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Time, time was a fickle thing.
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It marched on without the slightest concern for those around it, Kouji had come to grips with that a long time ago but this isn’t about now, and it isn’t about a false world with false time. It’s about a region during a time it was still locked in war, and the boy who had joined his father on a routine sail, a simple summer vacation to a region that was suffering, bleeding, one where the people were struggling to simply live.
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Yet, in this corner, blood had yet to be spilled on this day, calling this a simple ‘small town’ was a lie, it was the port town that kept the lifeblood pumping through the region, he looked at Vermillion city, his eyes were bright even in this moment as he had finally completed helping to move stuff, he had time on his own to explore, and help.
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Help the goals of rocket, the enigmatic organisation that he had been born for, raised for; his whole life revolved around Rocket, and here he could help them in their victory. He had offered, to do whatever, made himself a nuisance, and with a crooked smirk; he had been given a very important role.
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Pack Mule.
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He looked over at the other person he had been tasked to work with, hood drawn over his head, his eyes were focused on the floor, the realisation that this job might not have been that important. Still, he had instructions, not to let his bag get close to flames nor water, and to deliver it to that warehouse.
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”Hey, what’s your name? I’m Kouji.” He spoke aloud, not too concerned about being overheard even as this town was on high alert, lights shone over the town, illuminating every corner.
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So if this was his job, what was hers.

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[attr="class","star2tsu3"]The girl in front of him is younger than he is. Too young for this, truthfully. She has no business being here. And yet, she is all the same. Just like the other kids recruited in around her age at the same time, in fact, though she's at the younger extreme of her peers. It's a testament to the hegemony Rocket's established here that kids like her are turning to this, rather than setting out on a Gym Challenge or some similar path.[break][break]

"Die."[break][break]

She mutters it under her breath in response to his question, not even looking at him.[break][break]

Scowl accompanies her dour mood. Any response or acknowledgement to his words aside from a prompt, venomous command to kill himself are met by a wall of ice. She's untouchable, unreasonably distant, carrying out the motions without any attempt at friendliness or humanity. [break][break]

Cause a girl like her doesn't need any of that.[break][break]

They're here for a single reason, and it's not to exchange pleasantries or names or anything kids normally do. They're not really kids, anyway. They're soldiers. And soldiers are just meant to die, aren't they? So what use is a name? What use is anything else, other than the results at the end of this mission?[break][break]

"It's here."[break][break]

She announces it as they arrive at the rendez-vous point, mostly to herself. [break][break]

Her hand goes to her belt, to her treasured, precious friend. She can feel her excitedly slithering inside the ball, awaiting prey. It's that unnerving feeling that makes everything okay. The heaviness of her heart, the pounding in her ears, the dryness in her throat - it all goes away as she assures herself with the thought of her smooth skin running across her, heavy body pressing down, and that dangerous look in her eye.[break][break]

All these years alone and it's been the only thing she's ever been able to count on.[break][break]

She lets out a sigh to calm her nerves, before making accidental eye contact with the boy who'd followed her this whole way and turning away, embarrassed. [break][break]

He can't see you're weak, he can't know you're greener than he is. Otherwise, you're at his mercy.[break][break]

"L-let's get it over with already."[break][break]

A silent flash of light and her partner wraps around her body effortlessly, pulling her down, dragging her to the depths with sweet affection as she watches the boy.[break][break]

She's attentive as anything. Always a keen eye for danger, and a willingness to pull this girl toward it. She sinks her fangs deep into what lies straight ahead, as a true predator should. This girl owes everything to her, always dragging her toward the kinds of things a crybaby runs away from. Til she's not afraid of them anymore, til she's stronger. That's her way of nurturing this girl, something she guides along like her own snakelet.[break][break]

She merely looks at the boy with interest instead of flashing her dagger-like fangs. It's a sign he's just some kid at the end of the day. [break][break]

Like you.[break][break]

That seems to put the girl at ease some.[break][break]

