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it is not often that nick finds himself feeling grateful for the antiseptic sting of bleach in the air. but as he lays in bed with white, sterile sheets tucked around him, nick cannot help but notice the feeling. he gazes out the window at the glinting skyscrapers of slateport, eyes tracing lines between the shadows.[break][break]

of all the places for him to rest after his near-death experience, it had to be here — the epitome of urban landscape. where once team rocket had haunted him with the darkest chapter of his past, now their present chapter brings him close to arceus. his head throbs under bandages that stand out stark against his dark hair.[break][break]

it had been a crushing, not a stabbing; nonetheless, the doctors seem to worry about the fate of his left arm. it pulses with a hot, red pain that feels foreign and invasive, but whether or not nick could lose his use in it... it doesn't feel real to him. this is not his life.[break][break]

nick would rather be on the job, and he expresses this to anyone who listens - nurses, doctors, visitors alike. but the truth is he is helpless as can be in the state he's in; one more day, the doctor says.[break][break]

and so nick is still, just as he was when the shadow had consumed him, crushing him under the weight of darkness he could never understand. he wishes the window could be opened, so he could feel some semblance of the wilderness he is so tethered to in his heart and soul.[break][break]

but for now... he gazes upward at the ceiling and waits.



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Though he was not familiar with the particular hospital was at in Slateport City, Josh was more than familiar with the sterile environments contained within. No fewer than three times, he had spent long weeks confined to a bad while his battered body recovered. Pokémon healing was miraculous, greatly decreasing recovery time, but the wounds of Pokémon-based war were such that the healing time was offset by the injuries themselves being more severe.

Josh had heard of the Ranger's injuries; he had suffered a very similar one at the Prismatic Penitentiary. He had only days ago finished his final rehab session, and even then, his arm still cried in dull pain when he rode at full speed on some of his fastest, meanest Pokémon. The stresses of a Raikou Quick Attack on his body were immense. Much like any of his other fast Pokémon, it was less that he was training them and more than they were training him.

Taking the main elevator to Nick's room, Josh knocked on the Ranger's door, the dull RAINBOW FEATHER pinned to casual wear with a piece of art he had commissioned before he came to Hoenn. One of a black-haired young man standing next to a Raikou. Standing next to the young man was a white-furred Zeraora just a little shorter than he was: one of the very few bipedal Pokémon the Gym Leader recruited onto his team.

"It's Josh. Can I come in?"







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Swift         Raikou         KO
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nick's first instinct, upon hearing the sound of a knock at the hospital room door, is to act as though he is asleep, or simply not there at all. he doesn't necessarily wish to hide from the visitor on the other side, but he has grown unaccustomed to human interaction during his time laying here, feeling the tick of the clock on the wall. it's a compounding event, in his opinion. time heals all wounds, or so they say—but lay alone in a quiet room, waiting, and such phrases feel... empty.[break][break]

regardless, nick feels he does not have a choice in whether or not to respond. his obligation to the social script overwhelms his desire for silence, and nick finds the privacy of his thoughts disturbed as he clears his throat and gives the only answer he can.[break][break]

"yeah," he says, voice croaking over the single word. he swallows hard, trying to regain some moisture in his throat as he continues. "yeah, come in."



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Upon hearing the invitation, Josh twisted the door's handle, opening the heavy entrance with a loud creak that made his eyebrows drop. "That door could use a little oil," he remarked, his Shiny Zeraora walking behind him. Though the electric-type was muscular, his thighs were ripped, showing just the level of prowess Zaborg had in the saddle. Both waved toward Nick before taking a seat on the sofa-like seat wide and long enough for one to take a nap on.

"What happened?" the Champion asked. "Was it the war?" He had managed to avoid injury in the most recent skirmishes, though his most valuable partner had suffered the equivalent of a serious one. Not even drawing the Sign would get the Beast out of the feather that contained him. It was taking an awfully long time for the Raikou made of ash to recover. Was there another way to restore the feather's light?








