Baki
She/Her
18
December 21
Saffron City
Bi
administrative assistant
Officer
oceans of angels, oceans of stars, down by the sea is where you drown your scars
A Quiet Day [M]
POSTED ON May 3, 2023 4:54:16 GMT
[nospaces] [attr="class","petalbasetsu"] [attr="class","star1tsu"] [attr="class","circleoutline1tsu"] [attr="class","starimgtsu"] [attr="class","star2tsu"]It feels as though you've woken up from a nightmare, but it's worse than just that. [break][break] You remember the details so vividly, things you couldn't conjure in your wildest imagination. Things you did, things you said. Everywhere you go, no matter what you do, you can't escape from them. They're on your mind constantly. And the worst part is, you don't even have the relief of knowing it was all a dream, because you can't be sure how much of it was real and how much was imagined.[break][break] What lies at the bottom of that rift just a short ride away calls to you even now.[break][break] This last month's been hell. Rehabilitation, crippling depression, and dissociation. Whatever brought you to the void kept a part of you. You're lighter, less yourself. The worst of that has passed, of course. Navy's suggestion to focus on taking up a hobby, a small rooftop garden, actually seems to have helped to take your mind off it just a little. [break][break] But even so, you live in the shadow of the things you've seen. They make this ordinary life seem so much more out of place and hard to fit into.[break][break] "No, no! A little closer, I can't carry it that far!" [break][break] Your words leave your lips, and yet there's still a gnawing sensation in your gut that they're the result of some cruel practical joke.[break][break] You shouldn't be here. You're missing something out there. These words, they're barely even yours. You're just fitting into a role that Navy expects, what he wants for you, as if that would make him feel better after seeing you in such a sorry state. [break][break] "There! That's better! I knew you could follow directions! So what happened to all those other times, huh?"[break][break] It's playful banter, really. What amounts to it, anyway. The prickly thorns of a rose are there to ward off those who think to eat her. But they prick indiscriminately, even those who've gotten close just to admire her beauty. It's a quality people either come to love or hate. Back in Kanto, it was just how you managed to survive. [break][break] You take the lead now. Shuwen is great at carrying things and doing manual labor, but you're not sure he's suited to cultivating a garden. You glance to Ayame briefly, sunbathing on the roof. A moment of hesitation, and you determine that you'll take care of things yourself. You don't wanna disturb her nap.[break][break] "Now go and grab more bags of fertilizer. Give me some space." [break][break] You wave Shuwen off, happy to be left alone for a while. There's a sense of relaxation and satisfaction that comes with digging in the garden, something you never expected til you tried it. [break][break] It keeps you centered, less likely to get lost in all the stuff that's happened lately.[break][break] All that said, silently, you wonder where Navy's gone. [attr="class","star3tsu"] [attr="class","rouxcredittsu"] ♠[newclass=.petalbasetsu]font:11px roboto;--accent:#d5bed2;[/newclass] [newclass=.petalbasetsu]max-width: 450px; height: auto;border: 1px solid #1a1a1a; border-radius: 10px; overflow: hidden; background: #252525; [/newclass] [newclass=.star1tsu]border-radius: 10px 10px 0px 0; max-width: 460px; height: 220px; background: url(https://i.imgur.com/r3Sgi2E.png), rgb(160, 132, 155, 0.65); background-blend-mode: luminosity; background-attachment: fixed; background-size: contain; display: flex; justify-content: center; align-items: center;[/newclass] [newclass=.starimgtsu]width: 100px; height: 100px; position: relative; border-radius: 100%; object-fit: cover;[/newclass] [newclass=.starimgtsu img]height:100px;width:100px;border-radius:100%;[/newclass] [newclass=.star2tsu]width: 350px; padding: 20px; font-size: 13px; text-align: justify; color: #eee; margin: 20px 0px 20px 0px; border-radius: 5px;[/newclass] [newclass=.petalpoketsu]text-align: center; margin: 0 auto; [/newclass] [newclass=.petalpoketsu img]margin-top:0px; [/newclass] [newclass=.circleoutline1tsu]border-radius: 100%; width: 120px; height: 120px; background: var(--accent); opacity: 0.3; position: absolute; [/newclass] [newclass=.star2tsu b]font-weight: bold; color:var(--accent);[/newclass] [newclass=.star2tsu i]text-decoration:italic; color:var(--accent);[/newclass] [newclass=.star3tsu] border-radius: 0px 0px 0px 0; max-width: 460px; height: 50px; background: url(https://i.imgur.com/r3Sgi2E.png), rgb(160, 132, 155, 0.65); background-blend-mode: luminosity; background-attachment: fixed; background-size: contain; display: flex; text-align:center;[/newclass] [newclass=.rouxcredittsu]align:right; color:#AB4646; font-size:10px; text-align:right; padding:10px; [/newclass]
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