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Kouji wasn’t sure as he looked at his partner, she was cold; which wasn’t the worst thing he had dealt with, but she was even younger than he was. A real member of rocket too, rather than just being a parent’s tagalong. It was a sad state of affairs in some way, that he wasn’t in the same position as her.
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He was ready to fight, yet he was stuck in this position.
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”Just tryna be friendly, but whatever, suit yourself.”
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As they arrived, Kouji placed the backpack on the ground carefully, and leaned against the wall, his eyes went to the snake that wrapped itself around the younger girl, maybe only a year or just above younger than him, but he couldn’t tell at all.
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There was a thought that played at his concerns as he was eyed up for a moment, but he shrugged it up. ”Nice Seviper, she’s protective of ya.” It was different to Absol, who he wouldn’t bring out right now. The king of his team, the king of the forests around Fortree, the tyrant that ruled his trainer; he hadn’t even considered bringing him into it.
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As he stood there, he looked at the bag for a moment as a runner came, it was a small dog pokemon, a Poochyena that held something around its throat, an envelope that contained a letter. Kouji went to grab the letter, opened it, and read it, before he sighed.
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”New location for the cargo, we’ll have to…blow up the warehouse nearby, it used to be used for…Fertilizers? We’ll place it there, and set it off.” Even Kouji could understand that it was a bomb, as dumb as he was. He figured it out now, just what it did.
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”But that place is currently being used as a shelter.” It was obvious what kind of operation this was, even a child would be able to tell.

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Baki

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POSTED ON Sept 6, 2023 4:39:08 GMT

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[attr="class","star2tsu3"]Calmness is beset by the boy's words, and she shivers in the cold. [break][break]

The serpent draped around her senses it, and wraps her closer. Close enough she holds her in place, stops her from showing any outward signs of fear. Even she knows this is no place for something like that. [break][break]

Not in the place of fellow predators.[break][break]

"... A shelter?"[break][break]

The implications of that aren't lost on her. Dread weighs heavy in her heart suddenly, realizing the weight of what she's signed herself up for. She's not a killer. She's a girl. Still a kid. And these people haven't done anything except congregate and make themselves easy targets. It wouldn't just be murder. They're civilians.[break][break]

She chews the inside of her cheek.[break][break]

"So, then. That's what they want with us."[break][break]

Hollow disdain pours from her lips, something she can't hide after all. They're asking their recruits to go beyond the pale, give themselves to this cause entirely. There's no coming back from this. They're asking them to take the last step over the edge themselves.[break][break]

She clenches her fist, and looks at the bomb. Some part of her wants to bargain with this directive, though she knows it's not that easy.[break][break]

"Do they know that people are living there?"[break][break]

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Kouji

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POSTED ON Sept 6, 2023 4:45:15 GMT

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Kouji looked at her, there was expressions on her face that were difficult to read; but if there was one thing that he did know, it was that he wasn’t smiling. He enjoyed a fight, but there was nothing to enjoy about this.
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”I think so.”
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Kouji considered, there was simply no way that they didn’t know. It was beyond obvious that there were people living in there, why? Because kids had come to that realization, Kouji had come to realize it, the girl across from him knew.
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”Doesn’t matter, we’ll just have to do it. It’s our orders.” He said as he grabbed the bag and lifted it onto his shoulders. ”You scared?” He asked, though there wasn’t any teasing to his voice.
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Because he was terrified.
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Taking a life wasn’t easy, Kouji understood that perfectly, it had been one of the most difficult things he had done…Well, been made to do. Forced to do. He had been pushed, physically into doing that action. But this was different, he was doing it to people who couldn’t fight back, who didn’t know, who he wouldn’t see.
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”If we do this, we’ll be nothing but monsters.”