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NAME          SPECIES        STATUS
Swift         Raikou         KO
Saber         Manectric      Good
Blitz         Luxray**       Good
Zaborg        Zeraora**      Good
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nick's gaze flits briefly between josh and the zeraora who enters with him, noting the way the pokémon moves—the rippling muscle beneath its fur, how effortlessly it seems to command both its form and its electricity. it is not a beast nick would ever like to face in the wilds. though it appears to be under josh's control, there is something untamed in its gaze, a promise of power that has yet to be unleashed.[break][break]

"it was—yeah," nick confirms, turning to face josh more fully as he does so, the bedsheets rustling with the movement. he is careful not to jostle his left arm and ribs as he shifts, not wanting to exacerbate the lingering pain there. "ran into a rocket admin. he had control over shadows themselves. got crushed." he pauses then, his throat working as he swallows hard once more.[break][break]

nick reaches up with his right hand to scratch at the edge of his jaw, nails scraping against the slightly rough stubble that has begun to accumulate there since he's been relegated to the bed. it's an unfamiliar sensation, nick usually being the type to keep himself cleanly shaven when he can be bothered to maintain an appearance. but now, laying here... it seems pointless. who is there to impress, after all? the nurses?[break][break]

"never seen anything like it before," he admits, gaze falling down to the bedsheets as he speaks. he feels... violated, almost. the shadow energy that had lanced through him, dark and oppressive, had left an indelible mark on him, one that he can still feel echoes of even now.[break][break]

"i don't like being here."



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Josh gave the white electric-type a gentle cuddle before facing Nick and truly paying attention to his story. The mention of control over shadows made his eyes widen. He had run into someone that matched that descriptor before. Someone that not even his ultrafast Zeraora, Raikiri, was a match for. "Did he use this giant, purple, bird dragon Pokémon?" he asked. Recognizing the gestures as ones he had made, he knew generally where Nick was hurting. Though it was not the same circumstance, he seemed to have lost movement in the same places the Champion did.

Josh felt empathy toward his Ranger friend. He had been cooped up in a room for weeks during one of the busiest parts of the year, far as his Gym was concerned. He had been blessed with inheriting Kyle's Sacred Ash Raikou. He wanted to sit on the Beast's thundercloud and slam the metaphorical gas pedal into the floorboard, claws screeching against the ground like rubber on asphalt. He wanted to create hurricanes from the wake of his legendary mount's blistering speed. Even now, he had to hold back some. With a few more weeks of training, though, he would at long last be a free man from his injuries.

"I went through the same thing you did during the spring and part of the summer," the Gym Leader consoled him. "I hated it. There's nothing as torturous as being unable to do the things you've taken for granted. When I had to be admitted to Mauville Regional Hospital after my left arm got smashed in that damn jail, it took me almost three months before I could even sit in a saddle. I've been through it, too. If there's anything I can do to help you, say the word. I'll do my best to make it happen."








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Swift         Raikou         KO
Saber         Manectric      Good
Blitz         Luxray**       Good
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nick blinks in surprise, his dark eyes widening slightly at josh's description—indeed, it matches up with his own experiences, if not perfectly, then near enough to stir up memories that threaten to overwhelm him. his heart rate increases, and he feels a cold sweat break out across his skin as he remembers the sensation of darkness closing in around him, suffocating, crushing.[break][break]

"yeah—yeah, he did," nick confirms, his voice wobbling slightly as he speaks. "it was stronger than anything i've ever faced" his left hand twitches slightly in his lap, fingers spasming as though still feeling the phantom sensation of his grip on solomon's saddle, as if seeking out something familiar to anchor himself in the present moment.[break][break]

nick listens in relative silence as josh speaks, absorbing the fact that the gym leader has been through a similar experience, has stared down similar feelings of helplessness and frustration. it's... a strange sort of comfort, knowing that he is not alone in this, that others have been where he stands and have survived to tell the tale. but even so, the thought of being trapped in this bed for months on end fills him with a sense of dread that settles heavy in the pit of his stomach.[break][break]

"i don't know," he admits honestly, his gaze sliding away from josh's face, toward the window on the far wall, as though seeking answers in the clouds outside. "i don't know if there's anything that can be done. it's just waiting. and laying here. i hate it. i want to be out there again, not—" he breaks off abruptly, unable to finish his sentence, a surge of emotion clogging his throat.[break][break]

nick scrubs at his face with his right hand, taking a deep breath in through his nose, trying to regain control of himself. his left arm aches dully, a reminder of the price he has paid for his choices, for his dedication to his duty. but even so, he knows that he would make the same choices again, if it meant protecting even one more life from the darkness that threatens to consume them all.[break][break]

"thanks for visiting," he says quietly, after a long moment of silence. "i'd thought for sure i'd just rot here alone until they let me go."



