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POSTED ON Jul 5, 2023 23:25:17 GMT
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[attr="class","mitchel"]“Maybe I don’t feel like arguing, since your mind is already fucking made up.”

It’s a combination of things: he doesn’t want to argue. He doesn’t think he’s worth defending. He doesn’t have the energy. Would Andres ever actually change his mind?

And then Andres treads those waters anyway and Onyx feels a pang of something inside of him, bouncing off and echoing like he’s a hollow bell. Because he doesn’t remember-- but he does-- but he doesn’t. It’s all been fuzzy.

For a second his hackles go down because he’d been worried it’d been something horrific. Like, Andres had saved his life and he’d done something terrible to him. Because all he remembered was a huge rush of feeling and everything was topsy turvy under the bloodloss and the morphine and the newly vacated hole in his head.

"Yeah, fine. I was leaving anyway."

He knows when he's not wanted. He's known it his entire life, ever since his parents told him so. Internalized, fostered, and used as a shield. If that's how Andres feels, anyway, and it's pretty clear it is.

He has, at least, been cleaning this entire time, and he softly tips mixing bowls upside down to drain on a towel next to the sink.

“Keep it. I’ve got nowhere to store it."

His voice has gone flat. He cracks his knuckles, bending them down with a thumb, one hand slipping into his pocket for the key fob he’s kept on him since it was handed to him. Like his one prized possession, even if he never used it.

As he passed Andres, he palmed the key and slapped it-- gently-- against his chest, leaving it there for him to catch or drop as he saw fit as he stalked towards the balcony door.

“For what it’s worth,” he says, because he’ll fucking die if he doesn’t get he last word, “I did mean it. And I’ve been trying to prove it.”

Because he has. It’s been fucked up but he really, really has.

A shrill whistle has his raven sweeping in to collect him. He high steps off Andres’ balcony barrier and is gone.

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POSTED ON Jul 5, 2023 21:44:16 GMT
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[attr="class","mitchel"]Onyx tongues the roof of his mouth in a half-assed attempt to stop more words from spilling errantly out; he doesn’t understand Andres’ point of reasoning. Of course he comes over when it’s convenient? As opposed to… when? It isn’t like Andres is having big life-changing events happening every single goddamn day. Despite what this interaction might hint towards, this isn’t a scripted fucking TV show.

“You’re really good at putting words in my mouth, Andres. Like watching a fucking puppet show.”

He was also intrinsically wrong. For the first time in this whole fucking charade, Andres was wrong. Onyx hadn’t come over hoping to get his dick wet. He’d just wanted to see Andres. It wasn’t (entirely) his fault that Andres did funny things to his brain. It wasn’t (entirely) his fault that the little lizard in the gocart sitting and spinning endlessly on top of his primal instincts got put in the driver's seat whenever Andres showed more than a little bit of skin.

“I couldn’t ever have just wanted to see you? You’re so fucking set on being the victim, here.”

The oven timer goes off half a beat after Andres’ last statement and Onyx has to force a long breath to reach over and gently press it, so as not to break Andres’ kitchen, but he doesn’t break eye contact the entire time, because…

…what had he said? What had he done?

He doesn’t want to know, he decides. He’s better off not knowing. Knowing himself, it was probably horrible, whatever it was.

“Probably not,” he says, and it’s the first break in the clouds, an air of defeat in his voice as he swaps the baking sheets and sets the fresh cookies on two pot holders to cool. A crack in the armor, a give to the take.

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POSTED ON Jul 5, 2023 18:12:30 GMT
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[attr="class","mitchel"]Whether or not Onyx meant to put out the bait, Andres is rising to it. It’s just like back in that shitty club, when he’d pissed him off so much, Andres had hunted him down to yell at him some more. Elation and misery rising in equal peaks.

Andres’ voice echoes, somehow, across the small kitchen, gone low and dark and it thrills and hurts in the same measure. Both of them their own kind of electricity, salt and sugar in the wounds.

“Could’ve fooled me.”

Onyx, of course, is not introspective enough to understand the hypocrisy of his own feelings. He’s just too fucking dumb. Andres’ volume keeps rising, crackling like a fire. Onyx, the useless bastard that he is, doubles down, and digs in his heels. Neither of them is running from this fight.

“I came around to bake you cookies, dickhead,” he snaps back, gesturing to the evidence of that around him. “Or to watch movies, or have a beer, or check on you when you’re fucking sick.”

It's not my fault you're easy, he doesn't say, because that would be pointing right back to the stinging crux of the issue.

