Ry, Yongjun
He/Him
Twenty-Eight
January 5
Wyndon, Galar
Demisexual
High School Teacher
Civilian
deep inside, we're nothing more than scions and sinners
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Ryan Arcken
in the silence [m]
POSTED ON May 30, 2022 21:41:34 GMT
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Though instinct had been a concept of immediate nature, and though his immediate instinct within moments such as the given would have been to shy away abruptly at her touch, his mind had seemingly disabled the ability for any sort of avoidance.[break][break]
After all, such had been what he had done for so long until the given point, and there, as he stood crumbling before her, and as everything that he so desperately struggled to keep hidden from her and the neighboring world in the name of self proclaimed strength and pride, it had been all too late to prevent the fall from happening, altogether. While blurred vaguely through the filter of tears welling within his sight, the image of her fingers nearing him and his own had been far from lost from him. An innate desire to tear away called, distantly, within the back of his mind. Desperately. Pleading.[break][break]
And yet, as the chill of her touch laid grace upon his skin, it became irrelevant.[break][break]
Swift and ever chaotic had been his mind within those moments, though there came a subtle sense of approaching and enveloping calm with the feeling. A low, instinctive, cracked, ”I-I—...” ended as swiftly as it began in what had been intended to be a defiant response, but as the gentle hush of her voice met his ears, he found himself weakened in both body and soul within the aftermath. With brows furrowed and eyes narrowed, he glared absentmindedly upon the ground further off to the side prior to allowing them to veil over; a filter of darkness briefly overtaking his senses as he merely allowed her the opportunity to move his hand away and replace it with her own as it lay atop his cheek, and then jaw, and then wherever elsewhere.[break][break]
Her thumb moved so carefully and softly against his cheek, and within the time that it had done, he simply…stopped. Succumbed. Listened, finally, and thought upon the words offered both presently and beforehand to him. Before long could pass, his eyes opened once more to gaze idly upon the distant floors surrounding them as remnants of the crease of his brows lingered in pensive thought.[break][break]
They found themselves dwelling within hues of radiant rose and darkened hazel in due time.[break][break]
He gazed, deeply, into them. Silently. Idly. Pensively. He accounted for the words spoken to him (for him, he knew, within his begrudging moments of weakness), and with enough silent repetition within his head, they very well began to make a breakthrough. They voiced themselves within his lines of thought again, and again, and again; a persistence so fleeting to begin with, yet frighteningly strengthened and prominent with each reaffirmation. The confidence that eluded him had remained just that, but within the threads of logic that they seemed to bring back to him, he inhaled deeply and shakily prior to sighing out similarly so.[break][break]
”...I—... I-I don’t care if you’re uncertain. I’ll listen to you…” came the words to continue his ongoing descent; quiet, and broken, and seemingly faltering to the ear— yet in spite of the scenario at hand, and in spite of the display he so vehemently hated of himself in the dimness of that night, there had been a clear sense of genuineness within his claims, and an even bolder and invincible sense of conviction within a gaze of crimson and gold that had been fleeting only moments prior. ”I told you I’d be here. I told you I wouldn’t leave you again. I’m sorry, I love you, and I—...”[break][break]
He paused, gathering his thoughts once more. His gaze averted in said thought for only a moment before meeting hers once more.[break][break]
Shattered, yet vaguely revitalized.[break] The perfect guise and exhibition of certitude, blazing through the shadows of doubt and uncertainty preceding it.[break][break]
”...I’m here to listen to you,” he spoke softly, narrowing his eyes as he moved the palm of his hand against hers, just as she had done with him. Though the tears had still been within conscious mind, the attempt to hold them back had been lessened within the matters of greater importance that his eyes (baned by uncertainty and insecurity) had been blinded to. ”You want me to talk to you. …I want you to talk to me. …Anyone else can talk to me, but with you, it means so, so much more. Hearing it lets me know you trust me. Hearing it lets me know you’re really, actually with me.”[break][break]
He lifted his other hand, mirroring it against her other cheek within a soft, yet firm caress as he eyed her.[break][break]
”...I—... It lets me know I didn’t hurt you as much as I think I did— that it really is as…fine as you say it is. So please— if you do trust me, and if you are confident about it, let me listen to everything, because I will listen…”
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