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Josh gasped upon hearing Nick's account. That confirmed that they had faced off with the same person. One that had nearly taken Rsikiri's life one stormy night on Route 123. "You are fortunate to have escaped with your life," Josh's voice dropped as he spoke of . "That man, Gavin Merlino, was once the most wanted man in Hoenn. He may still be at the top of Hoenn's Most Wanted List. He might be the single most powerful man in the world. Not even the League's Avatars stand a chance against him on their own. He can turn your own Pokémon against you. He and his Pokémon are soulless. Completely soulless." Josh had that experience before; there was a brief stint where his precious Manectric had become a Shadow Pokémon. A machine of war that refused to let Josh sit in his false thundercloud saddle. As a Shadow Pokémon, he was completely different... and that experience only added to the Gym Leader's disdain for the closed-hearted creatures.

"Stay as far away from him and his Lugia as you can. As far as I've been able to ascertain, they're invincible. Immortal." It was, in his eyes, the reason that had to be left alive. For if he died or was removed from power, was almost certainly next in line to take the position of Rocket Boss. And if the League fell, dictator of the Hoenn region.

Josh frowned upon hearing Nick's understandable frustrations. "I'm there with you," he tried to console him. "I don't know how severe your injuries are, but a full recovery took me around six months. I'm only just feeling at almost full capacity. Next month will be the real test." For once he had full movement in his left arm again, he would challenge it once again with the use of a Z-Move he had not experienced since prior to his capture at the end of April. One he desperately wished to teach to Swift, but he just could not crack the code. A code that would take a long time to crack.








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NAME          SPECIES        STATUS
Swift         Raikou         KO
Saber         Manectric      Good
Blitz         Luxray**       Good
Zaborg        Zeraora**      Good
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"fortune had nothing to do with it," nick mutters, his voice low, almost sulky, as he responds to josh's initial statement. he turns his head just slightly on the pillow, enough to peer at josh out of the corner of his eye, expression sour, as though he tastes something unpleasant. "i fought like hell to make it back here. fortune didn't save me. hard work and stubbornness did."[break][break]

nick listens with growing dismay and horror as josh speaks, describing gavin merlino and the lugia that fights by his side. soulless beings, josh calls them, and nick understands what he means, can picture it clearly in his mind's eye from his own experiences - the emptiness in their eyes, the absence of warmth or compassion, replaced instead with a cold determination that borders on zealotry. unbeknownst to both men, they are envisioning entirely different people—josh sees gavin merlino, nick sees barnaby finch. the similarities between the two are broad enough to render this misunderstanding nigh invisible.[break][break]

a chill runs down nick's spine, and he shivers slightly, pulling the blanket higher up around his shoulders as though seeking protection from the mere memory of that darkness. immortal and invincible, josh claims—and nick believes it. he has seen firsthand the devastation that such beings can cause, has felt the reality-warping power that surges forth from them.[break][break]

"then there's no hope," he breathes, his voice barely audible over the hum of the machines keeping vigil around him. "if they're immort—"[break][break]

nick cuts off abruptly, seeming to remember himself, his shoulders tensing beneath the sheet as he shakes his head once, sharply.[break][break]

"no," he states firmly, sounding more like himself again, like the ranger determined to protect the innocent despite the odds stacked against him. "there's always hope."[break][break]

nick falls silent then, chewing on his lower lip as he contemplates josh's words regarding the potential length of his recovery. six months, the gym leader suggests – but even so, nick takes some small comfort in knowing that even with that long a timeline, a full recovery is still possible. after so many years of holding a scalpel, though, it feels disconcerting to be the patient beneath the knife.[break][break]

nick turns his head more fully toward josh, his eyes searching the older man's face for answers. "how did you cope with it all?" he asks quietly, vulnerably. "how did you make it through the worst of it?"



