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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2022 0:07:35 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



HER JAB HURTS. a testament to how broken his body truly is. but no matter how brittle the vessel, his spirit remains strong. it’s what saved him. it’s what allows him to continue on.

it’s the only thing he know how to channel.

three councilmen.

his voice is quieter as he counts them off.

the elite four. eight gym leaders.

the math is simple but the number accelerate quickly.

sixteen cities. dozen of rangers. hundred of officers. thousands of employees.

he stares back, firm.

i can’t keep track of everyone illeana. i don’t get to fuck off like you do.


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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2022 0:16:21 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]math means little in the face of unspoken emotions.

numbers get lost in translation, swallowed up and snuffed out. she's blinded by perceived betrayal, by realization, by causation.

and by the last sentence, her expression is no longer angry; it's hurt.

"i'm not everyone, fernando."

isn't that the worst part of it all?

the relationship was more than business... it was personal. this is personal.

"unless everything meant nothing."

no matter what answer he gives, she knows. deep down, she understands.

it really didn't matter.



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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2022 0:25:37 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



“I KNOW THAT.”

admission of hurt, through tone and volume, open up another pathway of their conversation. just as anger begets more anger, vulnerability invites a softness that allows the room to return to equilibrium.

but i am not infallible.

i am a single person.

so unless you want me to stuff you into a pokeball or chain you to my desk, i cannot always be there for you.


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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2022 0:45:34 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]vulnerability in these circumstances makes her uncomfortable, uncertain.

it invites a different conversation, one she isn't ready to have. there's a rift between them she can't ignore.

and she wants to believe that he knows, that he cares, that she matters... but distrust breeds in her silence. hurt holds firm until she's a wounded animal, afraid and trembling.

"i," she starts, stops, and stares.

he's right. as much as she hates it, he cannot be there for her at all times.

"i just..." finally, begrudgingly, she drags her eyes away from him. they find a new focal point in the pristine tiles of the hospital floor. "i thought you, out of everyone, would notice."

she thought he would move mountains if it meant her safety, her security. and as is the trend, illeana reyes is wrong.



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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2022 2:40:18 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



“…”

silence settles. fernando frowns. now is a chance to catch his breath. to let the exhaustion flow through him as he paints a picture of a man uncertain.

but he knows.

this conversation has already started to unravel deep within the recess of his mind. each action she takes is another turn on the chessboard. she decides to look sad? appeal to pity? stare at the ground whimpering like a fucking dog?

fine.

he reads her like a textbook and moves accordingly.

the metronome of this whole exchange teeters back into the center and fernando takes the lead.

he opens up the silence with a downcast sentence.

most nights, i only get three hours of sleep.


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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2022 2:52:29 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]it's childish, really, to expect so much of someone and to be mad when they don't live up to expectations.

one would think she had learned to know better by now. and one would, unfortunately, be wrong.

silence allows for a chance to gather herself, to glue the pieces back together in an attempt to seem whole.

and she releases a breath she hadn't noticed she was holding when he speaks, when he doesn't quite fight.

it's an odd sentence but anything is better than before.

"why?"



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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2022 3:20:30 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



“BECAUSE THAT’S ALL I CAN AFFORD.”

he clicks his tongue. she’s fallen for the bait. the moment she sinks her teeth into his question, he’s assured victory.

on a good day, i wake up to less than thirty notifications.

hook.

i answer them. in order of priority. and track how many calories i’ve consumed for the week before my morning training. i train for two hours.

line.

depending on the day, i have three hours of meetings. some silph co. some league. when i finish, that’s when i actually get to start working.

sinker.

i listen to presentations. i calculate what options to take. decisions that people will ostracize me for. decisions that if i don’t make, people suffer. when i finish that, people start to leave for the day. it’s five pm. that’s when i get to have lunch.

he tries to read for an interruption. for when she wants to interject. and he grows louder at the signs, cutting her off before she can protest.

if i’m lucky, that’s when i get to check in on the people i care about. you, lopez, kingsman, alfric. i have to plan two weeks ahead. play tetris on my calendar until it fits. and those are the people i care about.

his mouth starts to dry from the monologue but he continues.

it’s dark by now. then i go out. not because i want to but because i have to socialize. to check in on people that need me or would otherwise feel shunned because i don’t take time out of my day.

i run a gym. i make sure people at silph co. are taken care and it’s the place to work. i look out for slateport and it’s people, anything to help restore that same spirit it had before team rocket took over.

and i have to be kind. kind to those who think i have a perfect life because i’m supposed to be rich. kind to those who talk shit about me behind my back and think i don’t hear it. kind to those who fear me because i’m too tired from stretching myself thin that i can’t force myself to smile all day.

he points to his eye. the missing one. the gaping one that still has bits and pieces of his head sagging out of.

this wouldn’t have happened five years ago. that’s why i train. this is what i’ve trained to prevent. but i’m getting sloppy illeana. i’m getting weaker.

without so much as a care for the sanitary reasons, or the raw gross factor, fernando stuffs his dead optical nerve back into his socket and covers it with his bandage.

because. i. am. stretched. too. thin. illeana.

his posture goes rigid and his back straight. the councilman resides in the hospital bed as if it were his office.

i. am. one. person. reyes!


