't wished to become powerful, to become known.

But, like Icarus, she and Roman had both flown too close to the sun. They had crashed and burned, had their hopes and dreams crushed beneath the cruel boot of reality and capitalism and responsibility.

She had moved on, at least that's what she told herself. But Roman never had, it seemed. He'd continued chasing after something just out of reach - and now he was radio silent.

"He wants a bond with a dragon legendary. I don't know-- he said he was visiting Hoenn. That was the last I heard from him, really."

The last she'd paid attention to, anyway.
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POSTED ON Oct 26, 2021 1:15:04 GMT
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[attr="class","calla i"]the age old question comes in a whisper: god's chosen or god's cursed? it settles beside her own personal question until they're one in the same. monsters, made or born, still perish in the end.

and maybe she's no better than them, anyway. and maybe it doesn't fucking matter, either.

"why?" comes out low, flickering between disgusted and intrigued.

a slow drip echoes faintly nearby. it grows louder the longer she stands here until she feels it crawling between vertebrae.

shadows creep in. they stretch with dark, bony fingers over damp pavement. she expects to see a ghost in them, meeting gold with a smile. it never happens. she's the only ghost here, it seems.

"you're what, wandering around until he calls?" productive. her lips quiver but never spread. teeth stay hidden, stay hungry. another step and she's in orbit now. predatory, even with ruins of history between them. "i could help, you know."





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POSTED ON Oct 26, 2021 1:41:14 GMT
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Unstable.

That's what she was- what they had been. Bittersweet and dangerous, like the curved end of a blade, whisper-thin. It had sliced her wide open before she had even noticed, opening wide to expose bone.

"Humans are selfish, power-hungry beings."

It should make her flinch, the way her voice drips with contempt. Her stomach twists because she knows, deep down, that same craving still aches inside of her, too. Roman was the braver one, the stronger one. She had always been the weakling, the runt, the girl trapped in her big brother's shadow.

Calla offers her assistance, but it sounds like an insult. She was good at that.

"No, Calla, I'm handling it. Like I always do."

With or without you.

Remi pulls her shoulders back subtly, sets her jaw. That sweet tooth aches in her presence but she clenches through the pain.

"Do you know a man named Killian Decker? He's Rocket's head of intel. If anyone can help me.."

It won't be you.
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POSTED ON Oct 26, 2021 2:02:50 GMT
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[attr="class","calla i"]humans want to be better. they want to be divine, holy, strong. it makes them weak little insects in the end. shells of what could have been and what will never be.

she is better than that. she finds power in feeding on the masses. sucking the holiness from them until they're nothing but carcasses. husks and ruins... the true makings of a king slayer.

and every slayer must come with a god complex.

she finds hers in the oddest of places.

"the circle of life." the dripping grows more consistent. steady. it thumps in her ears like a heartbeat. "rodents get devoured by cats and cats by hounds." it never stops. not for them, certainly not for roman.

she supposes the reaction is expected, warranted even. and what a pity. here she'd been hoping to get her hands dirty... there's still time.

"touchy." gold returns to red polish. distance spreads much like the shadows in their peripherals.

a stranger. the question could almost be insulting. and maybe it is, if she stops to think about it. she doesn't. instead, she offers an indifferent shrug.

"perhaps," her hand drops and gold rises. the rings are brighter in the dark, almost crawling off corneas. "be careful, mon amour. rats carry disease."





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POSTED ON Oct 26, 2021 2:12:14 GMT
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The woman, the monster, the blood-red curtain in front of her is no different than humans who strive to be better than they are. But rather than reach for the heavens, Calla reaches for hell. Her journey to greatness, to becoming a god, to being unstoppable comes from her bloodied hands and her vengeance.

But in the end, she wants the same thing as anyone else.

She doesn't hear the dripping, perhaps it isn't even there. The sounds of the city streets are white noise, all she can hear is the steadiness of her heartbeat. She's mastered it, mastered feigning indifference and being steadfast. Once upon a time, she had fallen to Calla's every beck and call, begged forgiveness, begged for love.

Things change. People don't.

"Hm."

She had asked that question to inflict pain- but Calla doesn't seem to flinch. Perhaps she doesn't care. Remi swallows, bitterness rising like bile in the back of her throat. It burns and she lets it, lets it fester and poison her thoughts as it always has. As she always has.

"You would know, wouldn't you, love?"

She smiles slowly, cruelly, and makes the first step towards her. Calla may have been playing a game of cat and mouse, but now Remi was encouraging a game of chicken. Who would back away first? Would she stop her if she walked straight past her? Would she stop before she had the chance to let Calla go all over again?
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POSTED ON Oct 26, 2021 2:38:29 GMT
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[attr="class","calla i"]it's human to want. the only redeeming quality of monsters, even. she is no different. a hunger, a desire, an urge. it comes with bloodied teeth and dripping hands. ripped from flesh until she's stitching the pieces together just to experience the thrill once more.

conquerors are looked upon in history as great, powerful, worthy. this bloody red doll will be too. the gods flip a coin, anyway. some are legendary and others? monsters.

awareness comes with the territory. even in some back alley, there's things she doesn't miss. dripping, claws of rattatas scrambling across pavement, distant sirens wailing. it blends into background noise eventually. the shadows don't. they merely grow. and maybe they're hungry.

maybe she is, too.

"unfortunately," stakes change. hunger grows with steps, no matter how big or small. "but i don't eat rats anymore." lips never move, never shift. there's a cruelty to her without movement. it sings in blank eyes, in centipedes circled around irises.

the game of chicken... something they've grown accustomed to over the years. it becomes cycle after cycle until there's no winner. and god, she hates losing.

ground is held with feet of stone. still as a statue, a weeping angel locked beneath the gaze. she's not going anywhere just yet but darling, don't blink...





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POSTED ON Oct 26, 2021 3:13:53 GMT
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She's in love with her.

She always has been.

She fell in love with the devil, with the monster beneath her bed. What she was supposed to fear, supposed to cast a light on and banish the shadows from she had swaddled and encouraged to keep behind closed doors.

And she has every intention now of abandoning her in the dark now, to seek out the stale, flickering street lights past her shoulder. Any shred of dull light was better than the suffocating darkness that had held her, drowning, beneath her desperate hold around her neck.

But God, did she want to be held by her again.

She says she doesn't eat rats anymore and it almost prompts a laugh out of her. But if she had it would have been sarcastic and mean, because Calla has always known how to lie and make it seem like the truth.

"Maybe not, but they're eating you alive."

Remi keeps walking, and she doesn't stop until her shoulder brushes against hers. And she doesn't stop, even though her heels burn with the desire to keep her tethered.

"I'd love to stay and chat some more, but I have work to do."
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POSTED ON Oct 26, 2021 18:23:19 GMT
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[attr="class","calla i"]love. what is it? she thinks she might have known once. it looks a lot like remi, really. white hair, stern features, confidence, a take no shit attitude.

yeah... that's what love is now.

and it doesn't matter but sometimes, she almost wishes it did.

"not yet," she finally flashes teeth. aggressive, even without a coating of blood. "not until i'm dead." they can feast on her carcass when she's done, when her purpose has been met.

and they'll eat like fucking kings.

the brush of shoulders... it sends shockwaves of something crawling beneath her skin. into her spinal cord, into her nerves. and yet, it doesn't make her move. marble, even as remi looks to leave. and maybe that's why they keep messing this up, keep missing each other. funny, she thought she knew wants and desires before.

it's nothing compared to this.

"don't run yourself ragged," her head turns. red curtain shifting for gold to peek through. the circles crawl with life. "that's my job."





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