It was, in simplest terms, a difference of lifestyles. Onyx’s normal was so distant from anyone else’s normal. He didn’t have a regular place of residence; he lived in hotels and squatted in abandoned buildings, slept at bus stops and in alleys, ate most of his meals in cheap bars or snorted them up his nose. Andres offering his home-- his life-- was something new and bright and just the right semblance of safe that it rubbed him the right way.

He crosses his arms and turns away, going about setting up another baking sheet with little dough balls. He’s not goddamn leaving until he bakes these goddamn cookies, goddamn it.

“Shouldn’t have given me a fucking key, then.”

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POSTED ON Jul 5, 2023 18:04:14 GMT
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[attr="class","mitchel"]In his exuberant show of success and newfound home region pride, Onyx steps slightly back so as not to get whacked with the rifle butt, but he’s still laughing, even as Acrodo disappears in a flash of light back into his Pokeball.

He holds the yellow… abomination of a Rookidee in his hands as Andres slips an arm around him and leads him towards the promised funnel cake; he looks at its slightly crookedly sewn beak and dull button eyes, something clenching in his chest.

“I won’t let her destroy it,” he promises, maybe a little bit too firm and heated for talking about a fairground plushie, “you worked too hard for it.”


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POSTED ON Jul 5, 2023 18:01:13 GMT
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[attr="class","sam-banner-up-blurb"]We’re good.

Those simple words do something to him. Settle him, as though he could ever be settled. Like turning his face towards the sun for the first time in seasons.

We’re good.

Onyx lets himself be shook, snorting laughter through his nose.

“The big ones are easy. They always think they’re stronger than you.” He stepped forward and snuck an arm around Andres’ waist, turning him back towards the door. “Yeah. That sounds good. But not here.”

He walked them out into the damp Lilycove summer night, looking up and down the poorly lit street in the skeezier part of town.

“I’m sure there’s a dive bar or something around here somewhere…”

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POSTED ON Jul 5, 2023 17:57:03 GMT
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He wasn’t going to grab the Wishiwashi, but then it glimmered just right in the sun, and his little crow brain became attentive.

What was it with him and shiny baby fish, he wondered, as Cicatrice zapped it with thunder wave and Onyx threw a Safari ball.
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POSTED ON Jul 5, 2023 17:53:51 GMT
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The Toxel glowed bright neon purple in the dark. It sat in the sand and tossed handfuls of it skyward, like a human baby in a sandbox. Onyx stopped to watch it and before he knew it, Cicatrice had zipped over, and the two of them were cooing and glowing at each other; the Toxel toddled onto its hind feet and ran-stumble-fell after the little eelspawn in a wonderful game of chase, purple after white.

Before too long, the both of them came to where he had sat down in the sand, and the Toxel clambered into his lap for a nap, before he could say otherwise.
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POSTED ON Jul 5, 2023 17:51:33 GMT
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POSTED ON Jul 5, 2023 2:40:47 GMT
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[attr="class","mitchel"]Andres’ face does this weird thing where it goes oddly blank. Like he’s trying to spark out and recede-- like he had at the picnic, where they both just drop the gloves and walk away because Onyx doesn’t want to fight and Andres uses escaping as a self-defense mechanism.

But Onyx wants to fight, tonight.

Or, not really. He would prefer not to, honestly-- hard to believe, I know! But he doesn’t like fighting with Andres. It doesn’t have the same zing as it used to. Like drinking flat pop. the bubble just isn’t there. But he’d do anything-- anything-- for Andres to feel.

Something real. Something that-- maybe it isn’t good-- but it isn’t pain, either.

To his delight-- he has to swallow the smile-- Andres’ face hardens, and, hoo, boy, he definitely ain’t running from this one. He spits back at Onyx’s dumbassery with logic.

And Onyx is two seconds away from saying yup, you are correct, it is not, have a nice night and twenty-two-skiddoing right out the way he came in.

He realizes he has no ground to stand on. He realizes he’s on a sinking ship. But--

“Oh, sorry. Probably old fashioned of me to think I love you meant something, huh?”

Venom with venom. Old, festering hurt meeting newly torn flesh.

“Or more like I was right and you do just say that to everyone.”

He shrugged, grabbed a towel, and began to clean up the mess he’d made of the kitchen, as though all of this was beneath him and none of it mattered.


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POSTED ON Jul 5, 2023 2:32:15 GMT
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Onyx doesn’t know if he can get out of here without Zia… that had sort of been his back up plan, ran until they found each other (they always did) and then fly away into the sunset. But his glorious heroism had been dismantled by ghosts of the monster he used to be…

…and still was.

