Baki
She/Her
18
December 21
Saffron City
Bi
Gym Leader
Officer
oceans of angels, oceans of stars, down by the sea is where you drown your scars
Owlin' Mad [M]
POSTED ON Jul 31, 2023 5:42:22 GMT
[nospaces] [attr="class","petalbasetsu"] [attr="class","star1tsu"] [attr="class","circleoutline1tsu"] [attr="class","starimgtsu"] [attr="class","star2tsu"]She freezes. One foot out of the truck, listening to his words. Words from the only person that seems to care about her in this whole awful, fucked up world. [break][break] Tension in her shoulders releases as she stares out of the truck at all the empty fields. The open spaces that make her so uncomfortable, far more inviting than the interior of the vehicle. [break][break] Finally, she wipes a tear on her sleeve and turns back to him.[break][break] "... Then I'll be Tsubaki."[break][break] Her voice flutters a little, committing to a role she was never able to fit into. A girl she was never able to be. [break][break] She had to be a wild animal back home, had to bare her fangs and hide her true self, just to survive. She had to be strong. Now, she's lost that need, and the vacuum left where a whole person should've grown up, developed, matured into a respectable young girl is left vacant.[break][break] Letting herself be weak, it'll fill that void all the same. She'll lose herself in that, become someone she's not.[break][break] "Because I know how much they hurt people, I'll be the sort of person that only Tsubaki can become."[break][break] She'll fill that void properly.[break][break] She'll become someone.[break][break] "I can't be happy with an easy life. I'm sorry. [break][break]
As long as people like that exist, as long as there are still people who've done what I did, I'll never be able to, Navy.[break][break]
But. I don't even know how, but I'll become Tsubaki. I'll go to school. I'll become a botanist. I'll grow strong, in all the ways you can't, cause you're affording me these opportunities you never had. [break][break]
But this is something only I can do. As someone who once preyed on the weak. Let me be strong, let me protect them. I can't turn my back on all the people I hurt now, just because I don't have to be that wild animal anymore."[break][break] She swallows, her throat dry. She's never torn down her facade like this before, and it shows. She's not even sure what to do with herself.[break][break] But still, she doesn't avert her eyes anymore.[break][break] "If you want me to be Tsubaki, Navy, then you need to stop treating me like Gabe. [break][break]
I'm my own person, so let me make my own mistakes. It's horrible what happened to your brother, it's so awful it hurts my heart to think about, but you can't smother me trying to protect me from this world. I'm gonna have to live in it regardless."[break][break] It's not the obstinate refusal of a child. She understands exactly what the stakes are, and she's begging him to understand her. [break][break] Not as his protegee, as his ward, as a dependent he needs to protect, just as he had his own brother —— but as a grown woman, as Tsubaki.[break][break] She's asking him to let her grow up.[break][break] [attr="class","star3tsu"] [attr="class","petalpoketsu"] [attr="class","rouxcredittsu"] ♠[newclass=.petalbasetsu]font:11px roboto;--accent:#d5bed2;[/newclass] [newclass=.petalbasetsu]max-width: 450px; height: auto;border: 1px solid #1a1a1a; border-radius: 10px; overflow: hidden; background: #252525; [/newclass] [newclass=.star1tsu]border-radius: 10px 10px 0px 0; max-width: 460px; height: 220px; background: url(https://i.imgur.com/r3Sgi2E.png), rgb(160, 132, 155, 0.65); background-blend-mode: luminosity; background-attachment: fixed; background-size: contain; display: flex; justify-content: center; align-items: center;[/newclass] [newclass=.starimgtsu]width: 100px; height: 100px; position: relative; border-radius: 100%; object-fit: cover;[/newclass] [newclass=.starimgtsu img]height:100px;width:100px;border-radius:100%;[/newclass] [newclass=.star2tsu]width: 350px; padding: 20px; font-size: 13px; text-align: justify; color: #eee; margin: 20px 0px 20px 0px; border-radius: 5px;[/newclass] [newclass=.petalpoketsu]text-align: center; margin: 0 auto; [/newclass] [newclass=.petalpoketsu img]margin-top:0px; [/newclass] [newclass=.circleoutline1tsu]border-radius: 100%; width: 120px; height: 120px; background: var(--accent); opacity: 0.3; position: absolute; [/newclass] [newclass=.star2tsu b]font-weight: bold; color:var(--accent);[/newclass] [newclass=.star2tsu i]text-decoration:italic; color:var(--accent);[/newclass] [newclass=.star3tsu] border-radius: 0px 0px 0px 0; max-width: 460px; height: 50px; background: url(https://i.imgur.com/r3Sgi2E.png), rgb(160, 132, 155, 0.65); background-blend-mode: luminosity; background-attachment: fixed; background-size: contain; display: flex; text-align:center;[/newclass] [newclass=.rouxcredittsu]align:right; color:#AB4646; font-size:10px; text-align:right; padding:10px; [/newclass]
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