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POSTED ON Jan 31, 2022 20:37:52 GMT
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THE FESTIVAL LEADS LONG into the night. lantern lights bleed well into the purple husk of night. laughter dies down as the crowds disperse from the walkway between stalls. with each moment bringing them closer to midnight, they move on to congregate at the open market’s center. their numbers grow, proving to be a makeshift clock to count down the night’s conclusions.

farther away from the mainstay, in the private recluse of the hills of upper slateport, fernando overlooks his city, free from intrusive eyes.

how are you coping?


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POSTED ON Feb 1, 2022 5:01:33 GMT
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"Are you sure you don't want any?"

She asks again, conveniently attempting to dodge a difficult question. But the look in his eye as it scopes the city rather than herself suggests he isn't the least bit interested. Unsurprising, but it leaves an awkward note in her voice that she needs to fill in with some sort of an answer.

"I'm good."

Slowly, she twists the cone in her hand, staring into the swirl of blue and pink like she's searching it for answers. Her response is hesitant, likely unconvincing.
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POSTED ON Feb 1, 2022 5:12:48 GMT
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“DEFINE GOOD.”

it’s not an ask. it’s a demand. one not strict or violent but expectant of an answer nonetheless. it takes honest conviction, one that strums from the heart and soul, to put the mind at ease.

it doesn’t have to be. but he needs her to have the faith hard within her heart. with the new year looming, so too does the world revolve around a new slew of issues. they cannot be held up in the past, no matter how drastic the mistake.

it’s time to cut loose ties.


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POSTED ON Feb 1, 2022 5:24:36 GMT
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Stormy glances at him, unsure how best to respond. What did he want her to say? What was he looking for?

"I'm here with you, enjoying the evening."

Rather than holed up in her room, bedridden with self-doubt and depressed, heavy thoughts. She was showered, awake, alert and at least somewhat looking forward to the day ahead. Seeing her out here in public was a huge step in comparison to the lack of steps she'd taken before.

"But I can't lie and say that I'm great. I used to feel strong and capable and-- I know, Fern, I know that that sounds stupid. I know that I'm not nothing without Moltres. But I'm not the same and it scares me. I-- I don't know."

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POSTED ON Feb 1, 2022 5:32:33 GMT
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“IT’S OKAY TO FEEL WEAKER.”

he can’t relate. weakness is not something he tolerates. not because he is strong—fernando is well aware of the realistic faults he possesses. but to be suck in that feeling is something he can never set himself into. there is no weak. just inferior to the future.

progress never ends. and as long as it continues, there is no ‘weak’, just ‘improving’.

people get injured. sometime it takes them out. sometimes for a while.

his hand reaches into his back pocket. he feels out the top of a small box before withdrawing a carton of cheap cigarettes.

you rehabilitate and you grow again.


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POSTED ON Feb 1, 2022 5:46:15 GMT
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"I don't like being weak. If I've learned anything from you, it's intolerable. Period."

She swallows, bites down hard on the inside of her cheek.

"I'm trying. This isn't me, I've always been strong. High highs and low lows, but I always get back up again."

Her pale blue eyes flash, reminscent only of a fraction of its prior heat. Even if he doesn't meet her gaze, hers holds on him, as if challenging him to doubt her. But would he? Does he? Her expression falters when it occurs to her that he might not.

'It's okay to feel weaker.'

"Why do you say things that you don't mean?"
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POSTED ON Feb 1, 2022 5:56:52 GMT
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“WEAK AND WEAKER ARE NOT THE SAME.”

with all things, there is a nuance between words. they’re similar and constructed from the same foundation. but that does not mean they are the same. that miniscule difference is what makes the world both complicated and special.

you think so?

where she claims to have been strong, he plants his voice down firm with doubt. questioning. there is no question behind her reputation and strength, now, but to hold her head high since day one is one he disagrees with.

it’s only when she questions him that he turns. the same eyes that she knows, cold and barren, pierce back.

i always mean what i say.


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POSTED ON Feb 1, 2022 6:05:05 GMT
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She rolls her eyes, agitation leaving her shoulders tense.

"I do. I've fought my whole life."

Maybe it didn't look the same as his fight. Maybe he really was disappointed in her. But that didn't make it any less real. She stares him down when he finally turns to look at her. Even beneath his cold gaze, she doesn't back down.

"So do I."
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POSTED ON Feb 1, 2022 6:13:57 GMT
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HE SAYS NOTHING at first. the cigarette between his fingers comes up to his lips. he takes his time in lighting it, taking a deep huff, before gathering a response.

to be weak is to settle. it is a state. a baseline. that is intolerable.

smoke, grey and pink, cloud around his lips. it reeks of the sour mix of MISTY TERRAIN and tobacco.

but to be weaker is to be comparative. you can be strong but weaker than yesterday. that can be fixed.

the first of the fireworks sail into the sky. it whistle behind him, rising until it pops in a flash of neon colors.

so it’s okay to feel weaker. as long as you continue to push to be stronger.


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POSTED ON Feb 1, 2022 14:22:47 GMT
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"Weaker than yesterday. Hm."

Her attention is drawn to the fireworks that reach across the inky sky. They explode in a series of colours and sparkling lights. She draws in a slow, slightly hitched breathe as if steadying herself. Or perhaps it is a sign of acceptance.

"What if, by pushing so hard, you break?"

The fireworks continue to crackle against the sky, drowning out her words with their intensity.
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POSTED ON Feb 4, 2022 1:33:34 GMT
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HIS LIPS MOVE but no words come out. they’re drowned out by the peppery boom of lit cinders and ignited gunpowder. the display up above never lets up. the finale is set to impress and that means a constant stream of sparkles that outline the form of several pokemon.

somewhere in between, fernando gives up trying to say anything. instead, he pat her head reassuringly, a small pocket of physical affection up until his hand slides down to cup her cheek.

he lingers, glare sharpening, only to leave her with a final pat on the shoulder.

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