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Camila was used to taking care of other people when they were sick not actually ending up sick herself. So whenever she was under the weather, the ever wise practitioner of medicine would often forget all her medical training and revert back to how she acted when she was a young.[break][break]

Today was no different. For the past couple of days she just hadn't felt like herself. Her appetite was low, she could barely handle the smell of food now. She was nauseous and constantly experiencing temperature shifts. She wasn't sure what kind of cold or virus she was coming down with but she wished it was over with as soon as possible. [break][break]

Early this morning she'd long left the warm comfortable bed of her and Kolya's and instead spent her time drifting in and out of conciousness in the bathroom, the toilet bowl being her best friend. Now as she laid with her cheek pressed against the cool tile of the bathtub she counted this current lull in her nausea a blessing. [break][break]

"Hmm" she groaned to herself softly as she closed her eyes. She felt so lethargic as well. Being sick was miserable. At this point she wasn't even in her right mind to even potentially recognize the symptoms to properly diagnose herself, all she knew was that she wanted this all to pass. She'd pray to whoever if it meant she could make it past all of this sooner.
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A noise from the bathroom stirred Nikolaj from his sleep. Almost immediately, he noticed that Camila's side of the bed was empty and growing cold. He sat up and looked around the small bedroom, though with how dark it was, he could barely see anything.[break][break]

"Cami?" he called out. A groan answered, causing a flood of concern to fill him. Throwing aside the blankets, he got out of bed and padded to the bathroom, barefoot. Light seeped out from beneath the door. "Cami, are you in there?"[break][break]

Nikolaj did not wait for her to answer. He pushed the door open, only to find her propped up between the toilet and the bathtub. Frowning, he crouched in front of her and touched her forehead. No fever.[break][break]

"Baby girl? What's wrong?"

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She had no fever but she was clammy to the touch. Camila didn't want to worry Nikolaj but right now what she wanted and what she could do couldn't have been further apart from each other. The cool touch of the bathtub was keeping the nausea at bay while tired steel blue orbs lifted as Nikolaj approached. [break][break]

"I'm...fine." she replied softly. Clearly that wasn't true but she was still trying her best not to worry him. It took all of her energy to lift her hand and place it on Kolya's. "I probably ate something bad is all. You can head back to sleep." she said as she sat up. The movement was jarring and caused the nausea to rush back. [break][break]

"Hurk." Cami covered her mouth as she leaned closer to the toilet. Normally when she would get sick like this throwing up would make her feel better but this time she just felt miserable. Either way, she knew she couldn't just stay here. "Actually...Bring..." Cami said with a pant, "Bring me my medicine bag please." she asked Nikolaj as she attempted to slowly stand to her feet.
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When Camila looked about to vomit, Nikolaj scrambled to help her, holding her steady. The smell that hit him was awful, but he ignored it. His girlfriend needed him.[break][break]

"I can't sleep knowing you're hurting like this, Cami," he said, though he didn't know how else he could help her. Maybe he could sneak down into the kitchen for a glass of water.[break][break]

Then she asked for her medicine bag, a thought that hadn't occurred to him. But he didn't immediately leave her, instead helping her to stand. Once he was sure she wasn't going to collapse onto the bathroom floor again, he slowly released his grip on her and returned to the bedroom. He snatched her bag from where she always kept it and was at her side again in a few heartbeats.[break][break]

Nikolaj unzipped the bag with the full intention of helping Camila with whatever diagnosis or treatment she planned to perform on herself. "What do you need?"

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Nikolaj helped her to her feet before quickly leaving the bathroom to grab what she asked for. Meanwhile, Camila herself pulled herself together and washed up. Making sure to rinse her mouth out while also washing her clammy face. She’d said it was probably something she ate but she honestly couldn’t remember what she’d had that was out of the normal yesterday, so food poisoning probably wasn’t what this was. [break][break]

Cami wasn’t quite sure what she needed, that was the problem. She fumbled around her bag as she began to look for general items. First and foremost this nausea has to be dealt with. She has these dissolvable tablets that would be able to help with that. While she was searching for them, they were tiny so it was hard to find, her hand brushed against a spare pregnancy test and she felt the blood drain from her face. [break][break]

