the Harbinger
he/him
37
october 28th
circhester, galar
demisexual
underboss
the harbinger
I want corruption, I think I'm the devil in disguise.
TAG WITH @gavin
Cillian Quinn
crawling back to you
POSTED ON Apr 13, 2024 19:45:14 GMT
[nospaces] [attr="class","twtgm"] [attr="class","main"] Cillian doesn't give a damn about the chair. As soon as Tempest had drawn close enough, he'd drawn the other man down into his lap in spite of the seat's groan of protest. His eyes slip closed for a moment as Temp's nails scratch soothing paths along his scalp.[break][break] Insecure. He hates that word. His lips purse around the thought of it.[break][break] But Temp isn't wrong. That's what he was.[break][break] Insecure.[break][break] "The 'experts' can suck my dick," he says ineloquently, when at last he speaks. He'd opened his eyes when Temp squished his cheeks together, to give him an unimpressed look. "Maybe other people won't help me for the same reasons you would. Maybe they'd just help because I'm on their side and they can't afford to lose me. Same difference to me in the end; s'long as I make it through whatever happens, I don't really care why."[break][break] A pause, realising how it might come across, softening it with, "But I do appreciate that you'd intervene out of love, and not for selfish reasons."[break][break] He wonders if there's some kind of jealousy toward his bond with Lugia. Would he feel jealous, were their roles reversed? No, he didn't think so, because, "It's not necessarily a closeness? Avatarship, I mean. I love Lugia," and he stumbles slightly over the words as he says them for the first time aloud, cementing something that's only before been a feeling, "but it's like... it's not because I'm her Avatar. It's because she's saved my life, more than once, and because I've felt her pain, her fear... being her Avatar, it just feels like part of me. Like if you grew a third arm, you'd have to learn how to use it, sure, but it's yours."[break][break] Of course, that metaphorical arm could be cut off should Lugia so choose, but he tries not to think about that.[break][break] "I'm sorry we fought, too." He hates fighting. Hates the way his anxieties compound into a certainty that Temp, too, will abandon him. But loves that Temp has always come back. "I shouldn't have been so defensive about it. I think where I was so tired and strained from the mission, I didn't check my tone like I should've." An explanation, rather than an excuse. He's still sorry. "You didn't have all the details. I shouldn't have expected you to be cool with any of it without them."[break][break] He lets out a slow breath. "I'll get tested again if I start feeling weird, or a few months out. If it makes you feel better. It's just... too soon, right now."[break][break] He hated feeling like a lab rat. [break][break] [attr="class","pkmn"][break] [newclass=.twtgm] --accent: #765d75; [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm] width: 420px; margin: 0 auto; color: #aaa; font-family: arial; font-size: 12px; letter-spacing: .5px; text-align:justify; padding-top: 20px; padding-bottom: 20px; line-height: 15px; [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm .main] padding: 40px; background: #272727;[/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm b] color: var(--accent); font-size: 12px; font-family: arial; letter-spacing: .5px; [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm a] text-decoration: none; font-size: 11px; font-weight: lighter; [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm h1, h2, h3] display: inline-block; [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm h1] font-size: 13px; font-weight: lighter; color: var(--accent); letter-spacing: .5px; line-height: 0px; font-family: monospace; text-transform: uppercase; [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm u] text-decoration: none;border-bottom: solid 1px var(--accent); [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm .tag] text-align: right; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-top: 20px; font: 11px monospace; [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm .tag a] font: 12px Montserrat; font-weight: 800!important; font-style: italic; letter-spacing: 0px; color: var(--accent)!important; [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm .notes] text-align: justify; padding: 20px 20px 10px 20px; font: 10px monospace; letter-spacing: .3px; border-top: solid 1.5px #323232; height: auto; line-height: 15px; [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm .notes h1] font: 16px Montserrat; font-weight: 800!important; font-style: italic; letter-spacing: 0px; text-transform: uppercase; color: var(--accent); text-shadow: 2px 2px 0px #1e1e1e; padding-bottom: 5px; text-align:center;[/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm .notes a] font: 10px Montserrat; color: var(--accent); [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm span] display: inline-block; [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm .pkmn] text-align: center; margin: 0 auto; background: var(--accent); padding: 5px; width: 410px; margin-left: -40px; margin-bottom: -40px; margin-top: 10px; [/newclass] [newclass=.twtgm .pkmn img] margin-top: -10px; padding-bottom: 5px; [/newclass]
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