saoirse quinn
she/her
29
october 27
circhester, galar
bisexual
physicist / inventor
head scientist
every night i burn, dream the black crow dream
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Lulu Flint
betcha don't know [c]
POSTED ON Feb 8, 2021 7:37:37 GMT
It is what it is. What an utterly obnoxious, useless phrase. She used it all the time, too. When he leaned in, her eyes became a little more glazed over than they had been previously. Her heart picked up a hair, and her stare went from one of his eyes to the other. The moment was almost enough that she forgot to listen to what he was saying, but the words kept just within the comprehensible border of her mind. She inhaled somewhat sharply and withdrew as he did, clearing her throat a little. The fact that he couldn’t entirely control his 'pixie dust' was the most interesting part. Again, she wanted to ask, but the booze made her brain lag and then, he was already asking another question. Tit for tat. Lulu didn’t like admitting weakness. It wasn’t how she had been raised. She’d been raised with an iron fist and a bucketful of ice. She’d never been to therapy, or a psychiatrist. Never diagnosed with the PTSD that had plagued her for her entire life. She saw the weakness in herself, and she truly felt there was no way in hell she would ever let anyone else do so. She’d downplay it with a shrug. He was perhaps guarded, and she was perhaps one hell of a hypocrite. “It’s a comfort, I guess.” She considered a truth she could tell without feeling guilty for it. “I’m usually alone, otherwise. Prefer to be, really.” A preference sounded decidedly better than a mental requirement. This pokemon was a crutch. Tomorrow, she would decide to try medication. Still a crutch, but one no one could see, which was what we were going for here. She skewed her lips and poked a tongue in her cheek, dismissing the thought and turning a few degrees back towards the bar, eyeballing the bottle as though it were untrustworthy, but also as though she were perfectly capable of bad decisions. She sighed, taking a moment to assess her own drunkenness. “Kind of want a smoke, honestly.” This time, she asked—a request, rather than an offer. “Come with me? I’d like the company.” She paused, smiling with wry cat eyes, referencing her prior explanation, “Rare for me, you know.” It was the truth, though. Lulu didn't care for most people. At all.
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