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Gunner appreciated the validation. He'd used the same reasoning reassured himself whenever he wondered if he was being too secretive with Summer.[break][break]

Sayori's death had been a trauma he'd struggled to live with until recently. Even now, the pain of her passing still caused his heart to ache at times. A new girlfriend didn't need to feel the burden of that truth right away.[break][break]

That omission was reasonable. What Gunner was about to admit was not.[break][break]

"Summer's pregnant," he said before taking another large swig of his drink. He knew no other way to share the news besides blunt confession.[break][break]

"Maybe a month or two along. Don't reprimand me," he quickly added, shooting Gideon a warning glance. "She said she was on birth control. Apparently even then, there's a chance for pregnancy."[break][break]

Gunner rubbed his face with a hand, looking troubled, pensive.[break][break]

Afraid.



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As if this day couldn't get more dramatic. [break][break]

Gideon let the news sink in before responding. He sighed heavily in the meantime, pinching the bridge of his nose beneath his glasses and rubbing down into the creases below his eyes.[break][break]

"Arceus, Gunner..." He finally muttered, leaning back into his chair. Eye contact was avoided for now, the dusty wooden rafters a preferable choice rather than looking his little brother in the face.[break][break]

He thought long and hard before responding. And when he did, it was with a pragmatic mindset — what was objectively best for , not necessarily morally right.[break][break]

A month or two along left them with options to explore.[break][break]

"...have you suggested abortion?"






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Abortion.[break][break]

Of course, Gunner had considered abortion. After the first twenty-four hours of numbness and panic, his mind had latched onto the solution that would make the situation go away.[break][break]

But then he'd remembered Summer's trauma over losing her last pregnancy and her hope of keeping the new child. He'd remembered the way she asked him if he wanted it — almost begged him, with the way she'd looked at him.[break][break]

Gunner hadn't wanted to upset her.[break][break]

"I… Not yet. I don't think I can. Summer wants to keep the baby," he admitted, sounding more defeated than ever before. "She's had difficult pregnancies in the past. It felt wrong to deny her this one. And I thought… well, you know I had always wanted to be a dad."[break][break]

From the expression on his face, however, it was obvious fatherhood was the last thing he wanted.



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"Her past misfortunes do not obligate your compliance. What you want in this matters too." He replied, sterner now as the gravity of the situation was fully processed.[break][break]

was the older brother. It was his job to find solutions to 's problems. At least, it felt that way in the moment, as Gideon's mind shuffled through all the complications and difficulties a child would bring to his sibling's life. [break][break]

And, conversely, the hardships Gunner's life would put onto any potential child.[break][break]

It wouldn't be so dire if it weren't for his brother's chosen profession...[break][break]

"But..." Gideon let out a deep breath through his nose and then took another sip from his already near-empty glass. "You can't force her hand. I just..."[break][break]

"I can tell you're not happy. Whether she has the baby or not, I don't think you should continue seeing her."







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Gideon was right. His words validated Gunner's feelings, and a measure of relief stole into his expression. However, his brother's advice was difficult to put into practice.[break][break]

"I do care about her, though," Gunner said. "And I feel responsible for the child. I can't just abandon it or Summer, not when she's happier than I've ever seen her before."[break][break]

Devotion, as a personality trait, defined him — both in a wholesome way that made him a loving son and brother, and in a harmful way that complicated his life time and time again.[break][break]

A glance alerted Gunner to Gideon's near-empty glass. On instinct, the younger Graves raised his hand to get the bartender's attention so both brothers could order another round of drinks.[break][break]

"I'll think about it more, okay?" It was the best Gunner could offer at that moment. "There's still time, right?"



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What was the usual cutoff for this sort of thing? Twelve weeks? Maybe a little longer?[break][break]

God, what a mess.[break][break]

"Not very much." Gideon confessed, his expression grim.[break][break]

When Gunner talked of care and responsibility, all he could think about were the things that would be taken away with the birth of a child. [break][break]

was inherently selfish, after all — time after time, he put his work first, to the detriment of his relationships. He didn't want children of his own for this very reason.[break][break]

So to see his younger brother stuck in this way, with little else to do but accept that his life would be irrevocably changed... it was not something Gideon relished in the slightest. He'd been hurt by 's deceit, but would never have wished this upon him in return.[break][break]

"Just know that you're not alone in this, Gunner. I'm here if you ever need me."








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Despite any tenuous hope, Gunner knew Gideon was right. Time was slipping through his fingers. He had to talk to — and soon. Otherwise, the suffocating claustrophobia he'd started feeling in recent weeks would only worsen.[break][break]

But in the moment, there was nothing he could do. So Gunner simply clasped his brother's shoulder and gave it a grateful squeeze. The accompanying smile was genuine, though fear still tinged its edges.[break][break]

"I know. You have no idea how much I appreciate that, Gideon."



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