Now that she thought about it, when was the last time her monthly friend visited her? As she began asking questions, panic settled in. It all made sense, the hot flashes, the nausea, the lethargy, the food cravings. The problem was, was she ready to be a mother? Better yet, was this what Kolya wanted? What if she told him and he distanced herself? He promised he would love her and wouldn’t hurt her but would that extend to their unborn child?[break][break]

With a sheepish smile she took the bag from him and turned him around. “Thank you for helping me, I’ll be fine.” She said as she gently pushed him to leave. “I’m going to finish washing up then I’ll be back in bed, okay?” She needed to figure this out first before she let him know. Needed to sort through her feelings of anxiety and fear while actually getting to the bottom of this. They hadn’t been together that long and now she was pregnant? What was she thinking?
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The sudden change in Camila's behavior confused Nikolaj, but perhaps she was just embarrassed at having been found sick. He looked over her critically. She looked like an absolute mess, but at least she seemed marginally better after having washed up.[break][break]

Still, he found himself conflicted about what to do. Shouldn't he help her get to bed? But she was proud of her resilience. She may not want him to baby her over a bit of food poisoning.[break][break]

"All right, if you insist," Nikolaj eventually relented, stepping out of the bathroom. "But let me know if you need anything, okay?"[break][break]

He partially closed the door behind him, leaving it ajar so he could hear Camila if she called out. Then he padded back to their bed and climbed under the covers, which had grown cold in their absence. But he found he couldn't fall back asleep. How could he, knowing his girlfriend was sick?

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POSTED ON Feb 9, 2023 19:34:43 GMT

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Once Nikolaj was out of the room Cami's bravado crashed. Leaning her back against the closed door, with trembling hands she pulled out the pregnancy test. She was an emotional wreck but she needed to pull herself together. She couldn't avoid this or pretend it didn't exist now that she knew about it. [break][break]

After a few agonizing minutes as she waited for the test results to come in she began to think about her life and her childhood. Memories she'd rather not revisit but found themselves coming and invading her mind anyway. Her childhood wasn't all bad. But after the death of her father everything fell apart so quickly. Her mother lost herself and forced her child to fend for herself in a cruel world where everyone around her wanted something from her. [break][break]

Camila had to work her ass off tirelessly, never having a moment to break because if she did she'd never make it out. And once she finally did make it out, her mother left her behind in this cruel place too. Camila didn't know the first thing about being a mom. Her time was spent hitting the books. She was just as clueless here as she was when it came to romance but at least Nikolaj was there to support her. [break][break]

Hot tears streamed down her face as she stared back at the results she already knew to be true. Could she do this? She was terrified if she was being honest. But there was a small piece of hope among the fear and anxiety. Camila slowly rose to her feet and opened the door to the bathroom. [break][break]

She didn't say anything but slowly made her way towards the bed and wrapped her arms around Kolya. She was trembling but whenever she was scared he'd always been there to reassure her. He made a promise to her so surely he'd keep it now too right? After a moment she pulled back and wiped at her face before placing the test in his hands. [break][break]

"It's...not food poisoning." she said softly.
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Nikolaj's first indication that something other than food poisoning was the culprit was when he heard Camila sniffling in the bathroom. Though the door was closed, the walls of their tiny apartment were paper thin. She may have tried to suppress the sounds of her crying, but the gasp of air through a clogged nose betrayed her truth.[break][break]

So, when Camila crawled into bed, Nikolaj immediately wrapped his arms around her and pulled her against his chest. She trembled against him, desperate, scared. "It's okay, baby girl, I'm here," he murmured, kissing her cheeks, tasting the salt of her tears on his lips. "I'm here. It'll be okay."[break][break]

But when she pressed a small object in his hands, Nikolaj pulled back, confused. In the dark, it was hard to tell what exactly it was — a thermometer, perhaps? But she hadn't felt feverish, only clammy. Disentangling himself from his girlfriend, he leaned over to turn on the bedside lamp so he could peer closely at what he held.[break][break]

Of course, Nikolaj knew what a pregnancy test was. He knew how they were supposed to work. The two solid lines on the screen meant only one thing.[break][break]

He stared at Camila in disbelief, jaw slack, eye wide. "Camila…" He found himself at a loss for words, reaching for them like a fish struggling to breathe above water. "Is this real? Are you… are we…?"