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POSTED ON Sept 6, 2023 6:28:20 GMT

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[attr="class","star2tsu3"]'Our orders'.[break][break]

The words swim in her head. She doesn't know what that matters if people die and it's by their hands. The higher ups are telling them to do it, but it's down to them to pull the trigger. And, from the looks of things, this boy seems to have accepted that fact.[break][break]

She steadies herself. Her pokemon reassures her. But even then, the nerves won't stop.[break][break]

"No. I'm not scared. Rockets don't get scared."[break][break]

She says something that sounds good in her head. To placate herself, and more importantly, him. [break][break]

He's the reason she's terrified. They send more than one person on missions like these so there's always a rat. If one person doesn't wanna go through with it, they'll know, they'll find out, and they'll report back. They'll kill her if she refuses and she knows it.[break][break]

She steps forward, makes a motion toward the bag. To volunteer herself, if he won't do it.[break][break]

"What? You afraid of being a monster? They're all around us. Live among us, even. There's nothing wrong with being a monster." [break][break]

She runs her hand under her Seviper's chin, showing just the kind of monster she's talking about as she meets his gaze. [break][break]

"It's the course of nature. The strong eat the weak."[break][break]

She giggles under her breath. It's nerves more than anything. She's hyping herself up, but underneath she's screaming.[break][break]

Run. Get out of here. Leave him behind, escape this town. Go back home and beg your father's forgiveness. He'll save you from this, won't he? Even after all those things you've said and done, there's still a way out of this, if you can just swallow your pride.[break][break]

... but you can't, after all.[break][break]

"So. Are you strong, or are you weak?"[break][break]

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Kouji

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Kouji didn’t smirk, nor did he smile as he was likely to do.
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Because he didn’t agree. ”The hell you talking about? Monsters live all around us? We’re surrounded by walking corpses, those guys died, killed themselves the moment they did that. I didn’t ask if you were going to die while being alive, I asked if you were ready to become a monster.”
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He wondered if perhaps he didn’t understand her, or it was a difference in world views, but Kouji did walk as he thought, and as he talked. His mind was fixed on the resolution, would he watch it? As everything blew up? Or would he simply run away? He didn’t know, but he had resolved himself to do it.
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The question was, would he have to do it alone, or would he have someone else to share that view with? ”I’m not sure what I am yet, I want to be strong. But I could just be a weakling. I haven’t had that moment, the conflict that pushes you over the border…I can’t go sitting on that line forever.” But he didn’t want to confront that yet, confront his weaknesses, would he succumb? Would he be overtaken? He knew it, he had seen it, the moment in which someone confronted themselves…Was the time most people lost to themselves.
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”What about you? You’re not scared, you ain’t giving your name, and you don’t mind monsters being all ‘round us…Are you already a monster? A walking corpse, or just weak?”
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A part of him did not want to hear the answer to the question he himself had posed to her, a question was simply a reflection of what one didn’t know, a reflection of one’s own doubts, and an answer could elucidate what he didn’t really want to know.
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Whether they were the same, or different.

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POSTED ON Sept 6, 2023 7:15:47 GMT

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[attr="class","star2tsu3"]She stares blankly at him, not sure what to make of it all. [break][break]

There's no making sense of this kid's head. Any kid who joins the Rockets young like this is messed up. She's no different. But the way he's talking, it gives her an uneasy feeling, like he's not scared for the same reasons she is.[break][break]

No matter what, you need to maintain the facade. Even if you're shivering underneath and your blood's turned to ice. That's the long and short of it. It doesn't matter if what he's saying makes sense, cause you're only half paying attention anyway. Nerves are getting the better of you. So just play it cool. Keep control of the situation and yourself.[break][break]

Cause you're two cornered animals, both ready to lash out at any moment.[break][break]

"I meant pokemon, dumbass."[break][break]

She delivers a scowl practiced so many times. With that comes just enough confidence to push forward to the next word.[break][break]

It's like you're bleeding. Every word hurts. To put anything into this cold harsh world is to expose your weakness. It takes pain. You won't let yourself be seen, won't let yourself be vulnerable, so all you can do is let a bit of the turmoil underneath out with your pain, cause it's that or nothing.[break][break]

