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Cillian Quinn

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POSTED ON Nov 18, 2024 1:37:58 GMT

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Cillian lifts his other hand, the free one, as shadows turn flexing fingers to sharpened claws.[break][break]

"No different than I was."[break][break]

And Temp had worshipped him for it. They couldn't keep their hands off one another. There's guilt in the pit of his stomach that he can't offer Temp that same fervour. Not right now. It wasn't that he didn't find his husband attractive anymore — Temp was beautiful, that hadn't been a lie. But that beauty had been scarred by his own hands, and how could he trust himself?[break][break]

He can't think of words to explain the panic overtaking him. He doesn't have to, for Temp's own anxieties raise themselves in the form of a question that Cillian doesn't even need to think about.[break][break]

"No." It's said with quiet, firm confidence. "When she chose me, it was the first time I didn't feel afraid."[break][break]

He'd felt like he could take on the world. Conquer regions, perhaps even Rocket. He'd felt powerful, fulfilled, worthy. He wishes it could've been the same, for Temp.[break][break]

"What are you scared of?"

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POSTED ON Nov 18, 2024 1:56:09 GMT

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Even though it had ripped his throat out the night before, Tempest doesn't flinch at the sudden shadowed claws.[break][break]

Yet it is something to think over. Cillian Quinn answers his question and it is much the same answer he was given when he asked it before. When he had been studying these things, trying to scry into where the line between 'human' and 'Avatar' had laid.[break][break]

What would he do with that, now?[break][break]

It is that same research, those same questions asked to so many others, that spring to life when Cillian asks him what.[break][break]

"I don't want to lose who I am."[break][break]

So many past and current Avatars, both Rocket and League, come to mind as he says it. The very core of who they were stripped and ripped away into twisted versions of themselves. Even Cillian wasn't who he was before.[break][break]

"I don't want to stop being me."

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Cillian Quinn

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POSTED ON Nov 18, 2024 2:06:02 GMT

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"Then you won't," says Cillian simply.[break][break]

He knew why Temp was afraid. Jayden, Elisa, even Cillian himself. Rocket's Avatars often changed in response to their dark powers. But there's a reason behind his confidence.[break][break]

"I chose this."[break][break]

He gestures with his clawed hand.[break][break]

"The changes before, they were manageable, and... I don't think Lugia changed my emotions, really. I think she just loosened the hold that Rocket had put on them."[break][break]

He hadn't always been a quiet, timid grunt. He'd been angry and rebellious and violent, too. He'd attacked Theo. And even before Rocket, he would pick fights at school or, when he was feeling particularly bold, at home with his father. It had taken years of conditioning to rein in that impulsive fury, and Lugia's blessing had burned away some of that control.[break][break]

He was thankful for it, but feels a mixture of sadness and anger as he thinks of his patron, now. How betrayed he'd felt when she'd turned on him at the Border.[break][break]

"I think if you resist, you won't change who you are."

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POSTED ON Nov 18, 2024 2:15:17 GMT

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Cillian Quinn makes it seem so easy.[break][break]

Maybe it is. Maybe the megalomania that happened within the hearts of most Avatars were just them twisting themselves into the worst version of themselves. Tempest had already been shaped into that person by his husband's hands. He didn't need some wannabe-god to make him something worse than he already was. Yveltal would not have that sort of grip on him.[break][break]

Tempest had never thought he was weak enough to use Avatarship as a crutch.[break][break]

It was also nice to know that Cillian was still Cillian. Cillian was still a human inside of the shadows that cloaked his shoulders, even if his husband would deny it. If you stripped Lugia's powers away from him he would still be the same man.[break][break]

He would be no less deadly.[break][break]

Tempest would just have to prove he didn't need the overgrown bird to be just as strong.[break][break]

But... there were other concerns, as well....[break][break]

"I also don't want to be her slave." This is said with a bit more heat though not at Cillian. Just a general anger at Yveltal for what she had done to him. They would both also know of Adrian Malcolm's fate when he was trapped with Destruction.

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Cillian Quinn

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POSTED ON Nov 18, 2024 2:47:49 GMT

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Would Temp die if Yveltal abandoned him? Or would its blessing be enough to preserve his life so long as it wasn't ended anew? The thought troubles him. He doesn't ask, not wanting to upset Temp more.[break][break]

Instead, he makes his peace with the fact that, should Yveltal truly possess him, he will find the strength to do what has to be done. Even if the consequence is great.[break][break]

"Rocket can strip an Avatar of their bond. We've done it before."[break][break]

To Bryan, to Fernando, to Chu-e.[break][break]

"If you stop being you..." Can Cillian really trust himself to make that call, when the first thing he'd done was attack him? I didn't know. But would he know in the future? What Temp needs now, however, is comfort. Not Cillian's own fears amplifying his own. So he says, "or if you ever want it, then we'll take the necessary steps. Okay?"

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