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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 0:00:03 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



“THEN YOU FIGHT.”

the secret to his success. for fernando is not the smartest. nor the strongest. or any of the other traits the world has placed on his pedestal. his glory comes from the only trait he inhabits as untouchable.

his will.

fight to recreate it. fight to find it. fight until it’s there.

he sighs.

you cannot have your worse without your best. they always exist. even if you don’t know it.


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[attr="class","illeana i"]fight... will it be for her good or for her demons?

the concept makes her uncertain, uncomfortable. it brings a sense of trepidation she can't seem to shake.

"i don't know if it's still there."

not after what has happened, not after what she's done. and if it still exists, it will be snuffed out after what's to come.

"i -- i'm not myself, anymore."

or... she always has been and who she was before was simply a mask.

it's difficult to tell them apart, as if one cannot exist without the other.

faintly, she lets out a hollow laugh.

"if you couldn't tell already, that is."



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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 0:14:29 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



“I BELIEVE IN ILLEANA REYES.”

his eyes close and he can no longer to bear to look at her. she’s exhausted both his stamina and his patience. the fact that the measuring devices around them still remain stable and constant is a testament to his will.

to do what must be done.

because i love her.

and with that he can rest.

that love is what makes this possible, no matter where i may falter.


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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 0:20:11 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]what?

did -- did she hear that right?

every inch of her looks stunned into stone. life comes back to the eyes, a spark igniting cogs in the machine.

"you -- what?"

it had once been something she was certain of, that she knew on some fundamental level.

now, it tastes like blood in her mouth... nothing more than a pretty lie.

well done, fernando.



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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 0:24:06 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



HE TURNS AWAY FROM HER. allows the hurt to fester. the pain he’s felt many times before. and uses it as a catalyst.

the pain he speaks does not come from her but she will not know it. because very few understand fernando silph for who he is. for what he has suffered. that mystery is what lets him camoflauge like the kecleon somewhere in the room.

you sound surprised.

he sounds betrayed.


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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 0:34:16 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]she can't ignore the way his voice sounds.

it mirrors hers from earlier, constricted and pained. betrayed.

some small part of her finds satisfaction in that.

and a big part of her knows things will be different. which side will she fall on now?

"i am."

a sigh escapes, as if she's reached her limit.

"you can't just drop a bombshell like that on me."

he can, though. he just did.

she's sifts through tumultuous emotions like rubble to find strength, to find steel, to find herself.

what she finds... is not what he wants.



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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 0:41:06 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



“IT SHOULDN’T BE A BOMBSHELL,” he corrects.

all the time we spent together. the labs, the office. the nights we shared. working, stressing, bonding. the conversation. the laughs.

his scowl stares at the ceiling. she can see the twist of his lips despite him facing the other way.

the intimacy.


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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 0:49:32 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]it is a bombshell to her...

because for as long as she has known fernando silph, she has never known him to care about love.

he points to memories, to instances and words and actions and she feels slightly faint by now.

it's too sudden, too much, too late.

"i," she starts, stops, struggles with words.

what can she say in the face of this? thanks so much but you missed the chance? god... this is a mess.

she settles on a hesitant, "i didn't think it meant anything to you."



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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 0:54:59 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



“BECAUSE YOU DON’T LOVE ME,” is what he will paint as her truth. his ace in the hole is both a weakness and his greatest strength. a gamble, yes, but one that’s tilted in his favor.

not the way i love you.

he rolls his head over to finally face her. the bandages seep into his socket. the indentation outlines what he’s now missing.

do you sacrifice for those you don’t care about, reyes? do you think i would hurt myself this bad if i didn’t care about you, reyes?


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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 1:03:16 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]before, she would have given a different answer. before... it might have been different.

here and now? she doesn't feel what he claims he does, not anymore.

distance has eroded their bond. and with the erosion, she sees what's underneath. she sees a fragile girl seeking validation and affection from a man who could not give her everything she wanted.

"i don't believe you love me," she whispers.

if he did...

"you don't forget the people you love."

she looks angry now. hurt, disgusted, betrayed, confused. it's too much.

"i sacrifice myself for people who don't care about me, who don't love me, who toss me aside until i'm worthy again." her face twists into a scowl and her mind supplies the final, unspoken piece: people like him.