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POSTED ON Feb 10, 2023 17:57:10 GMT

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Camila waited with bated breath as she felt Nikolaj sit up and flick on the light to better see what it was that she handed to him. She watched as slowly the realization of what he was looking at took over and she continued to watch in silence as his jaw dropped and eye widened. [break][break]

Cami couldn't breathe if she was being honest. She wasn't breathing the entire time she watched him take it all in. "Camila…" he said her name so softly but it was quiet all around them so it sounded louder. "Is this real? Are you… are we…?" he asked in disbelief. Camila wasn't quite sure how to take that.[break][break]

She nodded slowly. "Are you...upset?" she finally managed to breathe out. She couldn't bring herself to look at him. "I should've known right away. I'm ten days late...now that I think about it." she continued with a shaky voice. Her gaze lowered itself to their bedsheets as she picked at them nervously with her nails. [break][break]

Cami was afraid to find out the truth of how he felt but she also could no longer stand the suspense. She needed to know where he stood. "Do you hate it? I mean..." her voice trailed off as she ran shaky fingers through her hair. "What do we do now? I-I don't know what to do...I'm scared." she finally admitted before hiding her face in her hands.
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Camila's confirmation was overwhelming. Nikolaj had considered becoming a father one day, but that had always been a distant future disconnected from the violence of his current life. He stared wordlessly at the two red lines on the pregnancy test, trying to understand how his life had gotten to that point.[break][break]

But besides that, would he even be a good father? Would he be able to raise a child properly? Or would that child simply suffer the same fate: impoverished, uneducated, in constant danger?[break][break]

Camila's tremulous voice cut through his thoughts, pulling Nikolaj back into the present moment. Her question and uncertainty pained him, but not more than the sight of her so afraid.[break][break]

In an instant, he made up his mind. Setting the pregnancy test down on the bedside table, he gathered her up in his arms and tucked her head under his chin. "No, no, I'm not upset. I don't hate it," he reassured her, his voice thick with a mix of unexpected emotions.[break][break]

Foremost of them, however, was love. A deep and entrenching love.[break][break]

Nikolaj and Camila had not been officially dating for very long. Yet they'd known each other for two years; she'd tended to him in his most vulnerable moments, when he'd lost his eye. Whenever anything happened to him, good or ill, he thought about how it might affect her. He wanted nothing more than to see her smile, hear her laugh, and feel her warmth against him.[break][break]

Subconsciously, Nikolaj began rubbing Camila's back in an effort to massage the worry out of her body. "Do you want to keep it?" he asked. "Because I do, but only if you do, too."

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POSTED ON Feb 10, 2023 18:49:30 GMT

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Within moments Nikolaj had pulled her into a comforting embrace, one she hadn't even been aware that she needed. "No, no, I'm not upset. I don't hate it," he reassured her which brought more tears to her eyes. Thank Arceus he didn't hate it. She felt so relieved to hear those words. But it wasn't until the pressure started to release that she began to slowly realize why they weight had lifted off her shoulders. [break][break]

She wanted this little baby.[break][break]

Beyond the fear and uncertainty if she could even be a good mother to the child, she wanted this child. Their child. And it would seem she wanted the baby from the moment she became aware. She just wasn't aware of this yet herself. It's why she was so nervous and scared to find out what Nikolaj would think. Why she felt uneasy about her capabilities because she wanted to do her best for this baby.[break][break]

"Do you want to keep it?" he asked. "Because I do, but only if you do, too." he continued as he rubbed her back gently. Camila lowered her hands from her face before looking up at him. Her cheeks were red and stained with tears but for the first time since she left the bathroom her gaze was strong.[break][break]

"I do." she answered him. "I want to keep it but..." her gaze drifted around their room. "I'd be lying if I said I didn't have my doubts." her eyes widened, "But not about keeping the baby! Just...if I'm good enough. Capable enough to be a mother. You know I didn't really have a good one myself." she said as turned to face him.[break][break]

"I'm not sure yet on what kind of mother I'll be but I know for sure I don't want to raise my child suffering the way I had to." Her hand curled into a fist. That was something she would not budge on. She would never allow her child to suffer the way she did. She'd been at rock bottom, something Kolya knew very well as she'd shared her story with him. He also knew how stubborn she was once she set her mind on something. "I want to my best for them."
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Seeing Camila's tearstained face hurt Nikolaj in a different way, but his heart burst with pride too as her gaze steadily met his. Gently, he cupped his face in her hands and used his thumbs to wipe away the wetness on her cheeks.[break][break]