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Whether luck or skill, Josh was grateful that Nick had survived an encounter with what he thought was Hoenn's most dangerous man. He had yet to encounter in combat, and based on Nick's account, it may have been for the best that he didn't. Their powers were similar enough that one could easily have been mistaken for the other with just words alone. Two powerful and separate Rocket agents of shadow.

Josh remained silent, though he equally despaired when face to face with one of Rocket's Avatars. It was part of why he took on a courier role in the war. He wasn't a fighter like was, but he could do one thing well, and that was run. No one could carry a message across a warzone faster than Josh and his ashen Raikou could. And not even the gods could catch him were they to give chase. For though Swift was but a husk, he still had the capabilities of the Johtonian god of speed.

There was no outrunning him.

Josh inhaled, slowly letting the air out through a slit his lips had formed. "I occupied myself with my other interests while I couldn't enjoy my favorite ones. Had PSPN on TV a lot. Even had one of my Gym Trainers come to my house and set up one of my old consoles I used to play on when I was younger. Played games that I could play with only my good arm. What else do you enjoy doing?"








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Swift         Raikou         KO
Saber         Manectric      Good
Blitz         Luxray**       Good
Zaborg        Zeraora**      Good
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"nothing," nick replies flatly, tonelessly, staring up at the ceiling as he speaks. it is a deflection, one born of reflex; nick does not want to reveal too much of himself to josh, afraid of the vulnerability that comes with true openness.[break][break]

but as he lays there, muscles tense and jaw clenched, nick realizes that perhaps... perhaps he is not being entirely fair. to either himself or to josh. and so, grudgingly, he amends his previous statement. "well."[break][break]

nick sighs, the sound heavy and weighted, as though it comes from someplace deep within him. "i like birds," he confesses softly, the corners of his mouth twitching upwards in a fond, reminiscent smile. "always have. they don't have to stay anywhere they don't want to. they're free."[break][break]

nick blinks slowly, lashes fanning across his cheekbones as he closes his eyes for a brief moment, picturing vast expanses of open sky, wheeling shapes of winged silhouettes against the blue. when he opens them again, he's staring back up at the drab hospital ceiling, and the reverie ends just as it begun.[break][break]

"when i was younger, i wanted to be an ornithologist," he admits, heart thrumming in time with his forgotten dreams. "travelling everywhere, studying different species, learning about their behaviors and habitats..."[break][break]

nick trails off, shaking his head ruefully. he is aware, dimly, that he has revealed more about himself in these past few minutes than he typically does in months - years, even. but, sitting in this hospital bed, stuck in a world he hasn't fallen into since many years prior, there is little else to do other than bare his heart and all of the innards associated.[break][break]

"but that didn't happen," nick finishes flatly, shrugging one shoulder beneath the sheets, his ribs aching with the movement. "life took me in a different direction."



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"Really?" Josh asked Nick. "No video games, books, movies, anything like that?" Unusual, but not unheard of; the kinds of people that only enjoyed the outdoors were the ones that were most prone to going stir-crazy when confined to a bed and hooked up to an IV. Josh, too, enjoyed being outside with his Pokémon, feeling the rough and tumble of a strong and speedy Pokémon's gallop. The young Gym Leader had no shortage of powerful steeds; he could deploy an entire Hoennian cavalry force with how many Pokémon he had trained for it. He loved riding more than anything else. When he couldn't, though, he had other interests to keep him going.

So Nick did have other interests, after all. Josh would never have pinned him as an ornithologist. "Have you ever flown on a bird Pokémon before?" he asked. "If you haven't, might keep your mind occupied looking up videos about flying. Maybe even teaching yourself the ins and outs of flying on one before actually getting in the air." All the classroom-type education Pokémon pilots had to take before sitting in the saddle for the first time and taking off. "Tell you what. When you're feeling better, stop by Mauville Gym. I've got more flying Pokémon than you can imagine."