That's all that's suited you so far.[break][break]

"... I don't care about names. It's deeds. It's what you do. That's who you are. That's what makes you strong. That's what makes you weak. Your deeds, if they're monstrous, make you a monster. So, just watch. I'll show you who I am."[break][break]

She says something stupid. The worst thing possible. She's leading by example now as she leans down to pick up the bag.[break][break]

... but a blade on the back of her palm stops her.[break][break]

Sagisou...[break][break]

"Unless... you'd rather show me."[break][break]

She turns, and offers him that chance to cross that line. Whatever happens now is her fault, she realizes. But, if it means she has to make that decision on her own to cross the same line, she'll save herself any day. [break][break]

She's that kind of cowardly girl, deep down.[break][break]

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Kouji

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August 29th

Rustboro

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POSTED ON Sept 6, 2023 7:36:38 GMT

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Kouji stared at her hand for a moment as she left the question to him, did he want to show her?
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Confronting himself, it was a moment like this where that would happen, he didn’t know who he was, not yet. It was the logical half of him that came to that conclusion, but the cowering animal in a corner, cornered, snarling, and begging to be let go.
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He swiped the bag’s handle, and took it into his chest. ”Tch. Just say that you’re too scared to do it, don’t worry, big bro Kouji has this one in the bag.” He tried to force a laugh that rang hollow as he almost tapped at the bag, he held it to his chest and turned on the place.
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It was a robotic movement, each step seemed filled with hesitation. ”Don’t get left behind, I’ll do this, even if it kills me.” Could he do it? Would he do it? Was it right to do it? Kouji didn’t know, he asked these questions to himself again and again; maybe there was something else, another path?
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Whatever it was, he couldn’t find it. Backing away from a mission given to him by Rocket didn’t even exist in his brain, he knew that fully, he understood that very well. ”Maybe we’ll win the war with this one…Huh?”
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His voice wavered, but he still stepped forward, very stiff steps as if he had already begun to undergo rigour mortis, could he kill his heart?
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No.
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He’d have to do this one with conviction.
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”It’s time for me to become a monster…” But he had never felt any weaker than this very moment.
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"Hey. Can I be honest, this is terrifying." And so he opted to run away instead, to run away from his bravado.

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Baki

She/Her

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Saffron City

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Officer

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POSTED ON Sept 8, 2023 0:57:29 GMT

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[attr="class","star2tsu3"]"Rockets don't get scared..."[break][break]

She repeats her words, but they ring so hollow she can't help but laugh. [break][break]

It's that, or she'll start crying. [break][break]

"But... yeah."[break][break]

They're supposed to be killers, right? But at heart, they're still kids.[break][break]

The admission is a show of weakness that makes her hate herself. It's pathetic, acting like this is such a big deal. As if she hasn't already killed the part of her that cares, the girl she once was, and the life she can never go back to.[break][break]

She takes a step forward and puts a hand on his shoulder.[break][break]

"C'mon. Y-you really can't do it, then... here."[break][break]

She pulls at the bag he's carrying, offering to take it off him. [break][break]

She's weak enough he could pull it back at any time, but it seems she's filled with conviction all of a sudden. Some confidence coming out of nowhere, as if she's had some epiphany. There's a sincerity there all of a sudden, like she's let down her guard - not talking to a Rocket recruit, but a scared kid like her. [break][break]

"Officer ambush, came outta nowhere. We got split up, I jumped in the river with it to get away. Had to ditch it to escape. My fault. They won't go after you."[break][break]

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Kouji

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August 29th

Rustboro

Heterosexual

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POSTED ON Sept 8, 2023 10:58:48 GMT

