Baki
She/Her
18
December 21
Saffron City
Bi
Gym Leader
Officer
oceans of angels, oceans of stars, down by the sea is where you drown your scars
Hollow Forest [M]
POSTED ON Sept 10, 2023 18:49:29 GMT
[nospaces] [attr="class","petalbasetsu2"] [attr="class","star1tsu2"] [attr="class","circleoutline1tsu2"] [attr="class","starimgtsu2"] [attr="class","star2tsu2"]She's quiet in response to his words. [break][break] There's nothing she can say. [break][break] She's been reckless, throwing herself at danger, getting so wrapped up in delusion she's lost the plot. All that is true, and yet... [break][break] "... Fine, I get it."[break][break] She sighs deeply. [break][break] There's no point arguing. She understands his concern. He's seen her fall into her delusions one too many times.[break][break] Maybe it's true. Maybe she's gotta turn back before she's too far gone. And yet, she can't deny her feelings. She witnessed God in the midst of a dream, and in the 20 year long dream that followed, she swore He saw her back. [break][break] What comes next, in a scenario like that? Must she deny her truth, recant what she believes in order to assure him?[break][break] "I'm not stupid. I know it's no good. But, even if this is bad for me... I wanna keep searching for answers."[break][break] She pulls down her sleeve and holds out her hand. It's bandaged to the elbow, where skin was torn from her body the last time they ventured into the sea. It's a symbol of that very same struggle, so she thinks.[break][break] "Even if I'm scarred. Even if I'm burnt, melted down. I don't care. It's no concern. [break][break]
"It's like a forbidden fruit. Delicious, but toxic. This knowledge poisons you, consumes you for the rest of your life. I dunno what the outcome will be, but... the poison's already coursing through me, so I can't turn my back on it. I need it. I can't live without it. And the only place I can go to get it is the bottom of the sea."[break][break] Her voice is dreamy as she speaks about it. Detached, but not in the same way he's seen before. [break][break] She isn't parted from reality as she says these things. She's perfectly lucid. [break][break] Instead she's simply speaking of the sea as a lover she's pining for.[break][break] "... Well, no. That's a lie." [break][break] She stops, and turns to Navy. [break][break] "I mean, it's true, but... that's not the reason."[break][break] It's hard for her to speak suddenly, like her voice is caught in her throat. But she forces herself.[break][break] "... Cause it's easy, I guess. You can be who you are down there. The past doesn't define you, and there's no future you're beholden to. It's a different world, where everything here doesn't matter. I don't wanna confront what I've done, and I'm scared of what I have to do to make it right. Because it's there, because it's an easy way to feel like you have meaning. Because it's an easy escape. [break][break]
"I'd rather throw myself at the sea over and over than confront living like a normal person. Because I don't know how to do that. That's why I keep Falling, I think."[break][break] She offers him a weak smile, but there's nothing to really smile about. [break][break] Aside from baring her soul to him, nothing good has come of this. It feels like her heart is about to crumple in on itself, for being seen for the first time. [break][break] She wishes she could take it back.[break][break] [attr="class","star3tsu2"] [attr="class","rouxcredittsu2"] ♠[newclass=.petalbasetsu2]font:11px roboto;--accent:#d5bed2;[/newclass] [newclass=.petalbasetsu2]max-width: 450px; height: auto;border: 1px solid #1a1a1a; border-radius: 10px; overflow: hidden; background: #252525; [/newclass] [newclass=.star1tsu2]border-radius: 10px 10px 0px 0; max-width: 460px; height: 220px; background: url(https://i.imgur.com/rJHGGuv.jpg), rgb(160, 132, 155, 0.65); background-blend-mode: luminosity; background-attachment: fixed; background-size: cover; display: flex; justify-content: center; align-items: center;[/newclass] [newclass=.starimgtsu2]width: 100px; height: 100px; position: relative; border-radius: 100%; object-fit: cover;[/newclass] [newclass=.starimgtsu2 img]height:100px;width:100px;border-radius:100%;[/newclass] [newclass=.star2tsu2]width: 350px; padding: 20px; font-size: 13px; text-align: justify; color: #eee; margin: 20px 0px 20px 0px; border-radius: 5px;[/newclass] [newclass=.petalpoketsu2]text-align: center; margin: 0 auto; [/newclass] [newclass=.petalpoketsu2 img]margin-top:0px; [/newclass] [newclass=.circleoutline1tsu]border-radius: 100%; width: 120px; height: 120px; background: var(--accent); opacity: 0.3; position: absolute; [/newclass] [newclass=.star2tsu2 b]font-weight: bold; color:var(--accent);[/newclass] [newclass=.star2tsu2 i]text-decoration:italic; color:var(--accent);[/newclass] [newclass=.star3tsu2] border-radius: 0px 0px 0px 0; max-width: 460px; height: 50px; background: url(https://i.imgur.com/rJHGGuv.jpg), rgb(160, 132, 155, 0.65); background-blend-mode: luminosity; background-attachment: fixed; background-size: cover; display: flex; text-align:center;[/newclass] [newclass=.rouxcredittsu2]align:right; color:#AB4646; font-size:10px; text-align:right; padding:10px; [/newclass]
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