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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2022 3:41:18 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]oop. spoke too soon, apparently.

he launches into a monologue and she stands there. watching, listening, waiting.

each point is valid. his time is precious with the busy regimen he carries.

and yet, she finds fault.

she waits until he finishes before she opens her mouth, until his eye stalk is pushed back in and covered up.

"i get you're busy." she notices, understands... but stretching himself too thin is a result of his own doing.

her expression settles into neutrality after a moment of processing.

and she knows, deep down, anything she says will be gasoline on an open flame.

"you don't need to do it all."



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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2022 4:06:40 GMT
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“THEN WHO WILL?”

illeana reyes is not the first to tell him this. nor will she be the last. but no matter who says it, no matter what their intention, fernando’s argument stands atop an unconquerable hill.

who will?

he sniffs to clear his throat. to make sure his voice annunciates the pleading he wants to project. as if he were begging.

illeana. i am not from here. i haven’t been in hoenn for more than five years.

and then the begging stops.

name a council member who’s served longer than me.

name an avatar who’s been entrusted longer than me.

out of the dozens of dozens of gym leaders we’ve cycled through, only three have lasted as long as i have.

which puts him in an imposition.

the last time i left it for someone else, team rocket took slateport. killed hundreds if not thousands.

his eyes narrow and his eyebrows furrow.

i will not let that happen again.


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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2022 23:20:20 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]the incessant need to do more, be more, save more has a chokehold on both of them.

and where his is for the good of the region, for the good of the people... hers is self-serving, dark, twisted.

she frowns, arms shifting to cross over her chest.

"you'll kill yourself at that rate."

it won't make a difference, though. he'll continue along the path just as she does.

and she wonders... does that make them resilient or stupid?

"you can't save an entire region by yourself."

the last person that tried died in the ultra beast war.



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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2022 23:30:23 GMT
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“I’M ALREADY DYING.”

a secret he had told in confidence. the reason he advised not to partake. a well formulated lie that’s both deceptive, purposeful, and true all the same.

which is why i will die trying.

nostrils flare and a deep exhale steams from the opening.

dying a year early is nothing if that means everyone will be safe.

his voice lowers.

if that means you’re safe.


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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2022 23:38:16 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]something inside her snaps.

her face contorts, torn between anger and pain, shock and confusion.

"no." it's soft, shaky, disbelieving.

and with a snarl, she grows firmer.

"you're lying."

except he's not. she knows he isn't. the conversation had in the league labs with rises, mocking her. her former colleague had alluded to it then, had asked her to ensure fernando's safety and what did she do? nothing. she did nothing.

his voice lowers, the sentence lands, and she's stunned into silence.

their safety, her safety means nothing if that's the price.

"stop it."



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POSTED ON Jul 16, 2022 5:14:31 GMT
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THERE IS NO STOPPING THE INEVITABLE. people come and people go. what they do with that finite time dictates how they lived. it will be the hallmark of their legacy.

he struggles to get up. to plant his feet on the floor. he tries but fails, unable to push himself out of bed. so he lies there, beckoning for her.

illeana. come here.


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POSTED ON Jul 16, 2022 5:21:15 GMT
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[attr="class","illeana i"]she stares as he struggles.

her body calls for pink mist and it seeps out, slowly sipping away tension. she holds onto the anger, the hurt, and steps toward him anyway.

softly, she mumbles a scolding. "you shouldn't move so much."

her hands reach for him, a subtle support. as is her duty, as is her role.



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POSTED ON Jul 16, 2022 5:25:46 GMT
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DAY 1 // THE FIRST VISITOR



HE NEEDS MORE THAN SUPPORT. more than what just her hand can provide. he needs her. all of her. body and soul. and he will have it. reclaim it from whatever delusions that may have lied to her about freedom and independence.

closer.

he moves his hand up but she’s too far for him to cup her face. he wants her head.

he wants what’s inside of it.

look into my eyes.


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