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i used to dream in the dark of palisades park

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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 1:07:31 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]oh... this isn't going to be good.

the hospital is about to witness two titans clashing, it seems.

where she hopes he sees the error of his ways, he does not. instead, he turns the tables toward his favor. and god does she despise it.

with little else to do... she opens the flood gates.

"you're ridiculous."

if she's going down, it will not be without a fight. she's no longer the little naive girl he took under his wing. no, she learned too much from him to be anything less than a girlboss (nikki's brain failed, will edit this word).

"where do you think i was, huh?"



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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 1:12:15 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



“YOU’RE DEFLECTING.”

he shoots straight. right on target. right in the middle. he knows what he’s dealing with and counters accordingly.

answer the question illeana. where were you?


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illie, sap sipper
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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 1:20:00 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]"when?"

she's two seconds from snarling, from baring teeth like a cornered animal.

"use your words."

he is, technically, using his words but she needs more.

she'll always need more.



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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 1:43:54 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



“WHEN I HAD TO FIGHT OFF FOUR AVATARS FOR SEVERAL HOURS.”

his voice starts to rise but he still holds control. reigns it in with a calculated approach on how to present himself.

when tapu fini found me and called out for you. when it struggled to buy as much time as it could. when it died waiting for you?

rage, induced by emotion, but demonstrated properly, makes a hell of an argument.

when they tortured me throughout the night.

he rises from his bed, struggling to sit upright.

when they cut me open to see if they could find what makes an avatar an avatar.

it is with his right hand, his dominant hand, that he tears off the bandage over his head. digs underneath the wraps to cut them away from ’s crevice.

there, she will see the extent of the damage. they may have taken out his eye but the rest still sits there, idle, without purpose. the stem that used to wire his eye to his brain falls out. he can feel it limp underneath his eyelid, dangling like a loose end.

when they took my fucking eye illeana.

they can hear him outside. they can hear him down the hall. his anger is upfront and focused. tunneled on the one person to incur his wrath.

where were you after we beat the megalopolans and we had to pick up the pieces?

old wounds come up in an argument that goes long unsaid. her help was instrumental during the war. but when it came time to put everything back, to help those displaced and disowned by the war, illeana was back in sinnoh.

recuperating, as she calls it.

where were you when team rocket blew me up in the glass workshop?

his optic nerve sways when he speaks. he stares at her intently. to match his eye contact means stomaching the sight of a spilt eye socket.


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illie, sap sipper
she/her
27
september 23rd
snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
head professor
consumed
with what's to transpire.
5’8” height
5’8” height
you caged me and then you called me crazy; i am what i am 'cause you trained me.
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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 2:09:46 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]when he aims, it's to kill.

she exists in silence, unmoving as he lays into her. each word is purposeful, calculated, as if he knows exactly how to push her buttons. and where he is contained, she is unhinged.

"doing my fucking job."

it's an excuse at best but the events of sootopolis required immediate attention. the darkest day, unfortunately, also included the incapacitation of fernando silph. is it a price she would have liked to pay? no... but she didn't know.

just as he didn't know she went missing. somehow, guilt joins the anger in the face of realization. her capture compared to his was nothing. and yet, she's still bitter, angry, hateful.

"hell came to hoenn the same day, fernando."

and softly, in a hesitant whisper, she adds what he told her mere moments before: "i didn't know."

two sides of the same angry coin.

she wills herself to not help him, to observe as he struggles. it gives no satisfaction. and when his eye socket is revealed, she stares. her body subconsciously calls for healing mist but no amount of residual power from tapu lele can return what has been lost.

he continues the onslaught and she's certain her body has bullet holes now. it feels hollow.

the breaking point comes with the ultra beast war. she dissolves into quick, seething anger.

"we beat the megalopolans at meteor falls with no casualties at my expense. you survived unscathed because of me, because of tapu lele. it cost you nothing and it cost me fucking everything."

it cost her . it cost her tapu lele. it cost her sanity.

and what does she have to show for it? nothing.

angry tears bubble up at the water lines of her eyes and as they spill over, she scowls.

"even that stupid trip to sea hoenn! you were fine while i got split open from behind like a damn animal."

it's nothing in the grand scheme of things but... her distrust in him began after her return and has simply continued to fester with each wound she takes. it's nothing compared to his lost eye and yet, it feels like everything to her.

faintly, in between the rage, she feels fear. the fear of losing him, the fear of not being able to take this back. somehow, she isn't sure if she cares.



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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 2:14:40 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



“DID YOU KNOW IT WOULD HAPPEN?”

he clears his throat of his earlier anger and repeats the question with more clarity. with words, as she would say.

did you know it would happen ahead of time. that it would happen that night, in sootopolis, before it actually happened?


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illie, sap sipper
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27
september 23rd
snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
head professor
consumed
with what's to transpire.
5’8” height
5’8” height
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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 2:18:30 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]the question catches her off guard.

confusion stuns her into silence. and for a moment, she processes the actual question.

he uses his words (good job ferny ily). with clarification, she scrunches her nose.

"no? why would i know that?"



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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 2:23:05 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



“THEN IT DOESN’T FUCKING COUNT ILLEANA.”

from calm to exasperated happens at the flip of a coin. as if fernando’s answers dictate his mood. like a caricature of an award winning drama.

he transitions as the situation call. as he should.

i needed you all goddamn day! tapu fini needed you. and you think just because you showed up to something after this happened that just cancels out?