He cracked his neck from side to side as an army of Fairy-types emerged from the gloom. He couldn’t hold out here for long, but he could go down swinging.

Vatin buys them space with eruptions of earth power that send pink forms flying. Ignis belches a fire blast at a Mawile that comes too close, and the dual-type screams. The three of them keep backing up, buying enough time for Zia to make her escape.

“Torch all of it,”
he tells his Pokemon-- and Andres’, who has joined them-- “burn them out.”

Heaves of toxic goo coat the trees and foliage, making it melt and sizzle as it tries to change. Fire leaps from limb to limb, crowning the wannabe Tangle in a way that Onyx wishes he could the real one, if it held such horrible memories for Andres.

He was a horrible memory for Andres.

Didn’t he often wished he could burn himself?

As Ziadem plunges through the sky, she punches a hole in the bubble of pale shimmer that seems to coat this fairy hellscape. Devoid the power of a child’s nightmares, everything shrivels and fades. The Fairy-types causing mischief shriek and writhe as they make furious dashes for the safety of their withering terrain.

And in the blink of an eye and the sound of a bubble-gum pop, Onyx is standing alone in a burnt-out field.

[attr="class","membot"] mission: clefable in the feywilde
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POSTED ON Jul 5, 2023 2:19:57 GMT
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[attr="class","mitchel"]“It’s good plain,” he confirms, speaking slowly, like he’s trying the words out, when in reality he’s unspooling a memory, the taste of it on his tongue. “But you get all the extra shit on there and it’s even better.” He half snorts. “Obviously.” As though if you pile a ton and a half of sugar on top of fried dough it made it worse.

But this moment-- this entire last hour or so, honestly-- has been so bizarre. Like a dream. Like a memory from another life where he’s not him and Andres is… well, Andres is always Andres. Always. But Onyx is not himself. Definitely.

Andres presses a kiss to his cheek and it startles him into stillness, frigid, frozen, but pooled with warmth, mouth bowed into a little oh and he sort of side-steps into a different realm as Andres bows to aim his shot and pops the cork.

It hits the can and rockets it over the edge without Acrodo even needing to help and Onyx-- so suddenly not himself-- shoots his fists skyward.

“HELL YEAH!”



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POSTED ON Jul 5, 2023 2:13:51 GMT
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[attr="class","sam-banner-up-blurb"]After years of this-- this, and practice in even less mediated situations-- the post-fight adrenaline buzzes out of him quickly.

But if you stay ready you ain’t gotta get ready, know what’m saying?

He’s looking for Andres but suddenly arms are coming for him and he’s spinning his forearms out to twist and slap them away before he realizes--

“Ah, shit, fuck. Sorry, sorry.”


He steps forward, instead, taking Andres’ forearms and lifting them, guiding him to the side at the same time, making sure he didn’t actually hit him, hurt him.

He’s examining him for bruises and his brain is shock-slow. He’s never had anyone in his corner before, remember?

He looks up, smiling goofily.

“Tiger?” he quietly snorts. “...Incineroar?”

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POSTED ON Jul 4, 2023 23:39:22 GMT
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[attr="class","mitchel"]He regrets saying it as soon as the words have left his lips, not because it’s rude or bad or untrue to how he’s feeling, but because it’s insipid and pathetic and so, so ungodly lame.

This isn’t him. This isn’t something he cares about. When has he ever given a fuck about who has the time of day for him? He’s Onyx goddamn Straub. He is literally a murderer. He kills people for a living. Why does he give a fuck who Andres is sleeping with?

He told me he loved me, insists a tiny voice that he thought he’d Old Yeller’d long, long ago, he did and that was supposed to mean something.

But this wasn’t Schrodinger’s Torracat, was it? He could not say that Andres’ I love you meant something while also saying it meant nothing. Only one of those was correct. One of those came with meathooks and claws and teeth and fangs and one of those was a safe bet that left him unscathed.

Mostly.

So here he was-- at the center of a tornado of thoughts that seemed like they lasted an hour but probably only took five seconds-- gaping across Andres’ kitchen island at him as he decided where to go from here. Run it back or jump.

Onyx has never made anything easier on anyone in his life-- himself included-- and he is not about to start now.

But Andres poses a good question.

What the fuck is that supposed to mean?

It isn’t like Andres is parading around other people under his nose-- for the best interests of all parties involved, honestly, because Onyx had come a hairsbreadth to killing that one kid that had walked out of Andres’ apartment before they’d fucked-- twice!-- and honestly didn’t think he had the self-control to hold himself back any longer.

