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POSTED ON May 3, 2023 1:28:18 GMT
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Onyx is a creature of the violence of survival.

He doesn’t exist around others in a peaceful way, naturally. Even this, with Andres, is a kind of crashing, back-and-forth combat; and so it is shocking to all parties involved, but mostly himself, that he begins to drift off on his own accord, no drugs or booze on board, just the gravitational pull of an exhausted Andres and the planet-sized effect this man has on him.

His eyelids start to droop and the room goes fuzzy.

“Yeah,” he says, sleep making his voice a slur, “yeah. Me, too.”

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“Maybe,” Onyx says, a noncommittal tilt of his head and shrug of one shoulder. He pushes forward into the strange field. “Maybe they wouldn’t even notice.”

He whistles, and Vatin changes his course, shooting through the underbrush and rushing out into the grass. Onyx is a few feet behind him when he gets the instinctual urge to look up and realizes he can’t see Ziadem above them. The sky has taken on an odd, rainbow, soap-bubble hue.

It’s enough to make him pause. For a moment, he’s back in the distortion, with , and there’s a fucking Ursaring about to bite into him.

He balls his fists enough to make his knuckles crack, turning to look back at Andres. A beacon. A light. A pillar of realness in a place that is just nonsensical enough to be unsettling and not nearly enough to be fun.

“We should stick together.”
Because as terrifying as it is to imagine the distortion that had tore him to pieces and cost him his eye it was a thousand times scarier to imagine Andres was the one getting hurt.

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POSTED ON May 2, 2023 23:46:35 GMT
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[attr="class","mitchel"]The words my kids trigger something in him that makes him look stupid and straight ahead before he remembers that Andres is a teacher and so, yeah, that makes sense.

“I used to work at one. Long time ago. Shortly after I left home.”

It was easy work and no one asked questions like do you have a driver’s license or are you old enough to legally work or how many people are you claiming on your taxes?

He clams up a bit because he doesn’t like talking about ye olden days, really. They remind him of… of things he’d rather not be reminded of, and he catches himself staring at the dark fuzz on Andres’ hairline where a small scar is faintly raised against the pale skin, averting his eyes with a frown.

“Didn’t really go on the rides, though.”



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POSTED ON May 2, 2023 23:41:41 GMT
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[attr="class","mitchel"]“Trash. Right.”

He pushes himself up from the doorframe, something simmering in him, an anger that is so foreign-- and yet so familiar, he has the name of it on the back of his tongue-- that he doesn’t quite know how to process it. Its color kin to the possessiveness that made him track Andres down in a dirty club bathroom all those many months ago.

But. Getting worked up about a random assortment of bullshit he found on the floor? That would be… utterly ridiculous, right?

“...recent trash, though?”


…as ridiculous as regularly having sex with your childhood bully who put you in the hospital repeatedly?

He runs a hand through his hair, tugging. Fuck, he hates it when he out-logics himself.

“I was going to make cookies,” he says, returning to the grocery bags he’d left abandoned on the floor and forcing a very fake measure of cheer into his voice, “or-- or cake, or some shit. Want anything?”



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[attr="class","thadmain"]He feels a tremor run through Andres and his eyes are too bright for it to be fear. Onyx drags his thumb through the downy hair at the base of his skull.

“Mm. Unfortunately, I’m not better than Rocket,” he says, twisting his wrist to slip his fingers up under Andres’ shirt and skirt over the muscles of his lower abdomen, featherlight.

And then Andres gets to the crux of the issue and Onyx finds himself at an impasse.

How do you tell someone how scared they make you? It is terribly unsexy.

How do you tell someone that you’re just a vulture, taking advantage of a period of powerful emotions to rip and tear at the carcass of a life until you’re sated? How do you tell someone that your inner nature is to be a scavenger? And now suddenly, you’re ashamed of it?

How do you tell the truth when it’s the most painful thing you’ve ever had to say?

I left because I’m a coward. I left because I was terrified and in awe of this concept of the two of us, together, in anything except a destructive capacity. I left because I didn’t want you to come to your senses. I left because I don’t want to hurt you.

Instead, he dips his fingers under the waist of Andres’ pants, splaying them over his hip.

“What did you want me to do, move in?” he cracks, lowering his head to drag his lips over the column of Andres’ neck.

