Freedom exhilarated her.
Every step towards the door Elisabeth feared some words that might pull her back. Some remark that might snag her in place, hooking her back into that room where she could feel herself so close to saying or doing something foolishly revealing.
Somehow, this time, she had escaped when she wanted to.
As Elisabeth signed out of the hospital, retrieving her Pokémon and other sensitive items from security, her hand shook with a faint tremor. One she stilled as best as she could, unable to place exactly where the nerves had arisen from.
Relief? Panic? Or perhaps reassurance that the truth she'd held as self-evident in her mind was, in fact, true:
This had all meant absolutely nothing.
Anonymity had emboldened her to play this silly little game. Elisabeth was nothing and no one in a world full of Avatars, cunning politicians, fierce soldiers, and brilliant scientists: just one more pretty face in a region filled with pretty faces, like one rose flourishing in a thicket of countless other blossoms.
The idea that someone like
FERNANDO SILPH wanted anything more than a passing distraction from such a person was absurd.
She had been willing to be a distraction. Something without strings or attachment. Something casual, light, entertaining even: one stranger speaking with another, and taking comfort in the safety of that strangeness.
Although.
Walking into the sunlight, Elisabeth wandered idly about Lilycove's streets, unfocused in the haze of her thoughts. The tremor returned, and with it, an uncomfortable truth that she suppressed to the best of her ability:
He
angered her.
That he had let her believe, for a moment, that she was more than what she had been willing to let herself be to him. That he had confused her with the intensity of his attentions, that he had dedicated his gratitude to her, and that he had dared to guilt her now in that very hospital room.
More than that, more than anything, it infuriated Elisabeth to know the truth of him was
what she always feared it would be.
She resented that she had chosen him to turn to in her quiet moments of loneliness, in the darkest hours of night.
She loathed that she had ignored those warnings in herself and selfishly continued onward. If she hadn't learned what she did of him, by the grace of selling her soul to Rocket as she had, that time in the hospital room might have been spent very differently.
How nauseating was the admission of that weakness.
For a moment Elisabeth allowed herself to stew in her own indignation and self-loathing, before the thoughts were quietly filed away and pushed aside, like so many other sins and follies she failed to forgive herself for.
The composure returned, and with it, a tidy compartmentalization. She would go home and she would tend to her garden. She would lose herself in her work, as she always did, and later go to the Rocket Headquarters and continue in her newfound duties as an admin.
This was what Elisabeth told herself as she departed, at least.
Instead, in the coming hours, she would spend the rest of the day and night ransacking her home for an object she could not find: yanking out drawers, turning over bedsheets, emptying her closet, and uprooting countless flowers in her garden in the hopes of finding something she knew,
she already knew with sinking dread, was elsewhere.
She'd been so careful in so many ways, and so, so breathtakingly reckless in others.
In a hospital room in Lilycove, sitting on a little black card, sat a forgotten
little gold ring.
A Kalosian family heirloom.
A poisoner's ring.
And, perhaps most damnably and innocuously of all, a peculiar master key to a poisoner's basement.