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He felt the pull on his bag, it was weak, yet his legs stopped on the spot, an immediate cessation of angular momentum, in a sense for the fragile heart of a child, the determination behind it made the strongest pull possible.
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Kouji couldn’t speak, he listened, his brain had almost turned off the moment he had decided to move, to turn himself into an automaton, a moving corpse, not the monster he had hoped to be. He wasn’t tout of heart yet, he was only a child after all. Even with his dreams of joining rocket, a whole life dedicated towards Rocket and their cause…
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He knew this was wrong.
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But, the dark clouds that had begun to cover his heart, to stop the view of the sea of stars known as emotion, it felt as if he could feel his own pulse again. ”The hell…I can’t jus-...”
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If he didn’t, they’d both become monsters, if one of them took this then they’d both be able to avoid such a fate. It was an obvious decision, it was the more practical path, the one with the least sacrifices.
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Thus went the lie that his brain told his heart, that this was the right way to do all of this, that there wasn’t any other alternative path. ”Where’ll you go?” But his mouth moved regardless. ”Without Rocket, you’ll just get killed out there, or worse.”
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”I can’t just…”
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But he could.

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✚ Cutting Losses

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Baki

She/Her

December 21

Saffron City

administrative assistant

Officer

156 cm // 5'1" height

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POSTED ON Sept 10, 2023 5:45:53 GMT

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[attr="class","star2tsu3"]"You can."[break][break]

She smiles with some sense of resolve at it all, seeing the compassion in the boy. That he's not entirely lost fills her with the conviction she needs to take the fall.[break][break]

"And what, you think I'm leaving?"[break][break]

She forces herself to laugh, though maybe it's just nerves. [break][break]

"They'll definitely kill me if I leave. Can't do that. I don't gotta ticket outta here yet. No. No, I'll just take the punishment. It'll be bad, but it can't be worse than dying, right?"[break][break]

She slides the bag off his shoulder, puts it over hers. [break][break]

It's heavy, with the weight of what she's about to do. But even so, that's better than letting innocent people die because of them. They aren't monsters tonight, and won't be when the sun rises. That's all she can hope for, all she can hold in her heart as she takes a step back, and turns away from the boy standing there.[break][break]

"Meet'cha back at HQ, 'Kouji Onii-chan'."[break][break]

Whatever's come over her, she finds her sense of humor suddenly, repeating his own words back at him. [break][break]

Maybe it's cause she doesn't know what lies ahead. This might as well be goodbye for all she knows. But, if it's saving him the fate of turning into that monster and killing innocents, at least for one more night, she'll take it.[break][break]

This is who she is. These are her deeds. She'd said names are unimportant, right?[break][break]

But...[break][break]

"Oh, and... name's Tsubaki. Don't ever forget it."[break][break]

+ Kouji Matsubara

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POSTED ON Sept 10, 2023 9:01:37 GMT

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Kouji struggled within himself, it wasn’t what he wanted to see, it should have been him doing this, pushing for this, but after seeing that smile so filled with Resolve, he felt utterly defeated.
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He’d lost so many times, but this was the first time Matsubara Kouji had been utterly defeated. He stared at her before he slowly released the breath that had been a lodger in his lungs, a slow release of tension from his shoulders as the bag was now in her hands, he gave her a wry smile, crooked in its sadness.
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”Make sure you don’t get yourself killed, I won’t forgive ya if you do. We’ll meet again back at HQ.” He’d do whatever he could otherwise, Kouji knew that the day would come when he’d become someone else, someone different to the person that he was.
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But it wouldn’t be tonight, because he lost.
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”Tsubaki huh? I won’t forget it, it’d be a tragedy if Kouji Onii-chan forgot that, huh?” He said as he tried to smile properly, but it wouldn’t reach his eyes, it’d be far too embarrassing if he cried right now, he would hate himself even more than he did right now.
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He’d continue to brush by Rocket, and she was staying, he was sure they’d see each other again. He prayed, and hoped, that they’d be able to laugh about this the next time that they saw each other.
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”Next time we see each other, I promise neither of us’ll be…a monster or a robot.” He said as he stood there, to watch her leave, he dd make a promise at least that he wouldn’t get rid of that most important part again, he wouldn’t kill his emotions. If he was going to kill someone, he’d do it as a human.

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