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Eduardo Hisakawa

at my worst

POSTED ON Apr 28, 2024 15:27:18 GMT

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“Hey, for what it's worth, ya got a leg up on me; I'm still dumb as shit,” Eddie acknowledged with a shrug of his shoulders. [break][break]

But maybe there was some common ground to be found here after all, Eddie realized with some amazement, because hadn't he thought the same, in his own small way? Not that his own silly intrapersonal issues compared, but still, Eddie realized that he had long fostered his own little bit of distrust when it came to the most private aspects of his own life, afraid of the condemnation of others. No matter how often he wore his heart on his sleeve, Eddie was always fearful of that bit of judgment, and still guarded some parts of himself with a terrified vigilance. It was so easy to just dodge and obfuscate and flee rather than to face what could have proved to be his worst fears realized. [break][break]

When he had finally opened up, what had he been met with? Soft laughter and fondness. Eddie could have laughed himself in that moment for how absurd any of his ill-founded anxieties felt when he returned Matias' gaze, [break][break]

“Now you're just teasin' me.” [break][break]

It was so easy to reply to that jest in kind now, with a new playfulness lacing his voice and a sly wink to seal the deal. Eddie hadn't felt this well and truly unguarded in years, [break][break]

“You ready to eat?” he offered, gently jostling the box still tucked under his arm, “Few things worse than a stale donut.”

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the floodgates have yet to open and maybe they never will but honesty and truth comes a little easier now. he wonders, briefly, as he's met with a sly wink, whether eddie has anything to do with that ease.

"yeah, but you make it so easy to."

taking the wink in stride, he doesn't even look down at the jostling box of donuts. whatever food it is doesn't matter as long as @eddie's there with him.

"come on, then. it's been a while since i've been on a picnic date."

he's had a few of those recently. he'd rather not revisit what followed his picnic with Elisabeth Fiorelli at mount chimney again.

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Eduardo Hisakawa

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POSTED ON Apr 30, 2024 16:59:45 GMT

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Alright, so maybe Eddie wasn't completely unflappable just yet. Even if his face didn't become quite as red as it had just a little while ago, the tips of his ears still burned a bright pink as he settled in with Matias for their meal. [break][break]

But it was no longer fueled by uncomfortable shame or uneasy wariness of whatever Matias' intentions were. It was just a little fun, plain and simple, and Eddie didn't mind being the butt of a harmless joke shared in this private world of theirs. It was as sweet and simple as the saccharine vanilla filling of the doughnut he bit into (which subsequently spilled onto his fingers and smudged his cheek, because the universe was just as determined to poke fun at Eddie as Matias was). It was as easy as the laughter they shared, and as warm as the sun set high in the sky, shining on them with a beneficence Eddie imagined was just for them. [break][break]

And for a moment, Eddie wondered if this was what it must have been like to be the ill-fated Hyacinth, unaware of his doom as he basked in the presence of the lover he courted not for their divinity, but for their company. Maybe he was just letting his own imagination run away with him, or maybe this was closer to the truth than the old stories ever got. [break][break]

Either way, Eddie decided that he didn't mind taking a discus to the head himself for the chance at another comfortable outing with his friend.

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