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illie, sap sipper
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27
september 23rd
snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
head professor
consumed
with what's to transpire.
5’8” height
5’8” height
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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 2:30:09 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]confusion dissolves into irritation.

"how the fuck was i supposed to know, fernando?"

perhaps she should have just accepted the apology... too late now.

"you expect me to magically know you needed me for once?" as if he hasn't before, as if he never did. sometimes, she's not sure if she convinces herself of this concept or if it truly exists.

it doesn't change a thing, unfortunately. he still got captured, hurt, and lost just as she did. there's a small satisfaction in knowing she wasn't alone.



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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 2:51:48 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



HE AGREES. she’s absolutely correct. how could she have known? how can she always be there for him? It’s impossible. unreasonable.

so why did you come in here upset for the same fucking reason, illeana?

the cord sways to and fro.

tell me!

it stirs with his own explosiveness.

tell me why the first thing i said to you after having tapu fini murdered in front of my eyes, right before they tore it out and crippled me and took my avatarship away, was ‘i’m glad you’re okay’?’

a nurse peeks in from the doorway but says nothing.

tell me why you can’t be magically there for me but i’m supposed to?!

tell me why i can’t be human? why i can’t slip up just once without having you act like a fucking brat on my death bed?

tell me, illeana. please, explain it to me. you’re so fucking smart, miss head scientist! i’m fucking begging you, please.


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illie, sap sipper
she/her
27
september 23rd
snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
head professor
consumed
with what's to transpire.
5’8” height
5’8” height
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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 3:24:40 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]he explodes and truthfully, it's expected after what he's endured.

what isn't expected, however, is how much shrapnel hurts her.

at some point, she begins to shake. something about his tone reminds her of her father. she despises it.

"i don't know."

it's quiet at first until she's breaking down completely beneath the onslaught.

"i don't fucking know!"

it's stupid, she realizes. this whole thing is stupid. her reasoning has no factual foundation. it's all grounded in her own emotions and that's not enough to convince him to understand.

she's tried to be there for him, tried to be something, tried to be anything. it ended in failure, in him not noticing her absence for the two weeks she was a prisoner.

and somehow, she doesn't know if she can forgive that... just as he, very well, might not forgive her for this.

"i don't know why you said that! it doesn't make sense to me, fernando." how could he be glad she's okay but not know where she was for so long?

she takes a step back and she knows she's lost. she knows she's about to run, about to cower and tuck her tail between her legs. any fight she had was broken down and beaten until it died. all that's left is a scared, hurt, broken girl.

with a soft sob, she whispers into the silence his yelling leaves behind. "i -- just -- i just wanted to know why you didn't care." why couldn't he care?

the final nail in the coffin comes broken, defeated.

"i'm sorry."



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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 3:44:35 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



SPARE THE ROD, spoil the child.

that’s why fernando beats them. beats them black and blue, thoroughly and all over. all to impart an important lesson that they will never forget.

but, for illeana, the beating isn’t over.

sorry doesn’t change shit, illeana!

again, her words, not his. the perfect mirror image to deconstruct any retort she might have waiting on the sidelines.

as for the rest of her argument.

after the war, you went home. you rested. you recovered. do you know what did when he lost his arm?

he doesn’t give her a chance to answer.

he fucking grit his teeth. said ‘tough shit’ and came back to work the moment the doctor cleared him.

fernando points at his eye.

do you know what i’m going to do? grit my fucking teeth, say ‘tough shit’, and go back to work when the doctors clear me. because this region needs me. because i won’t abandon it like you abandoned me.


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illie, sap sipper
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september 23rd
snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
head professor
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5’8” height
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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 3:57:55 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]the lesson is effective. what he aims to teach, however, is different than what she's learning.

she's realizing a simple thing with painful clarity: fernando silph cares about no one but himself. she had believed once that she could change such a thing, even convinced herself of the silly notion.

and as is tradition, illeana reyes is wrong.

she stays quiet, verbally beaten into submission. and when he buries her arguments beneath logic and tough guy shit, he accidently touches upon a nerve.

abandoned him? she abandoned him?

her voice is too calm when it returns, when it claws its way out of her throat.

"i abandoned you?"

somehow... she doubts that.



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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 5:09:03 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



“YOU ABANDONED HOENN.”

the anger dissipates behind a sharp and clear accusation.

and you abandoned me.

he turns on the hurt, goes for the victim card, and rounds it off with a fernando staple: a leading question.

do you know why no one was harmed at meteor falls? do you know why i came out unscathed when we went to sea!hoenn?


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illie, sap sipper
she/her
27
september 23rd
snowpoint city, sinnoh
bi curious
geneticist, alchemist
head professor
consumed
with what's to transpire.
5’8” height
5’8” height
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POSTED ON Jul 14, 2022 17:57:42 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]the accusation comes with seething anger. it simmers until it boils over. and when it does, she can’t stop the disgusted look from forming on her face.

”you let me rot in a fucking cell for two weeks without noticing but i abandoned you?”

her laugh echoes. it’s mocking.

any amount of trust in him, any amount of butterflies once induced by a powerful man… it has quickly turned to ash.

”spare me the theatrics, fernando.” her eyes narrow. ”don’t pretend you’re a savior now.”

unfortunately, she’s not done.

she stalks closer, jabbing one finger out at him. from her vantage point above him, she feels superior. it’s short lived.

”you can’t save shit when all you know how to do is use people.” people like her, easily manipulated once fed affection and validation.



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