He wasn't kidding, either.








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NAME          SPECIES        STATUS
Swift         Raikou         KO
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Blitz         Luxray**       Good
Zaborg        Zeraora**      Good
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"yeah," nick says quietly, ducking his head slightly in acknowledgement. "used to watch documentaries, too. with my daughter. she... she loved them."[break][break]

but she is no longer here, and neither are those nights in their cramped living room, heads bent together over atlases and textbooks while his husband looked on with thinly veiled amusement. those memories hurt, sometimes more than his healing bones—they're echoes of a life he no longer has, a happiness he can't get back. nick draws in a shaky breath, feeling the grief press up against the inside of his ribcage.[break][break]

at the question of his rding habits, "yeah, of course," nick laughs, but it's a dry, humorless sound, devoid of any real mirth. "comes with the territory."[break][break]

nick glances sidelong at josh for a moment, studying the gym leader's face with a clinical sort of curiosity. it's clear that the older man cannot quite comprehend leading a existence focused solely on the immediate physical sensations of flight - the brush of feathers, the rush of wind, the heady scent of adrenaline and sweat mixed with the musky tang of warm plumage and leather.[break][break]

"been flying on birds since i was sixteen," nick continues, shifting slightly in the narrow cot, grimacing as his ribs twinge in protest. "wouldn't trade it for anything else."[break][break]

nick cuts off abruptly, blinking owlishly for a heartbeat before rolling his eyes upwards toward the ceiling tiles, as if seeking guidance or inspiration from the heavens. after several seconds spent marshaling his thoughts into coherent order, the ranger sighs gustily and starts over:[break][break]

"it isn't the same, though," he explains wearily, rubbing his temple with the heel of his palm as if attempting to ward off an impending headache. "it ain't about... the mechanics of flight or even the thrill of it anymore."



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Loved, not loves. A sign that Nick's daughter was no longer alive. From the sound of it, perhaps cruelly and unceremoniously. His lips tilted upward solemnly, his head down. He had been robbed of family members before, though their theft was temporary, lacking the permanence of death. One day, the Great One would come to rapture Josh's own parents unto the heavens. He hoped it would be peaceful and in their sleep, rather than beneath the debris of a collapsed apartment... or worse. "Just like I wouldn't trade my love of the saddle for anything else. Land, sea, or sky, I love them all."

Nick's problem was far worse than Josh's, from what he could ascertain of the injured man's last remarks. He wouldn't trade soaring with nothing but feathery flesh beneath him for anything in the world... yet he seemed to lack the drive. A motivator to look forward to getting back in the saddle. If it wasn't about studying flight or even the rush of flight anymore, then what?

"It's about just being with your bird Pokémon, isn't it?"








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Swift         Raikou         KO
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nick stiffens, as though jolted by a sudden shock of electricity, his dark eyes flying wide open in a mixture of shock and wonder and grief. he stares blankly ahead for a moment, unseeing, his mind caught on josh's observation—too accurate, too perceptive, nick thinks with a dull throb of anxiety in his chest.[break][break]

"yeah," he murmurs eventually, his voice rough-edged and strained, the single syllable torn from some deep reservoir of buried longing within him. "it's... yeah."[break][break]

nick curls his right fist atop the coarse blanket spread over his knees, knuckles pressing into the fabric as though seeking purchase, some tangible evidence that this conversation is happening, that he is awake and functioning in the world. because surely this cannot be reality—if it were, then he wouldn't be lying here in a hospital bed, confessing his deepest fears to josh.[break][break]

it's quieter now, late afternoon sun filtering in through the slats of the blinds, painting yellow stripes across the linoleum tile beneath the visitor's chair, mapping out a grid nick hadn't noticed before. dust motes spin lazily in the beams of light. it is a moment frozen in time, somehow, isolated and intimate despite the impersonal sterility of the room they inhabit.[break][break]

perhaps emboldened by the heaviness of the air around them, nick makes a confession: "they're the only company i have now," he says softly, without thinking.



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