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[attr="class","textbody"] Somewhere, somehow, Jayden knew they were back.

[break][break] The last time he'd seen them, in the flesh, had been in Evergrande. But Rocket's News Network was swift, and it was only a matter of time before it would reach Jayden's ears that they were back. But between everything that had happened since Goodbye Galar, everything that had happened as the wound in his heart continued to fester and fester —

[break][break] Time passed. Days passed. Hours passed.

[break][break] Doors to his room in the medicinal bay pry open like a cryogenic chamber, air hissing into unnatural cold.

[break][break] Jayden's eyes have always been warm when looking upon them. Soft.

[break][break] "Chu-e Choi."

[break][break] Today, they are cold. Just with everything else.

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Why visit him?[break][break]

It haunts Chu-e as they spread makeup over skin, tuck hair up into a bun. It feels desperate. It feels cheap.[break][break]

So why visit?[break][break]

It doesn't stop them. From trying to make themself look pretty. From trying to make themself look less like a walking corpse.[break][break]

jayden cross didn't love them, not anymore. It was either some passing fancy that hung around too long or a crutch over a lonely heart. So, logic would provide that Chu-e shouldn't visit him.[break][break]

But they do.[break][break]

The door cracks open and Chu-e only stands in the doorway for a long few moments as they stare at one another.[break][break]

"You're cold today, Jayden." They close the door behind them and cross the room. Help themselves to a chair and pull it up beside the bed. Chu-e looks over the other with a tilt of the head, a stray lock of hair curling against their cheek.

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[attr="class","textbody"] Chu-e Choi may be pretty today, but Jayden isn't.

[break][break] The wounds from Disseminate have healed, but only barely. His skin is still bare and scratched, medical patches feeling blistered along his skin. The scientists have stabbed him with needles and wires and any machines imaginable. He doesn't feel like himself. He doesn't feel.

[break][break] Opposite from everything that he was that day in Evergrande City. Crying, begging, desperately for them to come home. To return to Rocket.

[break][break] Now, today, his cheeks are hollowed out. Frost clings to his hair, crystals formulating along his shoulderblades.

[break][break] "Why —" he struggles to find his voice, vocal cords sliding like glass. "Why are you here?"

[break][break] Here, in this room?

[break][break] Here, in Rocket?

[break][break] Here, by his side?

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"I wanted to make sure you were okay."[break][break]

A hand reaches out. To try and brush ice from jayden cross's hair. The frost of something Chu-e doesn't understand clinging.[break][break]

Chu-e hums and looks down on the other. Flat blue eyes scraping over the wounds. The gauntness of jaws.[break][break]

"Have you been eating?" Not that Jayden had been awake long, but-[break][break]

It was always nice to ask.

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[attr="class","textbody"] Okay?

[break][break] "What —"

[break][break] Why were they here? In the sub, in Rocket? Here, with him?

[break][break] Jayden does not know the answer that he's seeking. His memory leaks out like a fog into mist, blinking away the confusion from his eyes, as his mind tries to grapple with the reality that is in front of him.

[break][break] A hand snaps to that frail wrist, stopping from where it brushes against his bangs.

[break][break] Frost puffs out in small, labored breaths.

[break][break] "Tell me," he says, voice cracking. "Why are you here?"

[break][break] "Why.. why do you care?"

[break][break] 'You left.'

[break][break] Did he mean in Evergrande? Did he mean in death?

[break][break] Did he mean in — that beach?

[break][break] Memories trickle in like glass shards over smooth ocean shores.

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Fingers flex. The warmth flows under thin skin against a cold palm.[break][break]

"I want to be." Whispered. The ice mingles in the air.[break][break]

A small frown rests on their face.[break][break]

"Do you not want me to care?" Twisted, a non-answer to a question that Chu-e couldn't answer.

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[attr="class","textbody"] "Why?"

[break][break] The grip around that glass wrist tightens, but not enough to snap.

[break][break] Jayden is too weak for it. Too injured by the events of the Cave of Origin, too broken apart to do anything about it.

[break][break] He can barely keep himself together. His feelings are no longer his own. Nothing in this world feels real, including Chu-e Choi. His image could easily be that of MATIAS SILPH in the Cave of Origin, bearing down on him, with that knife-sharp smile.

[break][break] But it isn't. This is real.

[break][break] The pain that pulses in his heart.

[break][break] Real.

[break][break] "I don't," he says simply, with finality. His fingers unravel from that wrist, dropping like he'd been burnt. His eyes are full of pain and suffering. "You left me."

[break][break] "You hurt me."

[break][break] A growl slithers out, not his own.

[break][break] "Just like they did."

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Delicate bones grind together. Chu-e doesn't flinch as jayden cross crushes them; even when bruises are already swelling and reddening when Jayden releases them.[break][break]

"I did." And Chu-e still doesn't answer the question. Doesn't bother to apologize.[break][break]

Jayden knew better than almost anyone how hard it was to both love and be loved by Chu-e Choi. It was something terrible and rotten that only he and Eris Halla would ever really understand.[break][break]

At the end, Chu-e loses the plot, though.[break][break]

Brows furrowing, Chu-e shakes their head.[break][break]

"What do you mean?"

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[attr="class","textbody"] Chu-e admits to it. Says he did, without reason or apology. Jayden doesn't know what to expect; he never does, when it comes to Chu-e Choi.

