MS. DU'MOT
SHE/HER
32
FEBRUARY 14TH
LAVENDER TOWN
HETEROSEXUAL
DEBT COLLECTOR, TORTURER
CO-FOUNDER OF VELVET ROOM
I LIKE MEN ON THEIR KNEES PRAYING UP TO THEIR GOD, SEEING VISIONS OF ME
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LORELEI DU'MOT
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POSTED ON Apr 25, 2023 6:31:29 GMT
[nospaces] [attr="class","lorelhold"] [attr="class","loreholdsalltop"] [attr="class","loretoplyr"]i like men on their knees [attr="class","loretophold"]i don't need your roses [attr="class","loreleibanner"] [attr="class","loreleibannercolor"] [attr="class","lorelicon"] [attr="class","loreleisym"][attr="class","cp cp-rose"] [attr="class","lorelyrknee"]praying up to their god seeing visions of me i'm a cult leader mind reader heart eater Fear feeder, say I'm your favorite preacher [attr="class","lorespeaks"] perhaps esmee wasn't full of shit. it truly was easier to listen to others than speak for yourself.[break][break] it was from a place of love, but lorelei didn't quite know that yet - the way she loved to hear roman just go on and on. the more he spoke, the more she felt like she had unlocked parts of his heart she had sealed away under the muck of different forms of abuse. what she had worked so hard to erase from his very being was bared to her, showing her that she had ultimately failed. failure was unforgivable in her household growing up and it was still unforgivable for her now, but for him she could make an exception. this was something that made her feel successful - worthy.[break][break] "i don't recall your parents being dead." of course, she hadn't checked. it wasn't that she didn't care, it was just that they hadn't come to undermine her plans as hard as she had expected. it wasn't hard to put two and two together, given her information sources and sheer level of deduction skills. it made her fall silent for a moment, mourning the family she had killed.[break][break] -- the family she could have been a part of. of course, she never was to be part of any family to begin with. foregoing her original name and title was enough to prove that as fact.[break][break] "not my intention." caught up in her thoughts, her words came out as the ending fraction of a statement. this was rare for her who had to word things carefully after great deliberation with herself. of course, this moment was also rare. it brought up many things to consider and her mind was working overtime to keep up. "it's not my intention to let you down." professionally put, but the meaning was subjective and kind. it meant she wouldn't make him forget the faith he put in her and how it affects her present actions and methods. roman was a good man - a man much too good for the world at large. it made him an important centerpiece for her collection. little did she know he would overgrow the very pot she placed him in and push all others out of it. there was no room for her to stray and be bored. even in all her moments of trying to pry out negative feelings of jealousy and uselessness out of him, she had always had her eyes on him - observing, analyzing, wanting.[break][break] "it never felt like you were quite mine. although i can possess you in a literal sense, you were always defiant - moreso than anyone i've ever met. i could have met someone even more defiant than you if i had searched, i'm sure, but ...," she tried to rephrase - correct her words to not mean to incite jealousy or worry. it wasn't what she wanted, but what she was used to. this was one of many steps towards a healthier relationship - something nurturing for a person so broken. of course, it was the blind leading the blind. "perhaps i feel more comfortable saying that now." shaking her head, lorelei sighed - aggravated by her wishy-washy wording. "no. i know i feel more comfortable saying that now." as many times before, she took the inky-haired man's chin in her hand and looked down at him - almost as if meaning to judge and demean him. her gaze was sharp but it softened at the edges, showing no such intention. [break][break] "our families may have broken apart for many reasons, but i consider you to be that for myself." again, her wording was a bit clumsy and so she continued - extrapolating a bit. "you make me forget about the negativity surrounding everyday occurrences and have been there for me in more ways than anyone else could be. i can only hope to prove to be a worthwhile investment as well, in due time." essentially, she was admitting to seeing him as someone to rely on - to stress on and cry on. roman was reliable and worthwhile. she would work to be that, as well. softly, secretly, she leaned into his ear and allowed her dark hair to intermingle with his own as if telling him something nobody else could hear:[break][break] "i love you, roman. i'm not going anywhere without you in my best intentions or by my side." 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