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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 1:08:38 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



HE GIVES HER HIS HEART. lays it on the table. ripe and thumping until the moment she cuts into it. dissects his mercy and cuts out the last of his leniency.

what comes next, she deserves.

you say that but i know you loved him.

and in his name, he will envoke it.

loved him in a way i could never compare to. and yet, you still left him in lilycove.


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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 1:21:46 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]he loads the gun, takes off the safety, and pulls the trigger.

the result is one very angry illeana reyes.

"don't you dare bring him into this."

her hand rises as if to strike him the same way she struck . there... her hand waits, trembling with barely contained rage.

"i followed you to meteor falls. he died because i wasn't there, because you needed me. do you know how agonizing that is? how fucking horrible it was to do that?"

and she had done it for him, for fernando silph, for one single ounce of his praise. it makes her sick even now.

"and now you want to say you love me?"

after all she's done, all she's sacrificed, all she's lost... it feels like a slap in the face.



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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 1:32:30 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



ALEXANDER WAS MY BEST FRIEND!”

she does not get to be hurt. she does not get to play the victim. whatever romance or love she thinks she had with stone does not hold a candlelight to their bond. that’s his narrative. and that’s what the world will know.

he was my greatest rival. my strongest ally. and the only person who had my back since we were fucking kids.

stone and silph is a history that tied to fate. whatever place illeana may think she has between this long lost dynasty is nothing more than a side piece. she is the npc in their story. she is the insignificant love interest used to fuel conflict between main characters.

she is nothing to them.

he was my hero. he was my champion.

the same anger she holds back he unleashes in a torrent. waves of anger, a tsunami of regret that it was some off brand fucking ultra beast that killed him instead of his own hands.

it’s enough to bring tears to his eyes.

here, illeana will find that fernando silph. a man many have called devoid of emotion. a man she doesn’t believe can love her.

crying.

crying for his best friend. crying for .

he made the call to go to lilycove. he made the call for you to come to meteor falls. and i honored it. i bear the fucking responsibility. and i bear the fucking pain that every day i let him convince me!

his breathing is rapid and his lungs flare under the pressure of heat and agony.

so don’t talk to me about horrible!


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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 1:49:52 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]"no."

she's holding on by a thin thread and it's quickly snapping.

"you're lying. you're fucking lying!"

she thinks of , of his reaction to the very man trying to convince her of their bond. the very man in front of her caused a rift in their relationship, a strain only made worse by tapu lele's scales. the words of a dead man come back here and now, echoing in her mind until it's all she hears.

i would be careful with him, illeana. i do not trust him.

it brings a painful question rising to the surface: did alex lie to her?

no... there's no way... he isn't -- wasn't -- that kind of man.

"don't lie to me about him, fernando. you don't have the right."

does she? does she have the right to speak of him now?

he still holds a special power over her. one that brings her to her knees, one that breaks her down completely. it's a power of love, loss, and regret. she's not surprised when she feels hot tears streaking her face.

softly, more to herself than fernando, she whispers, "i could have saved him."



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POSTED ON Jul 17, 2022 2:00:50 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



YOU DON’T HAVE THE RIGHT!”

where she breaks down, he comes together. not in some uniform, calm put togetherness. no, he finds structure in lettings the rage become glue. it holds the pieces of his argument. holds the core of his composure as he digs into her with righteous fury.

alexander loved you. and i get that. i was happy for him. happy for you two. but two or three years does not erase what we had.

a few tears land on the bed. mark dark spots of salt and snot.

since we were kids! a life time, illeana!

coincidence strikes a cord. he has no idea about her inner thoughts, that doubt manifests, but he plans accordingly nonetheless. for to lie to the masses requires lying to one self. and who understands people better than their councilman?

he was incredible! compassionate! perfect in all the ways i can’t be. he would sacrifice himself if it meant saving the innocent. he would lie to the world if it spared them the pain of knowing how much they hurt him.

her break down means nothing compared to his own.

so don’t talk to me about alexander stone. you’ve already hurt me. in ways you will never know. and i accept that."

his tone grows dark.

"but i will not let you besmirch my brother."


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