They/Them
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May 14th
Ecruteak City
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Makoto Kurumi
Makoto takes Howard's hand in turn. Squeezes it, like the lifeline that it was for their sanity.
It felt comforting, this human contact. Though, were they still fully human, they wondered? Or were parts of them just a facsimile of humanity, now?
"Things got... Out of hand, when I was discovered in the Space Center. Even if I have strong pokemon, direct combat has never been my specialty - and I was outnumbered. I had to bring out Erebus, and though it was able to fare a bit better, we were still getting pushed into a corner - a-and..." Makoto paused a second, feeling queasy and having to collect themself before they could continue. Their voice was quieter. "Erebus just turned around, and... Fused with me." It did not feel right to call it symbiosis - as if it were mutually beneficial, when all it did was terrorize them. "Sorta like it did with its first trainer - Killian. And it was horrible."
"I felt like I was drowning in it, while it was happening. L-like it was writhing beneath my skin - and I could still feel it, even afterwards. I could feel its heart in my chest, could feel it in every nook and cranny of my body; I was hyper-aware of every little part of... O-of us, I guess...!" Makoto did not seem aware of the way their voice gradually rose; not quite to a shout, but it was clear they were affected. "I barely had any chance to even adjust before it began moving - moving in my body - wherever it pleased, using me like some vessel to fight with..! And I just- I- All I could do was watch!"
Makoto's breath shuddered and hitched, as if they were trying to keep their emotions down. Realizing their own volume, they sucked in a deep breath - before continuing, quieter once more. "I was scared... I-It claimed it wanted to protect me. That they'd be defeated. And... Maybe that was true. But I was still scared as my body just. Faced those pokemon head-on. I thought I'd be crushed, or burnt to a crisp, o-or something, even if my body was the strongest it'd ever be... I still kept thinking with each clash 'this attack is the one that'll just kill us'..."
Another hiccup. A free hand rising to rub at their eyes. "A-and even after it was over, I just... Felt sick. A kind of sick that I- That I didn't wanna feel ever again. Giving myself up just so I can live, I...-" Makoto trailed off, stopped, wondering if they were beginning to say too much. Beginning to get too personal. Their free hand rises again, to rub their arm anxiously.
Instead of continuing that stopped trail of thought, they take in another deep breath, and glance to Howard proper. "... D-do you... Know any scientists, that you'd trust? That might stay quiet, if I just... Asked them to look me over? And make sure I'm still the same...?" They wanted to at least feel like they still owned this body. That there wouldn't be any lasting effects from all of this.
And they didn't want the fact that it all had happened in the first place to become common knowledge, even if they knew that everyone in the computer room that day had saw it happen. Otherwise, they worried that it'd become expected of them, in fights like these, to let Erebus simply puppet them...
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