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"i was but that didn't stop you from kissing me. you managed to do that just fine."[break][break]

was.[break][break]

her question is met with frustration because it matters more than he could ever put into words.[break][break]

"just answer the question. do you still want me to?"[break][break]

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Was?
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In a moment's notice, through a single word, Penelope's entire world froze over. There was only one reason why he'd say was.
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Which meant...
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Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
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Another step backward and she nearly found herself stumbling into the laid out chairs. Breathing forced into small, short pulses, Penelope's silent eyes simply stared back in disbelief.
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"You're fucking with me."

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POSTED ON Mar 2, 2023 16:03:00 GMT

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realizing his mistake a little too late, he drops the lie entirely, knowing that it would only do more harm than good. he's gotten what he wanted from it anyways.[break][break]

a confession.[break][break]

"i'm not this time."[break][break]

he had been earlier when he told her they hadn't broken up. now, his words are true, honesty slipping out in a moment of frustration and hurt her words brought.[break][break]

"i told her i couldn't marry her because it wouldn't have been fair for either one of us."[break][break]

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POSTED ON Mar 2, 2023 16:10:25 GMT

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His confirmation only sealed Penelope's fate. Since the beginning, Matias been the one pulling the strings and she'd been just naive enough to fall for it all.
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Emotions really made her into a fool.
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"..."
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Reservation cooled her body, stilling it against the waves of realization. All she could do was stare at the propped-up rock forcing the door closed.
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POSTED ON Mar 2, 2023 16:22:12 GMT

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silence envelops them, swallowing them whole.[break][break]

"penny..."[break][break]

he breaks it, casting out a lifeline in the form of a step closer to her. he has to pull himself out of the abyss. he cannot linger in the unknown and leave himself vulnerable.[break][break]

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POSTED ON Mar 2, 2023 16:29:43 GMT

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"What is there to say?"
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Quiet, her voice sounded more distant than she was. Piece by piece, brick by brick, another wall cemented itself between them, blocking him from the shuddering piece of vulnerability she had become.
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Her fingers curled around the backboards of the wooden chair, her nails digging into the splits of its wood.
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"Can I go now?"
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POSTED ON Mar 2, 2023 17:36:20 GMT

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he had thrown everything away for a chance at something he thought the world of. but this has been a mistake, clearly, given how he's not even met with a response beyond whatever it is she gave him.[break][break]

he's not even sure what to think of it.[break][break]

"..."[break][break]

defeated, he turns away, wrist flicking one more time to sink the floorboards back down.[break][break]

"yeah."[break][break]

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POSTED ON Mar 2, 2023 17:48:07 GMT

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She stood there for a moment, a breath leaking in and out, back and forth, as thoughts settled in the rumble of it all. The floorboard had lowered, relinquishing control of the door, but Penelope made no effort to move.
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"Why did you lie about it?"
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Despite herself, she couldn't resist the urge to probe further. If she were to leave now as it was, there would be no turning back. No methods of reconciliation to repair what could've been. So, it was through this question, she asked herself one final time: is it worth it?

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POSTED ON Mar 2, 2023 17:57:57 GMT

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despite himself, he can't tear himself away either. he does not take a step back or forward, instead staying rooted in place, seemingly frozen in time as a question now hangs between them.[break][break]

it's one he answers truthfully.[break][break]

"because i was afraid."[break][break]

a breath.[break][break]

"and because i have issues opening up and being vulnerable. lying has always been easier."[break][break]

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POSTED ON Mar 2, 2023 18:09:12 GMT

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"I get it."
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Because she did the same. Tittering between wanting and despising him, she'd been hiding behind the cover of denial all this time.
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"It's hard. Being vulnerable like that."
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With a heavy breath, she took the first step forward.
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One ring of the shackles between them hisses with its release.
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"I'm scared of it too."

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POSTED ON Mar 2, 2023 18:15:06 GMT

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her first step forward makes his heart stutter, riddled with pain and guilt and joy all at once.[break][break]

"i'm trying to be more okay with it. being vulnerable. but, fuck, it's tough."[break][break]

but it helps to know he's not the only one experiencing it. it helps to know that she feels it too. it makes him feel not as alone.[break][break]

so, with a breath, he continues to be just that. vulnerable.[break][break]

"what i feel for you just isn't from the border. i feel it here, too. i have for a while now."[break][break]

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POSTED ON Mar 2, 2023 18:35:48 GMT

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The strangeness began with the pricking of skin.
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Since their expedition, what she had felt, what they had experienced together, only ever continued to grow.
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They began as dreams, trailing caressing her sleep, leaving her trembling as she woke. In them, images of a future untold felt trapped in her mind.
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But even then, behind the darkness of her eyelids, she could never put a name to the thing she hoped for. It felt almost too disgusting to do.
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"...I feel the same way."
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And she hated herself for it. Not even a week ago, she held the luxury of being loved unconditionally by another. And now, here she stood, trading it away so flimsily.
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"I was scared before - still am, in a way. But," her eyes trailed downward, searching for whatever scraps she could muster. With it, compiled and messy, she finally relented the one answer he'd been tugging at since the beginning. "I still want you. "

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POSTED ON Mar 3, 2023 3:00:18 GMT

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i feel the same way.[break][break]

hearing the words almost feels surreal, as though he's not deserving of them despite all they have been through. guilt still holds parts of him back even if he's not aware of it, but there's no denying the relief he feels.[break][break]

relief, and elation.[break][break]

steps are taken to close the distance. once again, he finds himself looming over her, but this time feels different. they feel level. equal.[break][break]

"i want you too."[break][break]

his hands reach up to hold her before he presses close to kiss her.[break][break]

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POSTED ON Mar 3, 2023 6:57:46 GMT

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A held breath, a squeezed heart, fidgeting fingers digging into the sides of her thighs, Penelope was living off a silent prayer.
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It was hard, standing there, basking in the unknown grounds from which she'd previously barred herself.
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"you have to understand, okay? after we leave, it's over."
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How foolish. They were ruined from the start.
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It wasn't until he took another step that relief released her pent-up shoulders.
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"Thank god," she breathed.
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Each kiss drew her in with a dizzying desire, furthering the path her hands took, crawling up the curve of his back, nails marking their trail.
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Around the back of his neck, they rested, fingers interwoven into one another, tugging him further into her until not even a breath of space remained.
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POSTED ON Mar 3, 2023 7:45:47 GMT

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with no space left between them, his body presses into hers, or hers against his, until he ends up bumping against his desk. kiss after kiss, breath after breath, he finds himself falling.[break][break]

pulling back enough, he whispers between kisses.[break][break]

"stay."[break][break]

and another.[break][break]

"don't you ever leave me."[break][break]