“You told me you loved me.” He says the word love into the pulse at Andres’ throat. “That doesn’t seem like something just friends say. As much as you keep trying to push that on us.”

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POSTED ON May 2, 2023 2:41:20 GMT
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[attr="class","thadmain"]he can, for all his issues, usually read andres like an open book. it's made easier by the sheer amount of want that rolls of of the guy, in waves. maybe that was one reason why this kept happening: andres made onyx felt wanted. even though he told himself it was impossible, that he shouldn't (want or be wanted). like kicking an addiction cold turkey and failing miserably.

he's not rough about it, seeing the panic on andres' face for a split second. he's not here for work or anything like that-- he's here for the man standing in front of him. so he takes his time, slips his hands up andres' sides, pets at the muscles over his shirt.

his mouth flattens out into a thin line. he knows his involvement with Rocket bothers Andres but he also knows this isn't the main reason he's upset. onyx drags his knuckles gently up and down andres' abs, humming a thoughtful note.

"like i said, i thought you knew. if not rocket then at least-- something unsavory." he cocks his head and wets his lips, eyes following the flush slowly creeping down andres' neck. "i would've found a better way to say it if i hadn't just-- assumed. so, i'm sorry." his hands don't stop moving the entire time

he slowly moves a hand up to cup at the back of andres' head, the nape of his neck.

"they had a place for my... skillset. you should know better than most i'm only good at breaking things." he lowers his head ever so slightly. "but is that what's really bothering you, sunshine?"

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[attr="class","thadmain"]Onyx snorts. “Well, that’s obvious,” he says out of the corner of his mouth, eye going a little wide as he lays the sarcasm on real thick. Step after careful step, he gets closer, until they’re close enough to touch.

It’s like Halloween and it isn’t. Because that had been… scary. Something fire-red in his normally very cool toned body; and the way it had all burnt out, well, it turned out okay.

Onyx reaches out and sets his hands at Andres hips-- gently, so he could pull away if he wanted. He strums his thumbs along the front of his stomach, dipping ever so slightly below the waistband, and then back up again.

“You got two minutes,” he said, voice low and husky, but not threatening; it’s laced with approval, some growly type of affection, “to tell me what’s got you so in your head before I do like I shoulda done on Halloween and fuck you in a bathroom.” His eyebrow goes up as his mouth flattens into a line and he shrugs, as if to say, so there’s that.

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[attr="class","thadmain"]Onyx would wink and click his tongue in cheeky agreement if he, you know, had two eyes. “I don’t know, kitten, this seems a bit like our natural habitat.” It’s certainly more familiar than whatever charade he’d been putting on for Andres at that picnic. Romance and platitudes, I think of you all the time? Horseshit. As foreign to him as another language.

But this? Grimy tile and the smell of wet paper and nicotine. The far off clink of glass and the taste of tequila. This he knew like his own name.

“Not now,” he says, ashing his cigarette in a sink, grey soot on dingy, chipped white porcelain, “but you were. You get all clammed up like a gear that won’t turn. You grind and you spit sparks and you walk away.”

He’s still walking forward, taking predatory slow steps.

“I don’t doubt I’ve upset you. I’m an upsetting guy. But if I’m going to be accused and treated like it, I want to know why.”

He exhales a final burst of smoke-- to the side-- and pitches the remnant down a drain.

“So talk, sunshine.”


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Onyx grins, nose wrinkling. “You read my mind. I was gonna suggest that. But only the Netflix part.” He stacks a pillow behind his upper back and tugs the blankets up in the same measure. “Do you have a remote, or is this Chromecast, or what’s the situation here?”

After a beat he flattens his feet to the bed and flexes his hips, lifting them both up so he can fish one hand underneath Andres and undo his jeans, pushing them down. “Don’t get excited, now. No way I’m letting you around my junk, Coughy McCougherson. Jus’ getting comfortable."

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[attr="class","thadmain"]He is tracking Andres the whole way, of course, because he never makes a threat he can’t make good on and also because he’s half-convinced the man will just get up and leave. He doesn’t, though-- he makes for the bathroom, which gives Onyx a fantastic idea.

The bartender slides him the two receipts for their tabs and Onyx tips twenty percent on each (he might be an abusive, murderous psychopath, but he’s not a total dick) and slides both the cards into his back pocket. He takes a slow and roundabout route to the men’s room, swiping a pack of Marlboro’s out of some drunk’s back pocket and a lighter out of an intoxicated woman’s hand on the way.