"You're going to be an amazing mother," he told her. "Because you're smart, and you know what a shitty mother is like."[break][break]

Even with her hair mussed up from sleep, her eyes red and puffy, and the smell of vomit faintly lingering on her clothing, she seemed more beautiful than ever before to Nikolaj. He had no doubt she'd be the best mother imaginable for their little child.[break][break]

"I don't know if I'll be a good father, either," the man admitted, lowering his hands at last to wrap them around Camila's smaller ones. Absently, he rubbed his calloused thumb across her knuckles. "But I do know I don't want to raise our baby like this."[break][break]

He looked around the room, too. On the sill of the bedroom's narrow window was an ashtray of discarded cigarette butts, while small boxes of bullets stacked up on a shelf. His gun, emptied of its magazine, was tucked away in the drawer of the bedside table. The magazine itself sat on top, next to the used pregnancy test. Under the mattress, he kept a hunting knife with the sheath unlatched for a quick draw in case of emergencies.

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Camila appreciated that Nikolaj was taking the time to encourage her. With him by her side she felt like she could really do it. A lot of the earlier anxiety that she was feeling was fading now that she realized she really wasn't going to be alone in this. Kolya cupped her swollen face gently as he brushed the tears away from her cheeks.[break][break]

"I don't know if I'll be a good father, either," he said as his hands lowered to gran hold of her smaller ones. "But I do know I don't want to raise our baby like this." he had a point. Living paycheck to paycheck with no real security in a small flat like this didn't appeal to Cami. This was no way to raise their child. [break][break]

To be honest, Cami didn't even want to stay here in Sinnoh. Too many bad memories to haunt her. Too many enemies that they both had to look out for. "You're right." she said softly as she slowly lifted his big calloused hands to gently place a tender kiss on his knuckles. "We can't stay here Kolya." she said as she peered up at him. "It's not safe."[break][break]

Cami offered her boyfriend a soft smile as she reached up to cup his cheek in her hand. "And you'll be the perfect father for our kid. How could you not when you love on their mama so well?" Taking another glance around the room, her eyes landing on the magazine of the gun Kolya always kept tucked away in their nightstand drawer. [break][break]

Her forehead creased as her frown deepened. "I...I don't want to raise our child here Kolya." Camila said as she looked back at him with a serious expression. "Think about everything we've gone through. We have our share of enemies here." Her frown deepened as she thought back to how her clinic was ruined as she was gravely injured all because of some thug's insulted pride. All her hard work and achievements went up in a blaze of smoke in an instant. [break][break]

"We can't raise a child while always having to look over our shoulders. I won't do that." Speaking of how she ideally wanted to raise her child, it reminded her of them. They hadn't been together long and now they were in this predicament together. A serious one as bringing in a life into this world. [break][break]

"And...what about us?" she asks. "Do we just stay like this?" Camila knew in her heart that she loved Nikolaj. She couldn't see herself with anyone else if she was being completely honest. Hell, she was already locked in now that she was pregnant with his child. But marriage was something entirely different. She wasn't quite sure how he would feel about that. Even though Cami had long been prepared to spend the rest of her life with him.
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Camila's concerns were too valid and serious for Nikolaj to refute. She was right: between her attitude and his work for Team Rocket, they had more than enough enemies. Both of them had been forced to grow up quickly, abandoning happy and carefree childhoods for a maturity beyond their years. Nikolaj would not let that happen to their own baby.[break][break]

"We need to get out of here. Maybe we can move up to Snowpoint City, or at least into the countryside. Then no one would know where we are," he suggested, not aware that Camila had no desire to stay in Sinnoh.[break][break]

Rising from the bed, Nikolaj pried away a couple of loose floorboards to access the lock box where he kept their reserve cash. Though he had several bank accounts to facilitate money laundering, he always kept a sum of money for emergencies. Rifling through the bills, he began to count them.[break][break]

But then Camila raised a question he had not expected: What about us?[break][break]

Pausing, he looked over at her, brow furrowing slightly in confusion. "What do you mean, 'what about us'? We stay together, of course." It seemed obvious to him.[break][break]

For a man as frightening and dangerous as the fabled Chernobog, Nikolaj was sometimes dumb when it came to romance, relationships, and women.

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