Ash
He/Him/Them
26
December 2
Aspertia City, Unova
Pansexual
Picking up the pieces
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But I, I will, go on howling and hollow
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Ashley Shepard
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POSTED ON Dec 6, 2022 22:23:05 GMT
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tag notes | The worst thing he could do was hurt Sunshine. Ashley calls her that because A: she was Isaac's partner, B: she had blonde hair that shined like the sun, and C: she always seemed to be a positive influence on Isaac. Hence, sunshine. She was his sun. So to murk that up with the cloudy, hazy rain? That was like pulling teeth.
Isaac gave the spiel of his side. That dreadful, terrible fight to the death with the sniper and Penelope... it had Ashley violently ill.
He can remember the pain from watching Bullet plummet, dead before the ground ever met her descent. How everything went dark at that moment. A repeat of hell. It plays in his mind, clear as day. From the sniper, to Penny, to Ollie, to Isaac-
When Cygne finally asks him what he means by him taking his eye, it takes every ounce of strength he has not to cower back. He holds his ground, but he merely turns to look Isaac in the eye. He flashes a smile. The kind of smile that reads 'it's gonna be okay.' The kind that knows that he's about to go through another shot of pain, another dose of it, but this time? Ashley does deserve it.
Back to Cygne. His smile is gone. All that's left is this look of grief. He is guilty. Judgment will pass on him. He will accept it no matter what. Regardless of the hell he walks into.
"The sniper took a lot from both of us. Isaac came out the other side somehow better than me. I didn't. I felt hatred, disgust, self-loathing..." He starts, his eyes on her. "My brain equated Kiryu's death with my fault. I still think that. Somehow, I got it in my head that Isaac would only suffer around me. So I tried to get him to leave. Your boyfriend has a great heart though. Too good of one for Rocket. He tried to pull me out, but I wasn't budging. I said anything I could to get him gone."
That one hurts him the most. "He and I began fighting after I insulted Kiryu. The switchblade was in my hand, and-" He scowls, remembering the way his hand instinctively moved upwards. Upwards, right to the mask, right towards-
He's going to puke.
"... I took his eye. And he still gave enough of a shit to pull me out of it. I'm sorry. To you, Cygne. Most of all, to you, Isaac. Sorry won't be enough though." He confesses. He doesn't flinch, he doesn't flee. He looks Cygne in the eyes when he says it. His expression is blank. Tired and pained. "I just hope one day, you can forgive me for it."
But he will never forgive himself over it. Just more penance.
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