The door swings shut and he locks it with a flick of his fingers, tapping the pack of smokes in his palm to single one out. He strolls into the main area, his reflection appearing down the long mirror, with Andres at the other end, as he lights up.

“So,” he says, exhaling long, closing his eye and letting it wash over him, “we gonna talk, or are you gonna get so pissed you spark out again?”

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He does not hold back. And it isn’t, you know, one for the record books, what with his injures and the way Andres fucks with his mind just by existing. But by nature of it possibly being the last time they’ll ever get to do this-- with anyone, let alone each other-- it’s pretty spectacular.

Onyx lays down next to him and nuzzles into the side of his neck, one hand splayed over Andres’ right pec.

“Do you think we’ll know it?”
he asks, voice little more than a mumble; dreamy, over-warm, and sated. “When we die?”

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POSTED ON May 2, 2023 0:44:04 GMT
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Chuchi leads them on, her snuffling through the undergrowth reminding Onyx of a wild pig. She’s much less affected by the press of nature than her trainer-- Onyx reaches up to pluck a twig that’s gotten snagged on Andres’ jacket and toss it to the ground.

“Who names their kid Rodric?” he muttered under his breath, pausing to peek under a thick bush at a crumpled cardboard box and smattering of trash.

“No, like…” he trails off, walking around the squat tree to look beyond. There’s an open field of tall grass, waist-high or higher, and it rolls in the wind.

Except.

“The wind is blowing from that direction,” said, pointing; and if to illustrate, a gust comes and blows his hair back away from the nape of his neck. The field of grass, meanwhile, is bending in the opposite direction-- away from them. “So if the wind is coming at our faces, how is the grass moving away from us?”

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POSTED ON May 2, 2023 0:33:54 GMT
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[attr="class","mitchel"]He is the human equivalent of an overstimulated cat-- the kind where you’re scratching their butt and it feels too good so they hiss and swat. He whirls, only the last few months of training himself stopping him from throwing an elbow right into Andres’ face.

It’s been hard work. You live alone for so long, where the only kind of contact is the bad kind, you have a whole bunch of habits you have to unlearn. And he’s trying. He is really, really trying. So he digs his fingers into the denim of his jeans and exhales, leaning into Andres because-- well, the Onyx of six months ago would say because he’s the known entity in this mire of confusion, but to be perfectly fucking honest, it’s because he wants to.

“Looks like a screaming metal deathtrap,”
he says, sliding one arm around Andres’ waist to hold him close as the crowd begins to thin. He looks at him and grins.

“Let’s do it.”



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“Yeah, you will,” he growls, turning his head so his ear was resting on the curve of Andres spine, “when you’re better.” He grabbed a box of tissues within arm’s reach and plopped them on the blankets on Andres legs.

“What do we got for entertainment in this bitch?”
he asks, leaning back against the pillows and the head of the bed and coaxing Andres to do the same, just, on top of him.

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[attr="class","thadmain"]“We could be at this all night if you want to sit there and put words in my mouth,” Onyx says, and immediately regrets it, but-- he’s tired. Tired of this constant back and forth, this push and pull, this circling around the goddamn shower drain.

The fact of the matter was he didn’t know what to do with Andres when they were together and having him sit in his lap and tell him he loved him after all their history was-- terrifying. It was terrifying. Andres was so strong and yet so fragile-- Onyx, of all people, knew that.

“When I’m not with you, usually I’m working,” he says, and it’s flat and deadpan and dripping scathing because he had been operating under the assumption that Andres knew what he did for a living. And now Onyx really did know what happened when people assumed, because it had blown up in his face far more explosively than he ever could have imagined. “I’m not fucking other people, if that’s what you’re suggesting.”

God, he’s so tired. He’s horny and he’s tired.

Andres starts to clam up on him again like he did that night under the stars and Onyx--

--”I don’t understand--,” but he shakes his head and pinches the bridge of his nose, digging in his pocket for his wallet. “Don’t worry about it, I’ll get it. You sit there and then you’re going to tell me what it is that’s fucking bothering you. And if you’re gone when I get back I’m going to find you.” He pushes away from the table and fishes for his wallet.

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