Lex
She / Her
28
January 2
Goldenrod City
Bi
Thief
Ex-Rocket Beast
Going to hell cause it feels like heaven.
Together We're Strong
POSTED ON Mar 5, 2022 14:43:45 GMT
 Killian’s honesty was refreshing, even if that only lasted a moment. It was good to know he was cautious and didn’t simply accept the new resident without having hesitations. Still, it seemed dangerous to have a pokemon living inside you. She prayed to every god she could think of that he would seek help, make sure this wasn’t killing him.
With that thought, her chest shuddered, sending another wave of slow tears to roll down her cheeks. The thought of losing him was too much. She’d rather die. That discomfort alone is enough to coax her to lower her legs, accepting Loveless onto her lap in an attempt to dispel the dark thoughts. Lex holds her close, like a child holding their teddy bear. She’s never felt more vulnerable in her life. So helpless. Kato had always been a looming threat on Killian’s life, but he’s been just that; abstract, in a sense.
Now, there was a tangible, real threat to his safety. Lex would do anything, anything, to keep him with her, keep him safe. But even now, with all the power she’s accumulated, she’s helpless. And for a moment, she thought it couldn’t get any worse.
Then it did.
“Leave?!” she repeated the word whimsically, as if it was a dream. Was this a dream? This couldn’t be real. But it was. As real as the fur beneath her fingertips and the ache in her chest that only meant one thing.
’I’m losing him already,’ the thought slipped in without much effort. It’s what she feared the most from all of this. A logic mind would understand, but Lex’s was clouded with an overwhelming storm of emotions. It made it nearly impossible to know what she wanted him to do, what she should do. He said not forever but it didn’t quite register. All she saw was loneliness. If he died, she would be alone. Even if he didn’t, a part of her would always be alone. It would always be there, stealing half of him for itself. Half was better than none. What if he chose to give all of himself to it? She couldn’t imagine Deoxys wanting to share.
Paralyzed, she simply stared at him, clearly running through the countless ways this could all end, spiraling deeper. None of the ways this ended would be good.
With a sudden sense of urgency, she sprang forward, forcing Loveless to leap off her lap. She crawled towards him, amber hues blurred with tears as they bled from her eyes, “Killian, don’t leave me alone,” she stopped, just out of arm’s reach, still hesitant, but clearly desperate.
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