[break][break] He knows that there's nothing to apologize for, not anymore. But the fact that he never did still grinds something within him, something old and forgotten, and it resurfaces memories that he'd rather nothing to do with.

[break][break] "Them. Everyone — CIAN MAHER, illeana reyes, Remiel Calcifet, Ashley Shepard."

[break][break] But that didn't mean Chien Pao didn't enjoy it. The Ruinous Beast, who had been laying in the corner of the room, pleased with the storm that was brewing between the two ex-lovers finally looked up. From the pocket of darkness where it hid, it's head lifted from it's paws. Eyes bright and fierce, just as jayden cross's was in that moment.

[break][break] "What makes you different from them?"

[break][break] "Why did you come back?"

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"I'm selfish." Chu-e answers both questions at once, easily this time. They look as if about to lean forward. To kiss? To tease? For nothing at all?[break][break]

But the audience in the corner of the room makes Chu-e pause. They sits back up, back straight, and give an unimpressed look to the snow leopard.[break][break]

Chu-e's bond with Necrozma had never been the perfect symbiosis like with Zev Harcourt (not that Chu-e knew about that). Necrozma had left holes and aches in their body. Like any mother, they would never be shaped quite the same way inside after giving birth. Some of these old aches sing when Chu-e locks eyes with the thing watching.[break][break]

"Is that what hurt you?"

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[attr="class","textbody"] I'm selfish.

[break][break] Bitterness formed like malice in the back of his throat. It was an answer, but not one that was satisfying. Chu-e had always been like that, speaking in riddles more than answers. Doing what he liked, when he liked.

[break][break] 'It's why you liked him,' a small voice in the back of his head needled, poking at an old wound that had been left untouched for too long.

[break][break] The look in Jayden's eyes snaps into a glare, even as Chu-E leans forward. His jaw clenched, whether it is to hold back his warring emotions, or the displeasure that the other's presence innately gives him.

[break][break] But then Chu-e leans back.

[break][break] Without even knowing, Jayden knows why.

[break][break] The devil prowls forward slowly, it's icy gaze bearing down on the creature that had once made his victim's heart beat. It likes this one. More than it likes the other one. The other one who softens jayden cross too much, who makes him too weak and untouchable to his ruinous influence.

[break][break] "Is that what hurt you?"

[break][break] Jayden's eyes snap to blue and he reaches forward, gripping at the hem of the other's shirt.

[break][break] "You hurt me. You did this to me."

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"I didn't put you in this hospital bed." It is an argument that does not dismiss the first statement. Or any time that jayden cross was hurt because of them before.[break][break]

The beast stalks closer and Chu-e just gives it an unimpressed look. There is a spike of annoyance, that this creature would interrupt when they were so busy spinning webs. To weave Jayden further into the wide net that Chu-e would cast over others.[break][break]

But, it did have the advantage of being cute.[break][break]

They stay in their seat thanks to Jayden's hold, but it does not stop them from leaning over. They stretch out and offer their hand to the white pokemon as Chu-e might any other feline. Relaxed, but careful.[break][break]

"I want to pet you." Spoken to the cat. It is less a suggestion and more an order.

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[attr="class","textbody"] "You might as well have!"

[break][break] Fingers tighten around the hem of Chu-e Choi's shirt, drawing them a breath's width apart. His hands tremble with the effort of his emotion, staring back into that eyes made of indigo, skies so vast that he'd once wanted to drown in them. But now, filled with HATRED all he ever wanted to do was to scorch those wildflowers to ash.

[break][break] "I loved you," he snarled. "I would've given everything up for you."

[break][break] His love, his life.

[break][break] It was the reason that he'd become a Beast. It was the reason that he had gotten himself stabbed for their benefit.

[break][break] He would've done anything.

[break][break] As the boy trembles with the intensity of his emotion, Chien Pao only lurks. His God is endeared to this thing that casts the boy in such broken glory, so much better than the other one who only hardens his heart from him. No, Chu-e Choi makes jayden cross bleed.

[break][break] Slowly, the feline blinks. Almost as if in thanks.

[break][break] 'Thank you for breaking him for me.'

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Chu-e can almost taste the frost on jayden cross's breath when he speaks.[break][break]

He closes his eyes and breaths in deeply. Still in quiet even as he is gripped in trembling hands, is shaken by fragile words.[break][break]

Slowly, Chu-e raises his hands up to cup Jayden's where he grips. Cold, but not as cold as Jayden's touch. A slow, steady breath in preparation to rip off this particular bandage.[break][break]

"Jayden Cross. You need to get over me." Chu-e's gentleness, the edging around whatever this was- it's brought to a standstill. It chokes and rips at his own heart as he says it. A squeeze of jealousy against fern delaney, someone he has never met. Yet, this was the right thing to do.[break][break]

Chu-e opens his eyes again and they brim with emotion. But they are hard and flinty, not the pathetic mirrors he allows others to see. Only his own. Only Chu-e Choi. Only the man who made Cinnabar's sea bleed.[break][break]

"Even if you loved me. Even if I do love you. You have someone better for you.[break][break]

His words are harsh. They are firm. They are not unkind. Chu-e squeezes jayden cross's hand with force.[break][break]

"I married Arthur and got him murdered. I tore Leon to pieces for fun. Jayden, what do you think would have happened if we were ever more serious than a series of fleeting glances and a stolen kiss? I'm a terrible person who can't be fixed by sweet words or good intentions. I would have loved you too hard and ruined you just like I do everyone else. Get. Over. Me."

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