dragoness
she/her
twenty-seven
November 03
sootopolis
demisexual
councilwoman
ace
i got new love, new skin to wrap myself in
"you have to talk about it. you can't keep it bottled up or you're going to burn up. and not in the pretty way, not like when you've lit wish paper, watching your dreams curl up in smoke, waiting to be held."i told king about it. i told eva about it. once, each. and at the time it was like i was ten feet from my body, looking down at this person talking about things that hadn't happened to me. i didn't feel it. i didn't think about it. "i couldn't think about it."and i got used to that feeling. being ten feet away from all those bad thoughts. but... - "i wanted to stop...feeling so powerless. i pushed everyone away. i pushed myself away. and then i had the gall to be surprised when i felt weak. i wanted to burn up - one brilliant blaze of glory. i was already smoldering. "and then i was trapped in that frozen hellscape. hunted to the ends of a never-ending, ever-shifting earth. i didn't know where my hunger began and where its ended and then i realized it never did. end, that is. it's as insatiable as i was, looking for power. always looking for power. because it's so, so scared of being weak."and controlled."sometimes i feel the cold - vicious, unrelenting, so frigid each breath sent pins and needles down my throat, into my lungs. skin gray and red and blue, so blue it was hot and i wanted out. by the time they found me, i was close to stripping my clothes off in the hysteria."i've lived so many lifetimes. why has it taken me so long to chip away at the ice?"..."i escaped. with help, i escaped that empty tundra, and part of me had to die to do it, and it's only now i've allowed myself to mourn her. i don't even know if my mourning is a selfish act - she's happy now. with loved ones. with her protector."i'm still searching for that."
"crorown!" TALES BENEATH THE DYNA TREE fire and ice - 2/7
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