Wanna be her (Past)

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Wanna be her (Past)
POSTED ON Aug 26, 2023 3:27:22 GMT
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"i - " ollie hesitated.

[break][break] just a friend?

[break][break] no.

[break][break] more than a friend?

[break][break] also no.

[break][break] he liked melody, more than he liked his other friends like or or , but not more than he'd liked or .

[break][break] "... i did," ollie said hastily, after a minute. he knew, because had told him. had warned him. he was supposed to stay if he wasn't serious about melody. and he wasn't — not in the way that needed him to be.

[break][break] "i do like you, mels," he said, reaching for her hand. he met her eyes, hoping that she could see in them what he felt for her. "but - you also are my friend. i never meant to hurt you, even though i did."

[break][break] "there aren't any signs for you to interpret."

[break][break] "i'm just me. the same me that i was when you first met me."

[break][break] 'a stupid me,' he thought.

[break][break] "what do you want from me, mels? what can i do to make this better?"

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"I dont KNOW!" she blurts out in frustration, her feelings weren't aimed at him this time however but at herself. [break][break]

"I don't know how to navigate these situations! I've never had to make them for myself! My whole life my mom decided everything for me, everything! My clothes, my hair, my schedule! The only thing I got to decide was music!" she says as Melody's past comes to light.[break][break]

"I suffered for years and YEARS to have free will over my life and now I finally have it! But then it's only to realize that now when I have that free will I suddenly cant make any choices!" she says as the tears roll down her face and she stares at her knees as her nails dig into her skin. [break][break]

"I miss it sometimes. Only being happy, not having to think about all the horrible stuff that other people do to me. I've never had to forgive anyone for anything cause I'd just forget it. I don't know how to move on. I don't know how to fix this! It's too hard!" Thunder strikes outside the apartment and the lights flicker in the apartment as Melody tries to wipe her face with her sleeves.

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at her outburst, his eyes widen.

[break][break] of all the things that that he'd expected her to say, this wasn't one of them. how could he have expected this? how was he supposed to know?

[break][break] "melody, i - "

[break][break] uncertainty gripped him, lost of what words to say. what words he could say.

[break][break] maybe there were no words he could say.

[break][break] ollie leaned forward, gently brushing away her tears. he placed his other hand on her head, stroking gently.

[break][break] "i'm sorry."

[break][break] "that's - it's all awful, i wish i could help." his lips pressed together in a thin line, and he pulled back slightly to look at her properly. "but i can't. that's only something you can do."

[break][break] "i think - it sounds like you need to figure out who you are, without all that other stuff. when i first left kanto, starting off on my own, i'd felt like that too."

[break][break] independence was a thing that had to be learned, not taught.

[break][break] "but i'm here for you. all your friends are. i can't tell you what to do, or how to fix it, but - " he smiled gently. "we're here."

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She repeats it to herself in her thoughts, 'You need to figure out who you are'. [break][break]

she pauses and stays silent as he places his hand on hers, she felt some weird sense of relief. "You're right. I think." she says as she realizes a future with ollie was less and less likely with every word spoken here. "I think I need to be alone for a bit, Ollie." she says as she starts to stand up as the rain continues to pour. [break][break]

As she moves towards the door she pauses. "Thank you, for at least telling me the truth now..but in the future. Just tell me instead of leaving me out to dry." she tells him

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'stupid.'

[break][break] he immediately thinks it, almost as soon as he can see her pull back. ollie knows it's selfish, but he feels a sense of relief and guilt all at once. it wasn't what he'd meant to say — just like he hadn't meant to hurt her.

[break][break] "mels, listen, i - " his voice catches. 'listen, what? you didn't mean it? you want to take it back, idiot?'

[break][break] he didn't.

[break][break] ollie rises as goes for the door, following her uselessly. rain reflects in emerald green as the door opens to the downpour outside.

[break][break] "okay, mels," he says with a frown.

[break][break] "let me know when you get home, alright? i..." 'i do care about you, you know.' "i'll text you, okay?"

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