But that almost makes it hurt more. Like Onyx is just another shitty notch in a card house of them, all collapsing at the same time. Death by a thousand cuts.

Would it hurt more if one of them meant something? Onyx didn’t want to go down that route, and yet, that’s the avenue he was being led to: he was just one of a number of various conquests. Line ‘em up and watch them fall.

All the same, he doesn’t have an answer for it in that exact moment. Not one that he was confident in. So, like any good coward, he spins it back on the person in question:

“I don’t know, Andres. What do you think it means.”

It isn't a question. It's a trap.

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POSTED ON Jul 4, 2023 23:04:10 GMT
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They don’t move like children-- they don’t move like anything normal, constrained by flesh and blood and bone. They’re just shadows, here and there and gone again, the suggestion of motion in a direction and then a complete 360* shift, with a vague, warping sound like speakers blowing.

Onyx has no qualms about punching children, especially not freaky, button-eyed, misshapen ones like this. But they don’t seem to be focusing on him, and for a moment, that gives him hope. He turns away from Ignis’ inferno to grab Andres and tell him to run, again, why aren’t they running, but he’s spun right into--

--it is a memory. One for both of them.

Chuchi yips and cries as even her seemingly unbridled ferocity is brought to heel under the thunder of kid boots and sticks, a mockery of laughter and sneers cutting the air sharper than any blade.

One of the children has dark hair, dark skin, and blue eyes, but when he lifts his face, a shadow obscures his right one, the dark of it slipping off his cheek like liquid ichor.

Onyx swallows. He’s back on a couch under the shadow of a meteor when someone tells him they love him and all he can imagine is the feel of metal crunching against bone, skin splitting in his hand.

You shouldn’t.

Chuchi arches and curls, writhing.

You shouldn’t.

I’m bad for you.

I don’t think you understand
.

They’re both caught, adrift, drowning; Onyx’s stomach threatens to reorient itself in his body cavity and he wants to look away before he vomits but he forces himself to look and to see. Because it hadn’t bothered him at the moment, had it? When he’d been doing it?

It was like any old hurt. Any old pain. Look it in the eye. Sear it into your mind. Eventually, it stops hurting.

But when had this started hurting?

As things are reaching a fever pitch there’s a raucous cawing noise from above and an angel drops in on darkened wings. Ziadem lands protectively over Chuchi, scattering the shadow children with broad flaps; her talons come gently around the Eevee and lift her.

Vatin rushes in from the woods, the earth around him warping and shifting with earth power. He carves a valley between Zia, Chuchi, and the shadows; Ignis adds another blast of inferno, and the dark shapes burn away with horrendous, tortured screams, not like children but something otherworldly.

The snap of heat gets Onyx moving. He strides forward, grabbing Andres arm and dragging him-- he’ll apologize later, he can only imagine what kind of memories that is dredging up-- forward. He pushes the unconscious child into his chest and physically wraps Andres’ arms around him, then grabs him at the waist and lifts him, sidesaddle, onto Zia.

“Get out of here!” he says, jumping back so she can lift into the air, Chuchi still held safely in her talons. All he needs now is for Andres to not fall off; the raven teeters in the air to balance him as she struggles to gain height.

He, Vatin, and Ignis turn once more toward the gathering shadows.

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POSTED ON Jul 4, 2023 22:49:54 GMT
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[attr="class","sam-banner-up-blurb"]Onyx slowly feels his opponent’s body begin to go slack under his grip, but he doesn’t release him until the MC is physically prying at his arm and slapping at him to let go. He kicks the unconscious hulk away and stands, letting his own arm be thrust in the air in a show of victory as everyone goes insane around him.

The adrenaline begins to fade. The stiffness sets in. Old hurts ache.

Telluria stands next to him-- the injured Incineroar crawls over to his partner, mewling like an upset kitten-- and Onyx and his Bisharp head out of the ring; a team runs past him with a bucket of something that reeks of bleach and a mop to clean up the blood before the next bout.

Onyx lets his shoulder drag against the cold stone of the tunnel for a few moments, flagging, before he recalls Telluria and puts a shirt on. Out the back of the tunnel and the lockers a door cuts back towards the arena and the crowd.

Normally, he’d just go to a hotel, get wasted, and fall asleep.

But someone came through for him tonight. It would be rude to leave him waiting.

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The Shula Region
Hogwarts AU
RPG Unlimited
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The Enroi Region
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Vyrehaven
Celestial Guardians, AU Sailor Moon RP
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Code and Crown: An advanced literate warriors cats RP, set in medieval times
Swords Clashing