Ash
He/Him/Them
26
December 2
Aspertia City, Unova
Pansexual
Picking up the pieces
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But I, I will, go on howling and hollow
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Ashley Shepard
Where Ambition Goes to Die [PAST]
POSTED ON Aug 3, 2022 3:36:39 GMT
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tag notes Eight Years Prior, Age: 16 | KANTO, Rocket HQ, Eight Years Ago
The gun comes out.
He hesitates, offered the firearm. The gesture to Jubilee. The Raichu doesn't understand. Ashley feels everything crash around him. His hands shiver, his body shivers, his face pales, his body pales, his life pales. Yet, there was the choice. There it was, he has to do it, he has to kill her.
The pistol hits his hand, and he can feel it. His heart is in his throat. Yet, no matter how much he looks at Theo, no matter how much he wants not to, here it is. The choice. This was always how it was going to go. He feels the barrel, he tells him no, no. No, he has to say yes, if he doesn't, he will be a traitor. It was an order, an order in order to bring some order, to gain some trust back, disorder in order to stay on board. He feels the barrel, he feels how cold it is, how ruthless it is, how much pain it must be to be on the other end of it is. He can't breathe, he won't breathe, he's no longer trying. He's dying, death frees him, living is a crime.
And there she is.
She smiles to him. She is innocent. She is innocent, and he has to take her away. He opens his mouth, and there's nothing to say. Nothing to say. He can fight back, he could aim it at him, he considers it. But then he's dead. Theo is everything he has to be. He accepted this life two years ago, when he cared for nothing.
Then he grew to care, and now he has to remind himself what he is.
He raises the pistol up.
He can't see straight, his eyes are watering. He can't breathe. He can't do it, but he has to, because if he doesn't, it's over. He has to do it. He has to convince himself. YOU HAVE TO. YOU HAVE TO SHOOT. YOU CAN'T BACK DOWN, YOU GOT TOO MUCH TO LOSE. WHAT DO YOU FIGHT FOR? WHAT DO YOU LIVE FOR? IS THIS LITTLE RAICHU ENOUGH TO LET YOUR LIFE HIT THE FLOOR? SHE DIES IF YOU DO, BUT YOU DIE IF YOU DON'T, AND YOU WON'T SEE IF SHE MAKES IT AFTER YOU FALL. PULL THE TRIGGER. PULL THE TRIGGER. PULL THE TRIGGER, ASH. IT'LL ALL BE OVER, ALL IN A- Bang.
Ashley collapses to his knees.
He drops the gun.
His hands will never be clean.
And he screams, blood pooling below him. She's gone now.
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