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you caged me and then you called me crazy; i am what i am 'cause you trained me.

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POSTED ON Nov 19, 2023 3:52:30 GMT

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[attr="class","illeana i"]it's solid advice, really.

she can't find a fault in it... and yet, it instills an sense of discomfort in her.

"okay, makes sense."

but where does she go from here? how can she bridge the gaps after alienating everyone around her?

"i think all of it is my fault, but i don't know how to fix it."

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"not all of it is your fault, no."[break][break]

he shakes his head and continues, not waiting for their thoughts and feelings to spiral from the silence.[break][break]

"i'm also to blame for the way things are now between us. when you brought me back from the border, i was so happy because i thought i would be returning to the life i lost, so when i couldn't, i felt lost and unsure, so i avoided it altogether."[break][break]

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"i avoided you because i was hurt."

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POSTED ON Nov 19, 2023 21:24:23 GMT

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[attr="class","illeana i"]she understands, really - she would have done the same thing.

"are you still hurt?"

the possibility isn't there anymore, not as far as she can tell.

he's well, whole, smiling, and she feels like she's rotting from the inside out. have the tables turned? were they even still there to begin with?

she resumes watching the magikarp with a faint hesitation.

"i wish that life was still possible sometimes. i - it's hard to not miss it."

him, her, their bubble... happiness.

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the magikarp idly floats away, returning to the pond where it will continue to live in for the rest of its life.[break][break]

"of course i'm still hurt. i grieve for the life i lost every day. i just choose not to show it because it's not anyone's burden but my own."[break][break]

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"perhaps it's foolish to want for that life again when we have the chance to build a new one."

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POSTED ON Nov 20, 2023 6:39:33 GMT

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[attr="class","illeana i"]”it’s okay to show it, though. you don’t have to wear the mask all the time.”

she’s seen him slip between honest and guarded. he taught her the very concept of a brave face.

and as her eyes follow the standing motion, drawn in the way a moth is to flame, the statement itself is what catches her off guard. she blinks through audible processing.

”we do?”

implications lay between them, but she doesn’t trust her judgement in this. not anymore.

”what do you mean?”

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POSTED ON Nov 21, 2023 5:09:26 GMT

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it's a delicate situation and an even more finer line to walk, one he has navigated before but his confidence has long wavered.[break][break]

"we can't go back to the way things were, illie. too much has happened, and we've both changed too much. it would be taking a step back which is something i'm not willing to do."[break][break]

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"but that doesn't mean we have to be alone."

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POSTED ON Nov 21, 2023 5:25:19 GMT

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[attr="class","illeana i"]she hears a faint shattering noise - shards of glass against a tile floor. she doesn't have to look down to know what it is.

"i see."

even if she doesn't, there's no going back. what they had died with him in mauville and she had been chasing something already long gone.

"how do we not have to be alone?"

the thought makes her curious. she feels the noose tighten slightly around her neck.

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where she feels suffocated, he feels the opposite: relieved at the realization that they no longer have to be tethered to their past.[break][break]

"we can start by being friends again."[break][break]

he offers her a smile.[break][break]

"we have time again, so let's make the most out of it. let's get to know each other again for who we are now, not who we once were."

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POSTED ON Nov 21, 2023 6:03:20 GMT

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[attr="class","illeana i"]"friends."

she echoes it, tasting the sentiment on her tongue until it's bland.

"okay."

will she regret this? can she do it without collateral damage?

"we can do that."

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POSTED ON Nov 23, 2023 10:06:16 GMT

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as wary as he may be, he does not look too far pass her response. he must remember that the version of her he remembers may no longer exist, and so he should not make assumptions. at least not yet.[break][break]

"good, if you're sure."[break][break]

his smile grows.[break][break]

"because i'd really like that."

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POSTED ON Nov 25, 2023 5:20:56 GMT

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[attr="class","illeana i"]if he looks too far, he'll find glimpses of her old self before the end - before death and rebirth, still whole and kind and pure. if he looks too far, he'll find her snuffing them out beneath her heeled boots.

"yes, i'm sure."

sure it'll hurt when it inevitably gets to be too hard.

for now, this is fine. this is good. this feels like a semblance of normal.

"i'd like that too, but where do we start?"

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after their long and ever-growing history together, where do they start? he considers the possibilities before landing on one that seems most natural.[break][break]

"remember mary's?"[break][break]

he asks with a fond smile.[break][break]

"it's been too long since i last saw her but i hear she's still keeping as busy as ever. might be nice to pay her a visit."

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